Female tenant: 26-year-old heartbeat and life ups and downs

Su Ran dragged his luggage and slowly left the old community, walking alone on the streets of the city. His steps were a little heavy, as if every step carried countless fatigue and confusion. After walking for a long time, he found a stone bench for rest in a square.

Su Ran put his luggage on one side of the stone bench, lit a cigarette, and sat down slowly. He looked up and looked at the flashing neon lights attached to the tall buildings. Suddenly, a strong panic surged in his heart, not knowing where to go. He hurriedly turned his eyes away from the gorgeous but cold light and shadow, looked up at the sky, trying to find the "heart city" that had been stripped from his body.

At some point, a group of square dancing aunts holding fans came to the square. In an instant, the cheerful and noisy music sounded, completely drowning Su Ran. In this suffocating hustle and bustle, he could not see the "heart city" clearly. He couldn't help thinking, maybe it had already been quietly hidden behind the moon, or maybe it had been blown away by the passing wind just now, disappearing without a trace.

But this night, he had to find a place to rest in this city. Su Ran took out his cell phone from his pocket and called Robben. Robben lived near the train station, and Su Ran was going to Hengdian by train tomorrow, so he thought he would just stay with Robben this night.

On the other end of the phone, Robben answered the call amid the noise: "Su Ran, what do you want to talk to me about?"

"Are you still performing in the bar?" Su Ran asked.

"Yes, it's our turn to perform soon." Robben replied.

"Oh, that, I want to stay at your place for one night, is it convenient?" Su Ran said a little nervously.

Robben smiled and said, "What's the inconvenience? Come to the bar now, wait for me to get off work, and we'll go back together."

"I'll go directly to your place, and I won't go to the bar." Su Ran said.

"Come on, I'll treat you to a drink, and I still have several consumption coupons here." Robben invited enthusiastically.

"I really won't go." Su Ran hung up the phone after saying that, leaving Robben with the question of why he didn't go.

After Su Ran left the square, he took a taxi directly to Robben's residence. Seeing that it was still early, he went to the train station and bought a train ticket from Suzhou to Yiwu tomorrow morning.

It was almost 12 o'clock in the night when Robben came back from the bar. At this time, Su Ran had fallen asleep in the corridor leaning against his luggage.

Robben woke Su Ran up and said with a slightly complaining tone: "You have changed your personality recently. You don't want to go to the bar, and you would rather sleep in the corridor and wait stupidly."

Su Ran just smiled and said nothing.

Robben opened the door and asked Su Ran: "Have you moved?"

"Yes, I haven't found a suitable house yet. I have to go on a business trip to Hengdian tomorrow, so I just stay here for one night." Su Ran replied.

"Stay here, as long as you want." After saying that, Robben looked at the luggage on the ground and asked, "Where's your awesome guitar?"

Su Ran felt depressed, after all, this guitar had been with him for several years. But he still pretended to be calm and said to Robben, "I took it to pay off my debts."

Robben's eyes widened and he exclaimed, "Pay off my debts? How miserable are you! I wanted to borrow it several times to play with it before, but you treated it like a treasure and refused to lend it to me. You actually took it to pay off your debts."

"Don't mention it, help me move my luggage in." Su Ran said.

Robben lived in a small attic on the top floor, with only a narrow room. There was a large balcony behind the house, with a bathroom shared by many people and a clothesline on the balcony. The living environment was not really good.

When the light was turned on, the first thing that caught my eye was a few leather jackets simply hung on the hangers, a guitar in the corner, a few pairs of Martin boots on the shoe rack, and a few boxes, and no other extra decorations. Except for the beer cans scattered on the table, it was not too messy.

After putting the luggage in place, Robben took out two buckets of instant noodles from some box and made one for Su Ran and himself as a midnight snack.

After a while, the empty instant noodle box was turned upside down on the abandoned flower pot under the balcony. The two of them put a few cans of beer beside them and sat on the balcony railing.

Each of them tore open a can of beer, Su Ran and Robben clinked their heads, raised their heads, and immediately drank half a can of beer.

"Su Ran, I see you are quite depressed recently. What has hit you? You don't even go to the bar?" Robben asked.

"I live a free and easy life. What can I be hit by?" Su Ran said, and drank the remaining beer in the can in one gulp, but his eyes looked blankly into the distance.

In the distance, the lights dotted on the giant Maxwell billboard were still flickering in the early morning of this late night.

Robben did not ask any more questions, and also looked into the distance with Su Ran's eyes. After a long time, he patted Su Ran's shoulder with empathy. They were all marginalized people struggling in this city, and some pains were shared, so there was no need to explain it too clearly.

The wind whistled past them with the coldness of the night, and Su Ran and Robben were still sitting on the guardrail, looking out, and drank another can of beer.

In this quiet night, people always think more. Robben seemed to think of someone and tore open another can of beer. Seeing this, Su Ran stopped him, thinking that drinking too much is not good after all, and he almost jumped into the moat yesterday because he drank too much.

"Thinking of women?" Su Ran asked Robben with a smile.

"Yes, I think of it after drinking a little." Robben said very straightforwardly.

Su Ran knew that Robben had a girlfriend he loved deeply, so he pushed him and said, "Do you still have the photo of your girlfriend? Take it out and have a look."

