Became an Academy Spearman

854. [Western Front] – I will definitely overcome (130)

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Even after hearing many words of recognition from Anastasia, it was difficult for Cheon Seong to accept it easily.

‘I heard those words from Anastasia… … .’

Because it felt somewhat unrealistic.

Sometimes I think about self-objectification and value.

What position have I risen to in this empire, what say do I have now?

That’s because I’m human too.

As I grow significantly and receive public attention, such things naturally come to mind.

Still, I didn’t really feel it.

‘The position from which I am looking, and the person above me, are so high.’

After coming to the Western Front, there was only one person I had my sights set on.

ㅡAnastasia Brilliant.

As the self-proclaimed strongest force in the current empire and the main axis of the Western Front, I often encounter her power and feel her powerful presence.

So it was more like that.

Like a firefly showing off its color in front of the sun.

I too am in that position.

So I think it’s still not enough to put myself forward… … .

But suddenly I heard it for myself.

She, who was so outstanding and the hope of the empire, now said that I was on the same level as her.

He also said it to me with extremely serious eyes as if he were asserting it.

“Han Tiansheng.”

“… … yes.”

It was a moment when I looked up from my thoughts.

“You said you were inheriting Eustea’s power. And you proved your worth at the last sealing ceremony, saying that you can recall not only his power but also his memories.”

“yes. “That’s right.”

I felt strange about the sudden change in topic.

“But actually, that’s a very dangerous thing.”

“… “You mean it’s dangerous?”

“This may be your first time hearing this, but the inheritance of traits itself, while rare, is not entirely unheard of. Among the legendary characteristics, there are those who have inherited the powers that were evaluated as heroes in the past. “But my memories are different.”

Between the cold words, I gathered my shocked emotions.

As she said, I also used to feel a strange sense of discomfort. When I first realized that the origin of my power was Eustea, I felt a lot of confusion.

‘actually… … Even when dealing with Azazel.’

I had to feel like it was very difficult to hold myself together.

Killing heart.

A murderous urge to somehow rip the apostle in front of me to pieces. And that too, because I was overcome by a strong desire all the time.

“Looking at your expression, it seems like you feel something too.”

“Yes, I just don’t know the details.”

So I had to listen more to understand.

“When you rise to the top of the empire, you learn a secret that the citizens of the empire and other nobles do not know. And we are forced to keep strict secrecy. “There are detailed secrets about the axis of the empire that are difficult to reveal to the world.”

“… … Is it a secret about the main axis?”

“But now I’m going to tell you the secret. Even if I don’t know other beings, I think I should know as much as you. “At that moment, I will be breaking my trust with the emperor, but I am willing to risk even that.”

Stop.

The cold words that followed left me speechless. Although it may seem insignificant at first glance, Anastasia’s words had great meaning.

“Are you saying you’re willing to endure it?”

“It means that the Emperor will know that I have broken my faith.”

“Are you sure you can do that?”

I asked this question without realizing it.

ㅡWhy does the main axis exist as the main axis?

As he ascends to a position of almost omnipotent power in this empire, he becomes someone who cannot be easily treated by any high-ranking noble or royal family except the emperor.

In fact, it means the highest position for all people except the emperor.

But she, in that position, violates the emperor’s trust.

“I plan to take it. Even if I break faith, the emperor won’t be able to kick me out.”

I couldn’t answer her question as she answered assertively.

The answer was already close to ‘certain’, and if Anastasia would do that, I couldn’t say anything about it.

‘Because I need it.’

More than anything, I knew she was trying to help me, so I had to know.

“therefore. There were cases like you among the heroes of history who were considered mainstays. “A main character who has inherited the characteristics of the heroes of the previous century and, rarely, has even passed down their memories.”

“… … “What exactly is the risk?”

Even as I asked, my heart was very tense.

A danger that even I wasn’t aware of.

And there is a danger that even Ariya could not warn me about.

When I think about it… … It was bizarre.

Eustea was a person with a prominent position among the heroes of the past. I wonder if I, who inherits such power, can receive the power without any disadvantages.

“… … .”

Anastasia, who had been speaking without interruption, momentarily stopped speaking.

And when he carefully made eye contact with me, I held my breath for a moment.

As I met her abyss-like eyes, a strange feeling of anxiety swept over my whole body. And that feeling of anxiety did not last long.

Slurp.

Because my eyes fell on her gently moving lips.

“The collapse of the ego.”

“… … !”

Even though I raised my eyes, I couldn’t even say anything for a moment.

“Some of the main players of the past suddenly disappeared. A power strong enough to easily defeat an apostle. And even though they had absolute power, they suddenly went missing. And there is one reason. “Because they were unable to maintain their true selves.”

“that… … .”

“It might be hard to believe. However, those who have been in the forefront of history know the detailed story and are careful when handling their power. “I was wondering if I might fall into that kind of danger.”

