I Became the Childhood Friend Who Commits Sui**de

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I couldn’t even stand up; I was completely bewildered.

Calm down.

What would change if Han Si-hyun moved to Class B?

Everything would change!

Since we’re in the same class, there are countless events we experience together.

What if Han Si-hyun just disappears from the center of all those incidents?

The original story would simply go haywire.

I couldn’t keep calm.

I was so mentally shattered that I couldn’t even react properly.

Would anyone even understand my feelings?

“Cutie!”

I don’t know who it was, but they sure were cheerful in this situation.

I wished I could at least see the face of that cutie… Ugh.

Suddenly, my vision went dark.

It wasn’t a seizure; I was forcibly hugged by someone.

It was a rather warm and soft embrace.

“Thank you! It’s all thanks to you!”

“Uh, um…”

The person who collided with me was none other than the student council president.

As if hugging wasn’t enough, they were also ruffling my hair like I was a golden retriever.

“How can you be so kind and gentle? Not only are you forgiving my little brother’s mistakes, but you’re also helping so actively. I’m truly touched.”

Now my face was completely buried in their embrace, leaving me speechless.

I can’t breathe!

I painfully realized that a heart can become a weapon too.

Then, other jurors began to gather around, looking at me warmly.

Sorry, but my feelings right now are quite the opposite of yours, you know?

If you really want to pretend to be warm-hearted, then just give me the demerit and get it over with.

Or at least change the punishment to a hundred hours of community service instead of this mess…

Then, the problematic figure came close to me.

Han Si-hyun looked at me with a peculiar gaze and spoke.

“Thank you.”

Although her words didn’t carry much emotion, something about her was different from her usual self.

It seemed my passionate defense had moved her a little.

But honestly, that wasn’t really important to me right now.

“And I’m sorry. I heard everything from Kim Shinwoo. I know what situation you’re in.”

Why would he go around saying things like that?

I couldn’t understand it at all.

Usually, I would just brush it off, but right now, I felt so wronged that I wanted to take everything the wrong way.

I didn’t like Kim Shinwoo, and I didn’t like you either, Han Si-hyun.

I also didn’t like the student council president or the disciplinary committee! I just hated everything!

I was so irritated…

Since I reincarnated, nothing has ever flowed as I wanted it to.

Suddenly, the overwhelming sadness threatened to turn into tears.

I tried to act calm.

“…It’s fine, so just go. Huhuhu…”

In the end, I couldn’t hold it in and ended up crying.

Why am I feeling this way?

The world is pushing me down.

Everyone was taken aback by my sudden outburst of tears.

Yeah, I’m just a crazy girl who’s lost her mind, so please leave me alone.

I’m begging you…

At that moment, a kindly-looking old man spoke.

“It seems you’re quite distressed. I’ve actually been assigned to counsel this student.”

…Huh? Counseling?

Oh, right.

Today is Wednesday.

The health teacher must have set up a counseling session without my consent.

That was even more upsetting right now.

Why did you schedule a counseling session when I didn’t want it…?

“I’ll take Hana with me for the talk.”

“Yes, please do.”

“Huhuhu…”

And so, receiving everyone’s concerned stares, I left the disciplinary committee room.

I followed the counselor into the counseling room.

Until the end, Han Si-hyun stared intensely at me.

*

“Have you calmed down a bit?”

“Yes…”

“Good. Would you like a cup of tea?”

I sniffled and answered immediately.

“Do you have milk…?”

“Of course. We also have warm milk.”

Alright. This person knows a thing or two.

Milk is the best.

When it comes to soothing my present sadness, nothing beats milk.

Gulp.

“Ahh…”

Just one sip had an instant effect.

Indeed, it’s milk.

From now on, I should thank the dairy cows every morning.

“Do you think your friend received too harsh a punishment?”

“Yes! Totally! Just a demerit would have been enough…”

Honestly, right?

Kids grow up by fighting.

Sometimes, disagreements can happen when talking.

I said it was fine.

“The truth is, there’s another reason why such a punishment was delivered.”

“Huh…? A reason?”

What? Is there a hidden conspiracy?

Does that mean everything was planned?

Could the demon king’s faction have deliberately tried to separate Han Si-hyun from Kim Shinwoo…!?

But that development wasn’t in the original.

“It’s because of you.”

“…Me?”

“Can I see the wound under that bandage?”

“Uh, this is, a little…”

“It’s a self-harm scar, isn’t it?”

I guess the health teacher must have told them everything.

Why are you asking if you already know?

It’s not like you’re trying to poke fun at me.

“It’s alright. Everyone in the disciplinary committee already knew.”