Robben took out his wallet from his pocket, took out a photo from the interlayer and handed it to Su Ran. Su Ran saw the woman in the photo clearly in the light from afar. She had delicate features and was a very intellectual and elegant woman.

Robben was a little absent-minded. After a long time, he said to Su Ran: "We broke up for almost three years. She should be married now."

"Why did you break up?" Su Ran asked.

Robben smiled sadly: "She was born in a teacher's family. Her parents are university professors and a family of scholars. I am a musician with no stable income. I live day by day and don't want to delay her."

"So you ran away from Beijing to Suzhou without her knowledge?" Su Ran asked.

Robben nodded and said after a long time: "In fact, she chased me to Suzhou later, and we lived together for another half a year."

"Then why did you break up?" Su Ran asked in confusion.

"Her parents came to me and said that they had arranged a job for her at a university in Beijing and asked me to let her go back to Beijing." Robben said.

"You little idiot, did you really let her go?" Su Ran asked.

Robben nodded: "Let her go, I told her I have another woman."

"Can she believe it?" Su Ran asked.

Robben smiled and said, "She definitely won't believe it."

"Then..." Su Ran hesitated.

"I found a lady, right in this room, in front of her." Robben didn't say anything more, still smiling on his face, but under that smile, Su Ran saw a dead heart.

Su Ran sighed heavily and said, "Why do you have to do things so drastically?"

"If I don't do it so drastically, she won't leave. It's better to suffer a short pain than a long pain." Robben raised his head and drank the beer in the can in one gulp. Some of the beer flowed down his neck into his clothes.

Su Ran was silent. Although Robben said it lightly, he could feel the heart-wrenching love in helplessness. He knew that Robben would never forget that woman in his life.

"Don't talk about me, take out the photo of your girlfriend and look at it." Robben also pushed Su Ran and said.

Su Ran also took out a photo of Lin Yue from the interlayer of his wallet and handed it to Robben. In fact, they were reluctant to forget the past because those memories were too precious.

The light projected from the opposite side was insufficient, Robben lit a lighter and looked at Lin Yue in the photo with the burning flame.

"Your girlfriend is beautiful, not just beautiful." Robben said.

When he heard the word "beautiful", the face of Su Ran's female tenant Xu Tianna suddenly appeared in his mind again. This did not surprise him, because in his past life, he had never seen a woman more beautiful than Xu Tianna. Just a moment, he returned to reality, and while the flame was still burning, he looked at Lin Yue's familiar and unfamiliar face in the photo, and his heart was stabbed. He thought: It won't be long before she will marry Lu Chen.

Robben returned Lin Yue's photo to Su Ran and asked, "What about you, why did you break up?"

Su Ran recalled for a long time and said, "She called me and broke up a year after she went to the United States."

"Why did she break up with you?" Robben asked.

"I don't know, she didn't say." Su Ran replied with the same smile as Robben just now.

"You didn't ask either?" Robben asked.

Su Ran nodded. He did not ask Lin Yue why she broke up with him. Because he felt that if Lin Yue wanted to say it, she would tell him without him asking. Or maybe he subconsciously did not believe that they could go to the end, and there would be a day of breaking up. And for things that are expected, what's the use of asking for a result?

"Aren't you afraid that there are some misunderstandings between you?" Robben reminded.

Su Ran was stunned and said, "What misunderstandings can there be? Love is just a passing cloud, let's not talk about this. Go get the guitar, let's sing a song and forget about all the mess."

Robben took the guitar from the house, tested the sound and asked Su Ran: "Use your key or my key?"

"Whatever." Su Ran said.

Robben plucked the guitar strings, and a melody floated in the night sky. It was "The Price of Love" by Li Zongsheng.

"Let's go, let's go, people always have to learn to grow up. Let's go, let's go, life is bound to experience pain and struggle, let's go, let's go, find a home for your heart. I have cried and been heartbroken, this is the price of love. Maybe I still miss her occasionally, and I can't help thinking about her occasionally. Just treat him as an old friend, it also makes me feel distressed and worried. But there is no spark in my heart anymore, let the past go with the wind." The song floated out from their mouths, full of vicissitudes. But Su Ran didn't understand whether the price of love was just tears and heartbreak, but he knew: the price of growth is the love that has passed away in the flow of time. In this late night when he should see through it, Su Ran still felt sorry for his lost love, and for Robben and the nameless Beijing girl. The next morning, Su Ran took the train to Yiwu. After arriving in Yiwu, he had to transfer to Hengdian. He knew that he should do something for himself. If Le Yao can agree to come back to help GI shoot the opening posters this time, his career will usher in the first progress in his life. Promoted to the leader of the planning copywriting team, his monthly salary will also exceed 10,000 yuan, and perhaps his life will stabilize.

Sitting on the train heading south, Su Ran said to himself for the first time: "Work hard, Su Ran, don't let anyone look down on you again." He looked at the scenery that was constantly receding outside the window, his heart was full of expectations for the future, and he was reluctant and entangled with the past. He didn't know what was waiting for him in Hengdian, nor did he know how his relationship with Lin Yue, Xu Tianna and others would develop. Everything was as unpredictable as the scenery outside the window, and he could only move forward firmly towards the unknown with a heart full of complex emotions.