Became an Academy Spearman

842. [Western Front] – The path I chose (118)

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“ha… … .”

A deep, tired breath flowed from Cheonseong’s mouth.

I returned to the barracks safely.

But my mind was blank the whole time until I got back.

‘margin.’

I think I’ve been pushed to my limits countless times.

But I thought that what I was experiencing now was ‘another limitation.’

I had poured all my strength into breaking the sealing ceremony, and as a result, I felt ’empty’, not only physically but mentally as well.

It was as if a machine that had forcibly digested something it could not digest had suddenly stopped functioning due to overpowering, and my body and mind were just like that.

-Power that cannot be handled at attribute level 7.

-A different logic in thought that goes beyond reality.

-I tried to indirectly accept the power of Anastasia, who is said to be the strongest of mankind, and put it into my body… … .

Everyone was close to a group.

But it all happened ‘at once’ and I had to do it.

And now, I thought it was a miracle just to think like this.

At the end, I became distracted and caught up in a giant spiral that I couldn’t control, so I didn’t die, and my limbs remained intact.

No matter how special your body is, it feels like you are touching something unprecedented.

An unprecedented area that no one has ever experienced before.

“… … .”

A feeling of helplessness was taking over my whole body, to the point where it was difficult to even think of such simple things.

‘all… … ‘I want to give up.’

There is a desire in my heart to let go of everything right now.

Considering my body, it was right to collapse like this and give my body some rest.

And yet.

I just couldn’t let go of consciousness.

“… … .”

I feel like I just want to give up everything because my body is so tired and my mind is at its limit.

More than that, it was the reality I had to face now, and my heart was so heavy because of it.

It was like that right now.

came back

And everyone gets treated.

Now I’m sitting blankly on the outskirts, blankly watching the numerous officers being urgently treated in the huge hall. I just couldn’t let go of consciousness.

‘Everyone…’ … .’

Everyone suffered greatly.

Everyone could see how hard they worked.

Therefore, they were all people who could be called superhumans.

Regardless of whether each person’s strength is strong or weak, they are all ‘superhumans’ in my opinion.

He devoted himself to others and tried desperately to do his duty on an extremely dangerous front.

And at the end, there were quite a few officers who died and were seriously injured.

so.

It felt like the weight was weighing me down.

The weight of reality that I have to face.

The weight of their constant proximity to death weighed on me more than ever.

“… … .”

Still, at this moment.

The moment of receiving treatment like this… … I thought it was fortunate.

The situation at the front was largely resolved.

The biggest fire was extinguished when the nine apostles, who could be said to be the culprit of the whole situation, were executed by Anastasia.

And that soon had an impact on the front line as well.

As Anastasia began to organize the situation on the front line on the way back to the fortress, the situation was sorted out smoothly.

Truly a one-man army.

‘No, it even surpassed the one-man army.’

Even in my dizzy mind, a moment of laughter escaped me.

The presence of one person named Anastasia.

She alone had a power comparable to the hundreds of officers and soldiers of the First Fortress. No, she has more than that.

In terms of pure value, Anastasia’s priority is so high that a simple power comparison is laughable.

And I was able to feel again that it was the ‘main axis’.

An entity that cannot be replaced by anything.

A being that must exist indispensably on each front, and is like hope to support this dangerous front.

‘It was fortunate.’

So, despite my deep sense of helplessness and empty mind, I was certain of one thing.

Being imprisoned in the sealing ceremony with Anastasia was the best decision I had ever made in my life.

It was a decision worth risking my life for… … .

So now, even though I was groaning in pain and seeing seriously injured people, I was at least able to put my mind at ease.

The best I can do.

I feel so fortunate that I have at least given back to this world the hope that is Anastasia.

“… … .”

In this way, thoughts flow together through an empty mind.

And even though I had already seen it, I looked again at the sight that caught my eye.

Damn it!

Again!

Numerous medical personnel, including medical officers, move urgently and quickly treat the silver and red officers.

Only those who opened the door first followed Anastasia, but the remaining personnel who could not follow were also fighting desperately to maintain our escape route from the dark zone.

Therefore, the weight was greater.

Nevertheless, this was clearly a ‘disaster’.

‘… … ‘The sacrifice is too great.’

It is said that Lieutenant Degeln is dead in Eunik.

On the enemy wing, Ensign Christina… is dead.

Among the special officers who followed Anastasia, one person named Zeon also met death.

They were all briefly told that they burned their will to save others.

Each one was a noble sacrifice.

So it still didn’t feel real.

“… … .”

There wasn’t a lot of contact between Ensign Christina and I, but she was still a woman I had talked to during several past missions.

Above all, seeing her with black short hair reminded me of Millia, so sometimes I felt a strange feeling when I saw her.

Even though he is a completely different person, he reflects on his lover and feels a longing that cannot be seen.

Just like that, she, whose face I could see until this morning, died.

They had turned into several cold corpses and were now in a different space.

“… … .”

At this moment, I realized that if the shock exceeds a certain level, you don’t even feel the shock.

When Lieutenant Sabrina suffered a tragic accident in the past, my heart seemed to break.

But now.

There were many more casualties, and a terrible reality unfolded.

Swish.

The enemy officers turned their gaze blankly and took in the space. Almost all of the personnel except Lieutenant Leria were unconscious, and among them was an officer who was unconscious and very seriously injured.

“… … .”

I kept losing my breath.

That was the case for Lieutenant Roxanna, who was standing at the crossroads of life and death.

