chapter 193
Regret
Berheim, the warrior of the beginning.
I decided to think of him as Berheim, not my past self.
Even if he were me, the things he did or experienced in the past were not things I did or experienced myself.
It is a separate entity from me. However, my previous life was simply Berheim, and I was the reincarnation of Berheim.
I decided to think that way.
In the memory of Bergheim.
He proposed a contract to the gatekeeper of fate, hiding his impatience.
He, the one who opens the door to destiny, asks that he may one day cross the gate again and return to this place where destruction has taken hold, to confront the evil spirit.
The reason he suggested so was obvious.
Although the evil god Bulginus was defeated, he was not able to completely destroy him.
It was only natural that the evil spirit would rise again soon.
The bigger problem was that the only being in this world who could stand against the evil spirit was himself, the ‘one who opens destiny’.
But what if that self goes beyond the door and disappears from this world?
destruction.
There was only one set of words in this world.
So the gatekeeper of fate answered the proposition put forth.
It would take 1,000 years to return.
In addition, when he returned, he would have lost everything, including his memories.
I wish that were all there was to it.
The gatekeeper of fate said that the agreement required the consent of the evil spirits.
When the spirit of the evil spirit was summoned, the evil spirit demanded the fate of the vessel from its future self.
Hearing that request, Berheim couldn’t help but hesitate for a moment.
I can’t guarantee it.
I can’t remember anything,
A confidence that has nothing.
Will it be possible to overcome the fate of the vessel?
No, will I be able to survive until I face the evil spirit?
Even if you survive, will you be able to fight against the evil spirits?
The worries grew deeper and deeper.
If he doesn’t accept the request, will the evil spirit accept his offer?
That couldn’t be happening.
Even if he returns, will this world still be safe and will Daphne still be alive as she was when he loved her?
There was nothing that could be guaranteed.
The chances of achieving everything you want are also significantly lower.
Still.
“i get it.”
I accepted the evil spirit’s request.
Because there was no other choice.
However, I only set one condition to delay the b*stard’s resurrection as much as possible and to suppress his power.
“Instead, give me a part of your soul.”
“You won’t be here, so who on earth are you leaving it to?”
“Daphne Iris.”
A woman who I thought would not mind giving her all.
“K, Khahak! You’ll delay the complete resurrection of the woman, and save the one you love. Is that what you’re thinking?”
Berheim decided to give his all for her.
“Do you know how much despair you and that child, as well as others, will experience when things don’t go your way? I wonder. When that child wakes up and realizes that she has a part of Yeo’s soul in her. Will she still resent you then?”
Even though he knew that Daphne would hate him for the rest of her life and would never be able to die.
「Okay. Let’s give it a try! I wonder! Will you be able to protect your lover from me, or will your lover become the celebratory drinker to celebrate your complete resurrection? K, kahhak!」
Berheim nodded and pledged.
Even if I forget everything, even if I lose everything, even if I am not myself, I will definitely protect Daphne.
—-
As soon as I learned the terms of the contract, there was only one thought that came to my mind.
‘Berheim, you crazy b*stard!’
This crazy guy put the life of the person he loved at risk.
This son of a b*tch has put a piece of the demon’s soul into the image of a loved one.
This piece of trash decided the fate of the person he loved on his own.
Thanks to this, Daphne was unable to die even if she wanted to until the end of this world was decided.
Because of the evil spirit that had infiltrated his mind, he was forced to live in chains of evil.
He was targeted by the evil spirit who wanted a complete descent in order to possess a part of his soul.
Of course, I know that it was an inevitable choice to create a slim possibility.
But it wasn’t easy to understand.
To protect the one you love, you sacrifice the one you love?
If you knew full well how much pain and resentment your loved one would suffer while he or she was alive?
I couldn’t help but make a resolution, feeling as if a thousand fires were burning inside me.
‘No matter what happens, I must protect my teacher from the evil spirits. If I can’t do that…’
Because everything will end.
—-
I kept dreaming.
In my dream, I experienced many different things.
I had a dream where I was suddenly possessed and then saved by my teacher.
I had a dream where my teacher smiled happily as he watched me force myself to eat a gray sandwich.
I had a dream where my teacher called out to me and made a connection between me and my disciple.
I had a dream where my teacher saved me from collapsing due to a backlash.
I had a dream where I was wiping away tears from my teacher’s eyes while he was having a nightmare while holding me.
I had a dream where my teacher, who secretly quirks his lips while watching me grow, scolds me like a tsundere.
