Chapter 17: The weight of uncertainty
Covered in a suffocating mist, Rose found herself trapped in a forest where the trees stood like twisted specters, their boughs heavy with the weight of forgotten souls. The air was thick, suffused with an unnatural silence, broken only by the distant echoes of her own desperate calls. "Where are you?" she whispered into the suffocating void, her voice a faint tremor lost among the endless gray.
Suddenly, something coiled around her leg—cold, unforgiving. She fell to the ground with a strangled gasp, her heart hammering in her chest. It was just a branch, its twisted fingers clutching at her like the hands of the dead. And then the ground shifted, the earth groaning as a horde of rotting creatures emerged from the fog, their bodies mangled, their eyes hollow pits of hunger.
A scream bubbled in her throat, but she swallowed it back, her fingers frantic as she searched for her sword. It was gone. Her power was gone. She felt the brutal, biting truth: she was nothing but flesh and bone, fragile and alone. She was human. Weak.
The zombies closed in, their grotesque forms dragging across the ground with the slow, relentless crawl of death itself. Rose stumbled to her feet, her body shaking with fear, but she ran. She ran as though the very fires of hell were at her heels, her breath ragged, her legs burning. She could hear them, hear their cold, wet hands scraping against the earth, dragging themselves closer.
A sudden crash. A zombie fell from the tree in front of her, its decayed jaws snapping open like a vice. It lunged. Without thinking, Rose grabbed a nearby branch, her fingers tight around it as she swung it, striking the zombie's skull with a sickening crack. But as she drew in a breath of relief, another zombie, its teeth gleaming white and sharp, was upon her. It bit deep into her hand.
Pain. It coursed through her like fire, burning, consuming. She screamed, the sound raw and animalistic, as she threw the monster off her. The blood, her blood, slick and dark, stained her palm.
And yet, still, she ran. Faster. Harder. She could feel them, crawling over her, their fingers cold as they brushed against her skin. But then, as if the world itself had decided to grant her a brief reprieve, the ground trembled beneath her. The trees, the zombies—they began to sink into the earth, disappearing into the void as if they had never been.
A moment of stillness. Silence.
And then the snow fell. Soft, cold flakes drifting from the heavens above, turning the forest to white, erasing the mist. A house appeared, looming ahead, its windows dark and empty. Drawn by something she couldn't name, Rose stepped inside.
The warmth of the house was suffocating, its walls thick with a sense of impending doom. In the living room, a child sat alone, the air around them heavy with tension. The parents were fighting—violently, viciously—throwing objects with reckless abandon. The child, small and fragile, ran to their room, seeking refuge in the chaos.
Rose followed, drawn to the child as if by some unseen force. She found them huddled in a corner, eyes wide with fear. "Are you okay?" she asked, her voice gentle, as if to soothe the storm inside her own heart.
At first, the child didn't answer. But then their gaze fell on Rose's bleeding hand. "Are you okay?" they asked, their voice trembling.
Rose's lips parted in a soft, sorrowful smile. "It's nothing," she whispered, but her heart knew the truth of her words. The child's eyes widened with a strange knowledge.
"I saw a zombie movie," the child said, voice barely above a whisper. "They said that when people get bitten… they become zombies too."
Rose's chest tightened. "You shouldn't watch such things," she murmured. "But it seems... it seems like I might become one too."
The child's voice turned dark, colder. "Can you kill my parents when you become a zombie?" they asked, the words as casual as if they were asking for a glass of water.
Rose froze. The air grew heavy, thick with a suffocating dread. "What's your name?" she asked, her voice barely a whisper.
The child, unmoving, stared blankly at her. "Jang Hwa-Young."
A cold shiver ran down Rose's spine, a wave of recognition crashing over her like a tidal wave.It's not her memories—the ones jang Hwa-Young had buried deep within herself—began to surface. Her breath hitched. "Why... why am I remembering jang Hwa-Young memories?" she whispered, horrified by the depth of the sensation.But does it really dream?no-no It's not.it's real.
