Chapter 15: ch. 11 - A quiet reflection.
Merlin walked through the Outer Court, his footsteps slow and measured, a far cry from the rush of excitement that had marked his earlier days in the sect. The sprawling courtyard was a blur of activity around him—disciples training in groups, others sparring, while some meditated in silence, focusing their mana. The hum of life, the energy in the air, was something Merlin had always taken in stride. But now, his thoughts were preoccupied with the whirlwind of changes that had gripped his life over the past month.
He remembered the first stirrings of his mana deviation, the feeling of everything coming undone. The chaotic surge of energy that had left him near breaking, nearly undone by the force of it. It had been a terrifying moment, yet it had led to a revelation he could not have foreseen: the memories of the Last Magus Emperor, his former self, had surged through him, offering not only the power and knowledge of the past but also insights into his true potential.
In the stillness of the outer court, he could almost feel the weight of that knowledge—the accumulated wisdom, the experiences, and the strength that had once flowed through his veins. It was as though a door had opened, one that had been closed for centuries. The weight of responsibility that came with that inheritance was something he was only beginning to comprehend.
His training had intensified after that, pushing him to new limits. His mastery over his own body, his connection to his mana core, and the delicate balance between the two had deepened. But it wasn't just physical prowess. It was as if his mind and soul were finally catching up to the raw power surging through him. It was the realization that his path forward didn't just lie in the mastery of magic or body cultivation—it was about merging both to create something greater than the sum of their parts.
Now, standing at the cusp of something greater—an opportunity to join the Inner Court—Merlin's mind lingered on his purpose. The sect was a stepping stone, but it was clear to him that his journey would eventually take him far beyond its walls. The memories of the Last Magus Emperor had not only shown him the power of the past but had also revealed the vastness of the path ahead.
His footsteps carried him through the courtyard, past disciples who barely noticed him as they focused on their own training. Merlin's gaze drifted to the horizon, the distant peaks of the mountains beyond the sect, where he knew challenges awaited. Whether he succeeded in his trial for the Inner Court or not, he had already glimpsed the future—a future that would not be bound by the limitations of any sect or kingdom.
The weight of his thoughts lifted as his pace slowed, the steady rhythm of his breathing grounding him in the present moment. His mind was sharp, his resolve stronger than ever. Whether the Inner Court accepted him or not, his true journey had already begun.
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As Merlin entered his courtyard, the sight of the scarred ground immediately caught his attention. His once peaceful retreat now bore the marks of his intense training over the past several weeks. Cratered earth, shattered stones, and scorched patches littered the area, a testament to his relentless cultivation. He hadn't noticed how far the damage had gone, consumed as he was by his training and his growing sense of purpose.
The sight was a sharp contrast to the mental clarity he now felt. There was something grounding about the disarray, a reminder of how far he had come—and how much more he still had to achieve.
With a sigh, Merlin took a few steps forward and began his work. His hands moved with practiced ease, the same focus and precision he used in his training now applied to cleaning up the courtyard. He summoned gentle winds and used his control over lightning to char the scorched earth and clear debris, returning the area to a semblance of order.
As he worked, his mind wandered. The courtyard had always been his sanctuary, a place where he could unwind after training, think, and reflect. In many ways, it symbolized the path he had taken—a place marked by both destruction and renewal. The path he walked, too, was one of balance: harnessing his power without letting it consume him, maintaining his humanity amidst the overwhelming surge of strength he wielded.
The rhythm of his movements was calming, almost meditative. As he cleared the last of the rubble, the courtyard began to take on a new sense of purpose. It was ready for the next phase of his journey, just as he was.
Once the area was restored, Merlin stood at the center, feeling a sense of satisfaction wash over him. The calmness of the surroundings reflected his own inner state now. Despite the chaos and the weight of the challenges ahead, Merlin felt more at peace with himself than he had in years.
He took a deep breath, letting the silence of the courtyard wash over him. There was much to do, and the trial for the Inner Court was only the beginning. But for now, in this moment of quiet, Merlin allowed himself to simply exist—content, centered, and ready for whatever came next.
That night, Merlin didn't train. Instead, he sat in the quiet solitude of his courtyard, with only the soft flickering of lightning mana illuminating the space around him. His mind was heavy, the weight of years of unspoken thoughts and untold stories pressing down on him. The memories of his past, the losses, and the unresolved feelings for the village that had been destroyed seemed to come rushing back with an intensity he hadn't expected.
He sat at his desk, a quill in hand, and began writing.
The letters were long and filled with everything he could remember—every moment, every hardship, every moment of joy and sorrow. He wrote to his parents, telling them everything that had happened since their deaths, recounting his journey, his struggles, his pain, and his eventual rebirth into a new life. He poured his heart into the words, acknowledging his regrets, his anger, and even his hope for a future that could, perhaps, honor their memory.
As he wrote, his lightning mana began to flow through him more naturally. He didn't pause to think, but simply let the energy guide him. The mana coiled around the parchment, lightning crackling from his fingertips as he finished each letter. When the ink had dried and the final words were written, he used his mana to incinerate each letter. The flames danced for a moment in the air before vanishing into nothingness, leaving no trace of the words he had poured out.
He continued through the night, writing letters to anyone else he could remember from the village, those who had perished in the attack or had been lost to time. With each letter he wrote, it was as if a small part of his soul was freed. It was an act of closure—an acknowledgment of his past, both the pain and the love that had once been there.
At one point, Merlin paused, his hand hovering over the parchment. He turned his thoughts toward Myrddin and the Demon race. The older version of himself— the Last Magus Emperor—had always carried a sense of responsibility for the fate of the world, for the choices he had made in the past, and the enemies he had fought. And so, Merlin wrote a final letter, one he never thought he would compose, to Myrddin.
His words were simple, but filled with intent:
"I have come back, and I am not the same. My purpose now is not to follow in your footsteps but to surpass them. You were a powerful force, but now it is my turn. The world you once knew is changing. I will be the one to shape it."
And to the Demon race, the letter was an acknowledgment, a silent warning, and a declaration all at once. It was not an open challenge, but a recognition that Merlin's future path would inevitably lead him to them. The wars of the past were not over, and the world would soon learn that the Magus Emperor's legacy was not something that could easily be forgotten or ignored.
With the letters burned, Merlin stared into the flames for a long time. The dawn began to break, the first light of morning creeping into the courtyard, but the weight on his heart had lessened, the burden of silence now gone.
He had sent his messages, and in doing so, he had finally said goodbye to the past.
Now, the future awaited him.