I had a dream where you were carrying me and humming a song, and your warm and fragrant scent made me feel good.
···.
I kept dreaming and desperately wished.
I wish this long dream, which I now know is a dream, would never end.
—-
I opened my eyes.
I desperately hoped this was just a dream.
“···.”
But, as I felt the unspeakable pain all over my body, I unfortunately realized.
The fact that the dream I hoped would never end has ended.
A small, delicate touch felt in the hand.
When I turned my head with difficulty, Lily was asleep with her head resting on my hand, holding my hand.
“reel···.”
Could it be because I suddenly felt like I had woken up from a dream?
The voice leaked out and then stopped.
The situation was quickly resolved.
‘I am···.’
The bowl broke and fell over, and Lily, who was in the Holy Land, did not wake up until she arrived here.
Before I collapse, my last memory comes to mind.
Me, who was on the verge of death with the bowl broken, and the evil spirit that tried to swallow me.
The teacher who suddenly appeared in front of him.
I was thrown by the teacher and fell on the back of the polymorphed tweeter.
“Master···.”
She saved me.
The evil spirit took her.
“Ahh···.”
The accident has stopped.
My throat is sore.
Tears flowed down my cheeks.
“Oh, Camel-ssi···!”
Did he sense me crying like a cripple?
Lily, who had woken up, hugged me right away with her tearful eyes.
—-
News that I had woken up spread quickly.
In an instant, several people entered the recovery room.
The main characters of the continent are Dian, Darren, Jan, and Michelan.
And Sage and Daisy, and even the original Lily.
“– You are from —!”
“—Is –!”
“–but —.”
They told me what happened that day.
The strange flying object reportedly disappeared into thin air with a loud explosion.
Most people were initially happy because they thought I had defeated the evil spirit, but then they saw me, half-dead, and Tweety, whose polymorph had been released, falling from the sky.
They say it was Fran who saved me and Tweetie.
Most of my acquaintances were safe, but Rose was seriously injured, and Hilda, the headmistress, was critically injured and was said to be on the verge of death like me.
The Master was missing, and it was also reported that Twit had told everyone the truth.
When I heard that the Demon Realm was teeming with demons, I raised my hand to stop them from talking.
“stop···.”
To be honest, I couldn’t hear it very well.
Because there was only one person on my mind right now.
Master, she has been captured by the evil spirit.
No, to be exact, he abandoned himself to save me.
“I···.”
My head hurt. My chest was pounding. My hands and feet were shaking.
“I want to be alone for a while···.”
With the feeling of lethargy creeping up my body, I had to give a warning to everyone to get out.
—-
A dark night that even hides tears.
I was lying in bed, staring blankly out the window, unable to see anything.
It was late at night, but sleep did not come.
All kinds of distracting thoughts were cluttering my mind.
I don’t know how many days it’s been, but I haven’t gotten out of bed since.
Lily, Rose, Sage, Daisy, Fran.
People who were precious to me came to see me every day, but I didn’t have the courage to even look them in the eye, so I issued an order to banish them.
I didn’t have the courage to do that.
Why is that?
I think it’s probably because I’m afraid of stepping into a world without my teacher, who I’ve spent a long time yearning for.
“You retard… You fucking idiot….”
I felt resentful of myself.
I hated that kid who left his teacher without even making an excuse.
I felt like a cripple after collapsing in front of such a teacher and being saved.
The country that could not protect such a teacher wanted to kill him again and again.
“If···.”
If I had not left my master’s side···.
If only I had listened to my teacher better…
I wonder if something like the Master being possessed by an evil spirit ever happened?
Even though I knew it wasn’t true, I kept regretting it and my heart ached from the lingering regret.
“This country is···”
Even though I learned the contents of the contract from Berheim’s memories, I didn’t consider the possibility that the vessel would break.
“Why are you alive···?”
Even though the bowl is broken, I am still alive and not dead.
A thousand fires rose in my chest. Hot tears flowed from my eyes.
Why am I alive? I survived thanks to my teacher.
I don’t know what trick the teacher used.
However, I definitely felt that the vessel that surrounded my mind and body had disappeared.
I clenched my fist. I created mana and starlight at the same time.
“···.”
It did get up, but it wasn’t even a tiny bit better than before.
A phenomenon that occurs when a bowl breaks.
In exchange for saving his life, he lost enormous strength.
I don’t know why. No, I could understand it well enough, but I just didn’t have the courage until now.
-[Last Contract] quest is in progress.
A phrase floated in the air.