My Researching Journey (HxH)

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Chapter 24: The Vow

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A strange atmosphere enveloped the house as I started what I wanted to do.

My Willpower is proven...

My emotion is my desire, and I desire a 100% compatibility in enhancement...

My determination is what I need to prove and the following Vow shall prove it shaping my future with it, 'Vow...I'll Die If I Ever Feel Like A Failure....'

'Ten' is the process of keeping the nodes open, but also having aura flow through and around the body rather than away from it.

Once maintained, it creates a shroud around the user that feels similar to standing in a lukewarm, viscous fluid.

That's the light purple aura surrounding me, A light purple Aura that soon started to turn darker and darker until signs of blackness left a mark on my aura as The beautiful light purple shining in my aura turned into a dark purple with a hint of black all around.

A dark purple releasing an atmosphere of serenity, an air you wouldn't think such color can give.

I opened my eyes and retracted my aura entering Zetsu, yet the air of tranquility never left me as a relaxed smile painted my pale face.

Now I can keep transmutation which is quite precious to me, that's why I thought I'm going to succeed by giving up on it though I had to make a much harsher Vow, it's still a vow I'm satisfied with.

A vow that comes with more benefits than I thought.

'Ren' I release my aura projecting it outwards, though dark purple aura seemed to have a further change than simply its color.

It has a calm and serene feeling to it with a sense of obscurity lowering my aura's presence quite a bit though that won't change much as a Nen user can easily detect it.

But will this change have an effect on when I enter Zetsu and lower my presence to my maximum?

I do just that, 'Zetsu' I retract my aura then close off my aura nodes, then I lower my heartbeats to my limit as I lower my presence.

Perfection, that's how I can describe my current state as I went beyond what a 'Zetsu' state can do, I'm sure if I walk around It'll be hard for anyone to notice me even while passing by them.

Except for Nen-users though It'll be useful against them to a certain extent as if I tail someone, I'm 100% sure they won't be able to notice me except a few special cases.

And a more important thing, an ability people in this world have, the ability to sense other's gaze on them is something I have as well.

In fact, because of my extraordinary sensorial ability, I could feel when the servants are watching me through the camera when I train in the isolation room.

It's an obscure feeling which feels more like intuition. Now, I'm sure nothing and no one can feel my gaze on them, of course, there are always exceptions.

This could be considered an ability in itself, a weak one but an ability nonetheless though I don't know if this is a benefit of my Vow or just because of my mentality developing.

A smile of amusement surfaced on my face as I thought to myself, 'is this what they call enlightenment?', anyway something else I noticed is My Nen pool expanding significantly.

Nen is quite complicated though the Vow I made is quite harsh, I still only got what I wanted even though the vow could bring much more benefits if used in other things.

As for the other small changes I'm more inclined to think they're a result of my willpower getting stronger. but this is better.

This is a vow I needed to make, I want to live a life of a winner eliminating anything that I don't like.

And the vow says 'If I felt like a failure,' which is completely different than just failing in anything since that'll be way harsher.

People sometimes suicide when they feel like a failure, It's a depressing feeling no one wants to have.

It's okay to fail in something, we humans fail in this all the time but we learn from our mistakes and improve never to make the same mistake again.

We don't feel that bad about failing because it's normal, we are an imperfect species and Yasuo has yet to break his limits and become perfect if that's even possible so he knows he will make mistakes.

He prefers not to and will work extremely hard and be just as cautious as not to fail but he won't really feel bad if he failed in something nor will the vow activate and harvest his life.

This is why he was okay with making such a vow- because feeling like a failure and failing are completely dissimilar things.

The things that can make someone like him feel like a failure are few and far between and can be counted on fingers of one hand.

Those are things he will strive and work hard as to not allow to happen because he will prefer to be dead than to experience them.

This is why he worked so hard for the past years and preserved against the pain and agony.

Perhaps in the future, his mind will grow and give beath to an untouchable and unbeatable will making the vow void because what can make him like a failure will cease to exist or matter in his mind.

That's also why he wanted to set the bar to what can make him feel negative emotions higher.

As to make something that can make him feel like a failure extremely rare and in the future, his mind will simply be immune to such a feeling.

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Anyway, It's time to celebrate and start preparing for my conjuration ability as I always thought of it as one of the most broken categories if used right.

I put a black coat on after using 'Ten' so as not to go unnoticed then went to a luxurious shop close by.

A jewelry shop one of the best in the eastern part of the continent, once I entered an employee immediately received me.

"Hello sir, how can I help you." the employee asked with a professional smile adorning her face.

Well, as excepted, no strange reaction to seeing a kid as young as me enter the shop as if its everyday occurrence, "To the earrings section."

"Please follow me," She said and turned around leading the way.

We reached the earring section where I looked around for something that suits my style.

I looked for a while until I found a silvery long earring, I picked it up while handing her my account card, "This one.", "right away, sir".

She completed the payment then I headed back home though something I noticed along the way is a strange atmosphere around me.

A sense of tranquility that seems to affect everyone I pass by, subtly calming them and bringing silence with it, something I like.

I closed my eyes letting my senses guide me as I enjoyed the silence, 'My aura has this kind of effect Hmm... this is a subtle manipulation my aura inflicts on others though it's not that useful, but I am loving it... '

A beaming smile spread across my face as I reached my house.

I picked up an ear-piercing device I bought along the way, then brought it to my left ear, then 'Shu' an advanced Nen technique in which the user encases an object in Aura making it stronger, my aura enveloped the device enhancing it, then...

Click.

Obviously, such a thing won't be able to go through my skin so I have to use 'Shu', my training wasn't for naught especially the last six months.

I picked up the earring then put it on, its only one earring for my left ear solely, a special one that will stick with me for a while.

I'll focus mostly on 'En' for the next few months as the time for creating my main ability is close.

Also since I'm a specialist I've come to understand something about them, while specialists can create any ability they want, It'll much weaker than if they actually create an ability they dearly desire.

Me for example, I feel like I can make a specialist ability that has nothing to do with Control though the result won't be anywhere as good as if I created an ability that has something to do with control.

Just like I could create my violet rose ability which is mainly an enhancement ability but has a hint of specialization within.

That will give much better results since It's actually something I desire and something that can come naturally just like several other specialists whose Hatsu came naturally, such as Neon Nostrade, Pakunoda, and Tserriednich.

I should also give some time to learning coding, perhaps It could be useful In...