“So, that I self-harmed? Why?”

“That just means you were feeling unstable enough to do that.”

Wait a moment.

The conversation is going in a weird direction.

Waving my hands in a panic, I explained.

“This has nothing to do with me! I did it alone before I had a fight with Si-hyun!”

“What matters is not that. It means that you were in an unstable condition and posed a threat with your abilities. So, they had no choice but to deliver a stricter verdict.”

“…This can’t be.”

That means…

In the end, it was my fault that the original story was ruined?

If I hadn’t self-harmed, the conflict with Han Si-hyun would have been a trivial matter instead.

It’s all my fault.

“Ha, haha…”

“Don’t be too disheartened. Thanks to you, a much better outcome has come about. If it weren’t for your defense, your friend could have easily been expelled.”

Is that really supposed to comfort me right now?

If only I hadn’t mocked Han Si-hyun by likening her to my dead brother.

No, if I hadn’t self-harmed…

I wonder if this old man truly understands the weight of his words.

He probably has no idea how I’m feeling.

I just want to die.

“Please answer comfortably. Is there a reason you tried to self-harm? Bullying, perhaps…?”

“A reason? It’s simple.”

I smiled faintly and kindly answered.

“I wanted to die.”

“………”

“You see, when I first cut my wrist, it was so thrilling and exhilarating. It felt euphoric; I thought I might even wet myself. But then later….”

“Stop.”

The old man’s expression stiffened.

What? I was asked, so I was trying to explain in detail.

“Whew. Yeah, it’s not good as I thought. Perhaps it’s a blessing in disguise.”

“A blessing? Of course, it would be more of a blessing if I died…”

“The child who will move to your class will help improve your condition.”

A child moving to Class B?

Someone from Class B who will replace Han Si-hyun?

Was there a worthy character in Class B?

I couldn’t recall anything.

Naturally, there would be numerous supporting roles in Class A where the protagonist, Kim Shinwoo, is.

The only thing I could think of was a guy who was just good at fighting.

“Is it a male student?”

“No, it’s a female student.”

Then, I had no clue.

“And it seems like regular counseling will be necessary.”

You must be joking. Why would I want help from this useless counseling?

I’d just ditch and run away.

“Come back next Wednesday, okay?”

“Yes.”

I’d easily forgo any other day, but there’s no way I’m coming next Wednesday.

“Oh, was that the day for second-year practical training? Then come on Thursday.”

Thursday works too.

After all, I planned to take my life on Wednesday.

Is it exactly a week from now? The day of practical training is D-Day.

Forget about preserving the original.

Since Han Si-hyun is moving, the original is already ruined.

I just have to hold on for a week.

Then, after going outside the academy, I’ll end it.

That will do. I just need to last until that day.

Please.

Let everything turn out well.

Amen.

*

In the now-empty disciplinary committee room.

Only two sisters remained there.

“By the way, is it really true?”

“True about what?”

My younger sister’s blunt reply.

The older sister continued the conversation as if it were nothing.

“Did that nice little cutie really bring up Si-hoon?”

“………”

Han Si-hoon.

He’s the younger brother of the two sisters, who has now departed.

He was also a sore point for the both of them.

“Yeah. But I was the one who messed up first.”

Si-hyun nodded as if she was certain.

After that incident yesterday, she had a brief phone call with Kim Shinwoo.

When he asked how it happened, Si-hyun had told him.

It was all Yu Hana’s fault.

She then explained the details of the incident.

After hearing about Yu Hana’s situation that Kim Shinwoo told her, she realized her mistake.

However, the incident had already occurred, and it was too late.

She calmly accepted her wrongdoings and was ready to face the consequences.

If only Yu Hana hadn’t passionately defended her, that would have been the case.

To be honest, she was surprised.

It was natural to feel ill will toward her, but instead, she was helped.

“Then do you still think the same?”

“What thought?”

“The thought that the cutie has awakened.”

In the end, the incident’s trigger was due to Si-hyun’s hasty judgment.

Had she been a little more subtle and not insisted so much, the situation would surely have been much better.

However, Si-hyun’s conviction was strong.

“Yes.”

“You’re quite stubborn, aren’t you?”

“But Hana is definitely an ability user. It doesn’t make sense otherwise.”

“Well, if there’s one thing I learned while being student council president, it’s that there’s no such thing as perfect execution in this world. There will always be mistakes.”

In other words, their older sister, Sehee, believed that, unlike her sister, Hana was powerless.

Who was right between the two?

It was actually simple to verify the truth.

“Shall we ask?”

“To whom?”

“Who do you think?”

Sehee smiled as she spoke.

“To the enrollment selector.”