Became an Academy Spearman

852. [Western Front] – Why do you think I’m not good enough… … ? (128)

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Rumors are spreading.

That’s also a ridiculous rumor.

But even I, who knew the truth of the rumor, could not deny that it was nonsense.

Jerk.

Even now, as I was walking inside the first fortress, the gazes of the officers and soldiers focused on me were not only harsh but also blatant.

-Really, Major Anastasia… … ?

-Oh my.

-Anyway, does that make sense?

-It’s only been a month, but you and the Major are really in that kind of relationship?

It seems like he’s whispering or talking so that no one else can hear.

‘I can hear everything.’

Even though I was laughing internally, I maintained my calmness on the outside.

No, I didn’t know that maybe he was whispering to me like that for me to hear. This is such a hard truth to believe, and their suspicions were actually true.

Because there’s no way Anastasia and I could have a relationship like that.

How could I have a romantic relationship with Anastasia when we understand each other so well?

“… .”

I cleared my throat for no reason and calmly walked away under their gaze.

However, the truth that must be known is that Anastasia and I have a close relationship. In other words, it had to be seen as a romantic relationship.

The reason I still take steps in the first place.

That’s why I’ve been heading to Anastasia’s office periodically lately.

Jerk.

He receives countless gazes and has a grim expression on his face.

And amidst various suspicions and rumors, I arrived again.

Right in front of Anastasia’s office.

dripping.

I gently knocked on the door and opened my mouth softly.

“This is Lieutenant Han Cheon-seong. “Can I come in?”

Uh.

An extremely concise answer follows.

That voice involuntarily reminded me of Glesia, but I tried to compose myself.

‘If you decide to do it, you have to do it right.’

Let’s not act half-heartedly.

I thought again of the words that had gripped me dozens of times, almost to the triple digits.

Glancing.

“… … .”

However, before I opened the door, I looked around. Fortunately, there were no people in sight. As it is the office where the main officials stay, it is located in a location in the castle where it is not easy to access unless you are a special person.

Crash.

When the door suddenly opened, I saw Assistant Manager Merrill looking at me in a familiar way.

“Please come in. “Lieutenant Han Cheon-seong.”

“… … yes.”

When I saw the aide’s expression on me change, I felt strange.

She strangely glances at me and moves away as if crossing her path, but now even that has become a daily routine. Even without Anastasia telling her, she took care of it and made room for her.

… … As if he was going to help me and Anastasia have a secret relationship.

Crash.

As I entered the office and closed the door, I let out a very faint sigh.

‘How did it end up like this?’

Rationally and logically, what Anastasia suggested to me was correct.

No matter how hard I try to hide it, eventually I will become more present, and due to the special nature of my body, I will become bigger than before.

Regardless of imperial servitude, numerous high-ranking noble families and various beings will try to establish contact with me.

That is the daughter of a duke named Celestia.

Even if there is a very special woman in the Grand Colosseum… … .

“A little difficult?”

“No, what would be difficult for me?”

“First, please sit comfortably.”

I smiled awkwardly as I saw Anastasia smiling lightly.

Unlike me, who has many worries and worries, he is actually the subject of rumors. She shocked the entire empire and treated me calmly.

It seems like if something has already been done, they don’t care anymore.

‘I’m jealous.’

I inadvertently wondered if that was what the ‘strongest’ had.

Being able to remain calm and take your time no matter what work or plan you have. It is truly the freedom of an absolute person who looks at the world on his own.

Sreuk.

And then I slowly sat down in what I would now naturally call my designated seat in the office.

Naturally, Anastasia sat across from me and looked at me.

Our actions had been coordinated over the past few days, and now meeting Anastasia was no longer unfamiliar to me.

“I think it would be hard for you to handle this on your own.”

“… … To be honest, I couldn’t remain calm.”

“I guess so. “There have been rumors of a relationship with a key member of the empire, but considering how strange each other’s positions are, you must be normal.”

Ok.

As he gently placed the car in front of me, I nodded cautiously.

Ok.

And soon, his eyes were drawn to the sight of a teacup being placed in front of him.

Elegant and sophisticated.

It’s hard to believe that she was a commoner in the past, and although Anastasia definitely achieved the high-ranking noble title of marquis, it feels as if she was a noblewoman from the beginning.

‘Glesia too… … It was similar.’

In the past, even from the first time we met, there was an atmosphere that was unusual for people to think of Glesia as a commoner.

Tuk.

My hand, which was trying to hold the teacup, stopped for a moment.

“… … .”

For a moment, I was chewing my lip, feeling a little pitiful at myself for thinking like this.