The world around her seemed to twist, to warp, as if it were unraveling. And then everything—everything—began to fade.
Darkness.
A void of black, suffocating, unyielding. Nothing. Only shadows.
Rose walked through the dark, the sound of her footsteps muffled in the water beneath her, her heart heavy, each step feeling like an eternity. There was no end. No escape.
And then, through the endless night, she saw it. A figure. A shadow of herself, standing just ahead. She called out, but the figure remained still, like a statue carved from the very night itself.
When the light from above revealed the face, Rose gasped, her blood running cold. It was her. But it wasn't. The eyes were black, empty—pits of despair that swallowed the light.
"You are the monster inside me, aren't you?" Rose whispered, her voice shaking, the truth dawning on her.
The creature, the darkness inside her, smiled. A smile that was not a smile, but a twisted mockery of one. "You and I are the same. There is no you without me. There is no me without you and we both want someone else body "
"No," Rose's voice trembled with defiance, though her heart quivered. "You are not me and i didn't wanted her body."
The monster laughed, and the sound was hollow, like the echo of a thousand souls lost to time. "You saw it, didn't you? What would have happened if it was you without me? You would have died, Rose. You would have died a thousand times."
Rose felt the weight of its words, but her resolve did not break. "Do you think I care about death?" she spat, her voice raw.
The creature's voice turned cold, slicing through the air like a blade. "You have no right to speak of death," the voice echoed, cold and unforgiving, cutting through her soul like a knife. "Not in someone else's body." It lingered, the weight of those words sinking deep into her chest, a reminder of the darkness she could not escape.
The voice twisted with cruel certainty. "And you want to go back, don't you? But where would you go?" it sneered. "You don't even know who you are. You don't know who your enemies are, or your friends. You don't know why you are here—to save the world, or to destroy it."
Each word struck her like a blow, unraveling the fragile threads of her resolve. Her mind reeled, lost in the questions she could never answer, drowning in the uncertainty of her existence.
"Without my power," the voice continued, "you are nothing. A weak human. Destined to die without ever fighting."
So, make me yours."
The words reverberated in her head, loud, suffocating. And in that moment, Rose felt small—insignificant. The emptiness of it all overwhelmed her. She had once believed in herself, in the strength she could muster. But now… now it all seemed so fragile, so fleeting. A fragile shell of a person, standing at the edge of oblivion, lost and powerless.
She closed her eyes, but the weight of the truth—the truth she had feared to face—was inescapable. Would she crumble under it? Would she let it define her? Or would she rise, despite the darkness? Even as doubt threatened to consume her, a faint spark of defiance burned in the depths of her soul. I am not nothing, she thought, her voice trembling, but firm. I will not be. Not like this.
The darkness closed in, crushing her soul. Rose screamed, her voice a jagged edge of defiance, breaking the silence of the void. "I already know why I am here."
Her voice, trembling yet fierce, echoed through the darkness, carrying with it the weight of her resolve. "My name is Rosette von Valkenberg."
How did i know my name is Rosette von Valkenberge?Rose thought, her heart skipping a beat in shock.
And then, with a final, deafening silence, the world faded, the darkness swallowing her whole.
She woke with a jolt, the world around her quiet, still. No mist. No fog. Just the cold, empty space where the nightmares had once loomed. Rose gasped, looking around. Her breath came in shallow bursts as she called out, "Zane! James! Arthur!" Her voice cracked, fear lingering at the edges.
One by one, the others began to stir, the weight of their own confusion settling in. She moved to Zane first, her hands shaking as she gently shook him, calling his name. But when he didn't respond, her fear turned to urgency. Without thinking, she slapped him, the sound ringing out in the silence.
"Can you stop slapping me?" Zane muttered, his voice low and rough, still heavy with sleep.
Rose didn't answer. Instead, she moved to Lily, her voice softer this time, more careful. "Lily... are you okay?"
Lily blinked, her eyes clouded with the remnants of sleep, but she nodded. "Yeah. I'm fine."