The woman who had welcomed me warmly when I first arrived on the Western Front was now at the crossroads of life and death again.

And Lieutenant Leria did not lose consciousness, but lost his right leg while fighting the nine apostles.

Just being aware of that made me feel blank.

As if they are trying to prevent you from finding the right person.

No, I feel like it will be too difficult to accept this reality if I find someone of the opposite s*x… … .

It felt like my mind was holding itself back.

Sreuk.

When I turned my head, I saw the Eunik platoon.

Even the Silver Wing platoon suffered greater damage than our Red Wing.

A total of two people were killed in Eunik, and numerous unconscious officers were also seriously injured.

Just looking at that shook my heart.

and… … .

I realized this was reality.

‘Returning safely was impossible from the beginning.’

It felt as if death was just around the corner and deceiving me.

Even if it was someone else’s death, not mine, it was as if it was being thrust in front of me and clearly showing me to accept this heavy reality.

Such a wide space.

Right now, I could almost say that I was the only one whose limbs were fine and there were no major injuries.

“… … .”

The number of casualties is too large to be treated in the infirmary of each barracks, so treatment is now carried out in a huge hall.

Medical officers and other personnel focus on providing maximum treatment so that they can urgently provide assistance to each other… … .

Sreuk.

Then, when I heard a hand holding my hand, my gaze inadvertently went to the side.

“… … “I hope you don’t worry too much about it.”

I heard the extremely cautious voice of Lord Isabelle, and her appearance also caught my eye.

“yes.”

There was also her who responded unconsciously and looked like she was seeing me for the first time.

Her golden armor was completely ruined to the point where it had holes in some places, her eyes had lost their usual firearms, and there were small scratches on her beautiful face between her greatly disheveled blonde hair.

Above all, I can’t feel even the slightest energy from her, who always felt great energy.

I heard that in this duel with the Nine Apostles, he used powers that were originally taboo. That’s putting a strain on my body and it’s in this state… … .

“Lord Isabelle… … Are you okay?”

When I finally opened my inseparable lips and spoke, Sir Isabelle nodded cautiously.

“Yes, I just need time to recover, but I’m fine.”

As I looked at her trying to smile at me, my eyes became blurry without me realizing it.

Strangely enough, she said she was fine, but she didn’t seem fine at all to me.

And now, I was still not sure what to think or judge.

Sreuk.

I held onto her hand, which didn’t even feel the slightest strength, and held it tighter and chewed my lips.

“You’re having a very hard time. “You can lean on me a little.”

“… … Is that so?”

Seeing her blinking blankly, I put strength into my voice as well.

“yes. sure.”

I gently let her rest her head on my shoulder.

Slurp… .

My heart continued to waver as I gazed at her face, leaning against me as if conforming to me.

Right now, I have no strength in my whole body.

However, at least I didn’t have anything in my body misaligned or seriously injured.

Even while I am in a daze like now, my body regains its strength just a little bit. So I was able to act like this.

I try to hold on to the consciousness that seems to collapse if I relax even a little, and force myself to face reality.

“But now, I think I can relax a little more.”

As I continued speaking, I tried to compose myself.

Now there is no more worst.

The alert status was raised to red early this morning, but has now been lowered to green as the situation is over.

At least I could now take a break in the true sense of the word.

The alarm bell that had been ringing in my chest for several weeks is no longer ringing.

It was clearly a crisis that had been overcome.

“Then just a little… … “I’ll lean in just a little bit.”

Although I was aware of her helplessly leaning on me, I couldn’t straighten my dazed mind.

The officers who keep coming into my eyes are all devastated, and some are on the edge of life and death. Still, there was nothing I could do.

‘The specialness of my body has its benefits, though.’

However, it was not like a miracle like recovering a missing limb. Even my body felt completely empty right now, and I wasn’t even in a state to do anything other than help someone.

It seems like if I take even a small step, I will soon collapse.

That’s why it was even more visible.

Busy medical officers and medics supporting them.

Why nursing officers receive the best treatment on the front lines.

Even though they were not directly on the front line, did the officers and soldiers who looked at them all have a sense of respect and gratitude?

That touched my heart even more now.

Again!

Damn it!

Each and every one of the busy medical officers was a light in itself.

With their mere presence, they brighten this battle line filled with despair and darkness.

And their special powers heal severely wounded and exhausted officers. Among them, even missing limbs can be miraculously restored.

‘Yes, the characteristics are… … .’

Perhaps it was God’s final blessing to mankind.

A thought like that suddenly occurred to me.

I thought that if there were no medical officers with that kind of power, this empire would have collapsed long ago.

How many people had to risk their lives just to deal with the nine apostles right away?

“I want you to get some rest too.”

“I am getting enough rest.”

“… … Haven’t you definitely had a very difficult time? It wouldn’t have been normal for Major Anastasia and you to disappear in an instant. “Then you had just as much trouble as we did.”

I couldn’t say yes or no to her voice whispering to me carefully.

Instead, I thought.

‘I am… … .’

I guess I’m just alive by luck right now.

The power manifested by Eustea, which existed in layers of impossible and impossible, I risked my own death and tried to break the sealing ceremony.

And it succeeded in breaking it like a miracle.

If I were asked to try again, I really didn’t have the slightest confidence that I would succeed.

The reason I was the last one to survive was because Anastasia pulled me out of the Great Spiral Current in time.

however… … .

I took a deep breath and thought.

‘Because I had to.’

I had to control my dazed mind stronger.

Even if I go back to that time, I will still act the same way.

Because that’s the path I’ve chosen now.