Without realizing it, I started looking at my hands.

And while I was clenching my hands in a daze, great confusion came to my mind.

When I first learned of Eustea’s origins, I was so disturbed by the flood of memories of him that it was difficult for me to think clearly. And then again, his memories would suddenly come to mind.

Even in this case of the sealing ceremony, he saw the danger for a moment and chose to be sealed together with Anastasia.

And I was able to overcome it.

I safely escaped the sealing ceremony with her from the danger of the nine apostles, and was able to overcome the danger more easily than I thought.

“… Does that happen gradually? “Not being able to maintain one’s self?”

“As far as I know, yes. Should I say that the more clearly the memories of past heroes come to mind, the more the ego erodes…? … The heroes who maintained their strength through their strong will were unable to maintain themselves intact. “I went through great confusion, and in the end, my ego collapsed in the midst of agony.”

The cold voice kept ringing in my ears, but for a moment, my mind went blank.

just… … .

It was so shocking that I couldn’t think or say anything.

I thought it was a huge power.

It is such a deceptive and overwhelming force.

Why was he able to do this to the original apostle, and why did I inherit that power? … I felt a little happy.

The only strength that allows me to face this world.

Because I felt like I was destined to inherit that power.

However, in such a bright light, there was danger, just as there was darkness.

“And Han Tiansheng. “I think the power of Eustea that you inherit will probably be overwhelmingly greater than the characteristics and memories acquired by previous main players.”

“… … .”

“Actually, I thought very positively about you inheriting Eustea’s power. When it comes to power inheritance, there is no such big risk. However, if the transmission of memories continues… … “That would be a huge risk at the same time.”

“Okay… … “I see.”

Even as I answered, my words trailed off.

Then, at the end, I couldn’t help but laugh.

I don’t know. Why am I smiling now?

However, it was not easy to control myself due to the huge shock that lingered in my mind.

“So I want to tell you more.”

Hearing the words that followed, I gently lifted my head from looking at my hands. And then I came face to face with Anastasia, who was extremely serious.

“… … “Tell me.”

As I answered, I suddenly felt that my voice had calmed down.

By rescuing Anastasia, I found hope.

And I thought that all I had to do was overcome the trials that were to come and somehow pull myself together.

… … Aside from the actual ordeal, there were other dangers.

How enormous is the reality that I must overcome. It felt so heavy that it made me feel dizzy.

“So I don’t want you to have a hard time. Even if it’s a small burden on your mind, I want you to talk to those around you and get help rather than just silently endure it and try to overcome it. “In this case, it’s okay for me.”

Her voice was soft and she blinked blankly.

“That’s helpful.”

“Yes, actually, I don’t know what the collapse of the ego will be like. There’s no telling the erosion you’ll experience after recalling the hero’s memories. However, I think it is just an ordeal that must be overcome with a pure ‘heart.’”

After hearing the words that followed, I once again understood why Anastasia showed a more relaxed attitude towards me.

Because I know the truth.

Because I know my risk.

She was reaching out to me.

Don’t try to carry even the slightest risk or emotional burden alone… .

“You are still facing reality well enough and overcoming it. “But you don’t know what the heart is.”

“… thank you.”

“So, you know what I’m saying now, right? “Because your power is so much stronger than that of other people, there is a great risk.”

I understood.

Both the context of what she wants to say and what a warm-hearted person she is.

however. To be honest, I found it strange.

‘Even so, it’s the erosion of Eustea.’

There was only one conclusion.

I didn’t know that the greatest ordeal I would have to overcome might not be something external, like the nine apostles.

– Eustea.

He was the hero of the past.

Actually, I knew because I experienced it. When she was sealed in the past, how strong her will and indomitable fighting spirit was shown by Eustea when she stood up to the original apostle.

He burned his own soul and fought back with mythical power, so he could hardly be considered human.

Already a transcendent being.

But his strong will is now trying to inhabit me.

And it affects my ego and tries to change me.

“Are the main players who have suffered the collapse of their past selves wishing themselves to die?”

I said those words without thinking.

Is that why they went missing?

“… … that’s right. A huge force that cannot be controlled. And because they themselves could not accept that they could point their swords at their allies. “In the past, key players chose their own death.”

“under.”

The next words made me laugh again.

He gently wiped his face and nodded. And then she suddenly turned her gaze to the woman in front of her.

“Major Anastasia.”

“… uh.”

Seeing her cautious response, strangely enough, my mind was set straight.

“Thank you so much. “Thank you for telling me the truth and for reaching out to me like this.”

“… … .”

At a loss for words, she gently met my eyes.

What kind of face am I making right now?

I didn’t know either.

But, I didn’t care what I looked like.

“I will definitely overcome this.”

The voice contained unprecedented power.

Something like me being eroded by Eustea’s will and choosing to kill myself.

Because it will never happen.