One by one, the others started to wake, the quiet breaking like glass with each breath they took. But then, a cry echoed through the stillness.
"Yuri!" Arthur's voice cracked with desperation, his words trembling with an emotion Rose could barely understand. "Yuri!" he shouted again, louder, his voice cracking against the weight of his fear.
Emily stood beside him, her face pale. "Let's wait a little longer," she whispered, though the uncertainty in her voice betrayed her. "She'll wake up."
Rose's heart ached as she called out Yuri's name, over and over. But no matter how many times she said it, no matter how many different ways she tried, there was no response. Only silence.
Lily's voice broke through the growing panic. "The dream... it's trying to manipulate us, to make us give up and let the monster take over our body. If Yuri can't control her mind..." Her words trailed off, the implication too terrible to voice fully.
Arthur, driven by his fear, began shouting again, his voice raw with despair. "Yuri! Please! Wake up!" The sound of his desperation cracked through the group, but still, Yuri did not stir.
Rose could feel the weight of the moment pressing down on her chest, suffocating her. She looked up, her eyes searching the horizon for answers.
"Where are the monsters?" Cale asked, his voice steady despite the tension in the air. "Where did they go?"
Zane, ever so composed, glanced around, his gaze far too cold for the chaos unfolding. "Maybe... they want us to come to them," he said, his words laced with a chilling certainty.
The air grew colder, heavier, as the truth of his words sank in. They weren't free. Not yet.
Rose's heart clenched as a heavy realization washed over her. It's my fault, she thought. I brought them here, into this nightmare. All of this—it's on me. The weight of that truth pressed down on her chest, suffocating her. She couldn't let it break them. She couldn't let it destroy Yuri.
"I'll go," Rose said, her voice steady, though her soul trembled. "I'll find the monster... the one trying to control Yuri's mind. And I'll stop it." Her eyes were filled with resolve, but the deep ache in her heart lingered. She couldn't let the darkness take Yuri. Not after everything they had been through.
Lily was at her side in an instant, her face soft but firm. "You can't go alone," she said, her voice gentle but insistent. "I'll go with you."
Emily shook her head, her brow furrowing. "What do you mean by that?" Her voice trembled slightly, but there was more fear than anger in it. "Do you know how dangerous it is? You can't face that alone. We'll go with you."
Arthur's voice, raw with emotion, cut through the tension. "It's about my sister," he said, his tone breaking with every word. "I won't let her face this alone. She wouldn't want us to leave her out of this. If she wakes up and finds out we did nothing… she'll hate me for it."
Zane, always the one to cut through the chaos with cold precision, nodded, his eyes sharp with purpose. "Let's not waste any more time," he said, his voice steady, unwavering. "We move now. No more hesitation."
In the stillness that followed, Rose felt the warmth of their resolve, their unspoken promise to stand by her, to face whatever darkness lay ahead together. And though fear gnawed at the edges of her thoughts, she knew, in that moment, she wasn't alone.
With a single breath, she nodded, her heart steadying. "Then let's go. Together."
As Rose walked, her thoughts swirled in a quiet storm. You see this? she wondered, her gaze flickering over the faces of her companions—each one steadfast, each one bound to her by something she couldn't yet name. They are not my enemies. The truth settled in her chest like a heavy stone. They were the ones who had stayed, the ones who had fought beside her.
But then, a shadow of doubt whispered through her mind. What if… what if they turn out to be enemies later? The question lingered, unanswered, a cold chill running down her spine.
She shook her head, trying to banish the thought, but it clung to her like a weight. Does it even matter? she thought, the weight of the world pressing down on her. Do I really have to think about what might happen in the future? The road ahead was uncertain, fraught with dangers she couldn't predict. But for the first time in a long while, Rose realized she couldn't afford to be paralyzed by fear.
All I can do is move forward, she told herself. All I can do is trust them now. The future was a shadow, a mystery that would only unfold in time. She had no choice but to face it, step by uncertain step. And whatever came, she would meet it—together, with them by her side.
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(To be continued)
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