Rumors spread throughout the empire about Anastasia and me, and as a party to those ridiculous rumors, I increased the time I spent with Anastasia.

In order to give plausibility to the rumor,

Since they are compatible, they spend time together even if they are forced to do so.

However, during the time I spend with Anastasia, I keep projecting Glesia onto Anastasia.

‘My real lover… … .’

It was projected from Anastasia, the fake lover spread like a smokescreen for each other’s position.

Even as we spent time together often, it struck me that I could see little similarities between Anastasia and Glesia.

It’s completely different.

No two people can be the same.

What’s lovely about Glesia, what makes me love her… … Because I see it little by little in Anastasia.

Ok.

Then a small sound rang out.

“Han Tiansheng.”

And the calm voice that followed woke me up from my daze.

“… … Ah, yes.”

When I raised my head, I saw her looking at me transparently.

“If you are having a hard time, you can say that you are having a hard time. Even if you thought through and accepted the conditions I proposed, that is not an ordinary situation. “As we spend time together like this, I can listen a little.”

A voice filled with calmness and softness stands out.

And again, I felt how different Glesia and Anastasia were.

“no. “It’s not difficult.”

So I was able to answer immediately.

“Are you really okay?”

“yes. And when I say it’s hard… … “How can I raise my face to other women who are lovers of me?”

It must be harder for them who have to accept the results of my choice than it is for me right now.

If I said it was difficult here, it would be funny in itself.

“No, that might be a bit of a wrong idea.”

“… … yes?”

“I now know what kind of thoughts and mindset you are living through these past few days. “I know you date someone casually and don’t reach out.”

“That’s it… … .”

“It doesn’t mean that your personality is bad. On the contrary, you could say that it is a good part. Because he is kind to his women. But I think you have a tendency to overthink things.”

I blinked blankly as she spoke assertively.

It was an unexpected statement.

And I didn’t understand it a little bit.

“Just because it’s hard for you and your partner to accept this situation right now doesn’t mean it shouldn’t be hard for you.”

“… Is that so?”

“Who do you think defines difficult in the first place? “Is it hard for others to think that it’s hard for you?”

Anastasia gently caressed the teacup and asked me, her attitude was different from before.

It’s been a few days since you first suggested spreading this rumor to me.

Obviously, she and I spent a lot of time together and talked a lot during that time. It was to show the public that they were together, but it was a sincere conversation between them.

“… … “You must be yourself.”

I answered carefully and understood.

“Yes, it is you who decides whether it is difficult or not. It’s not important what other people think of you and how hard it is for you. So, if you’re having a hard time, it can be difficult. “Don’t try to avoid it by pointing to someone else as the reason.”

Tuk. At first glance, her voice seems cold.

But there is consideration in that coldness.

Indifferent eyes, cold expression and tone.

And even her overwhelming presence.

All of that makes Anastasia difficult to deal with, but she was actually a pretty sweet person.

Just as cold on the outside doesn’t mean that the heart is cold… … .

“Still, I think it’s really okay.”

So, while answering, I also laughed a little.

It was strange.

That was also really strange, as I was dealing with Anastasia, I felt that I was gradually relaxing rather than being nervous.

“Well then, I’m glad. And I also received a call from Glesia, who said you explained it well… … And she told me she could take it. “I thought I was giving you a burden, but I think Glesia took it well.”

“Thank goodness. to be honest… … “I feel sorry for Glesia.”

“Don’t feel sorry for yourself. Rather, I am in a position where I should feel sorry for Glesia.”

Seeing her immediately denying it, I nodded without realizing it.

‘Is this really okay?’

In fact, even though Anastasia strongly requested it from me, it was definitely me who accepted it.

So in effect, she and I were accomplices.

There was no need for her to take full responsibility for the rumors she spread, and there was definitely room for me to take responsibility as well.

“Major Anastasia, are you okay?”

So I asked the question in reverse.

She’s probably human too, but is she really okay when I’m shaken like this?

“I never thought I would hear that from you.”

Anastasia blinked for a moment and smiled, and I burst out laughing again.

“… … I understand that we need each other, but isn’t this more fatal to Major Anastasia? “How could a man like me get along with Major Anastasia?”

-The strongest empire.

-The main axis of the Western Front.

-The nickname of Apostle Executioner… … .

There are countless other words for Anastasia.

So I fell short.

No matter how much of a rumor it is, the fact that I am involved with her… .

“Why do you think that?”

“yes?”

“Why do you think I’m not good enough… … ?”

I was momentarily speechless as I saw her suddenly and strangely rolling her eyes.

That was a truly unexpected question.