That apple, Why did you come to me?

[I am a person born of God's covenant. If God's covenant does not become valuable, then my existence has no value. He answered Moses, who asked for his name, "I AM WHO I AM." Jesus, who appeared to John in a vision, said this. "I am Alpha and Omega, the beginning and the ending, saith the Lord, which is, and which was, and which is to come, the Almighty. God is not made valuable, but is precious in existence itself.

Human existence itself cannot be precious. What makes us valuable? A being inherently precious by its existence, and one that is not. God and humans. The creation in the image and likeness of God is our human form. What humans embody is precious. "Hath not the potter power over the clay, of the same lump to make one vessel unto honour, and another unto dishonour?" Paul explained the power of God to the Romans.

The fight for superiority again brings us to the question of what it means to be human.]

Love and passion overthrew the castle built with reason. I was becoming addicted to you. I believed that sexual desire was not pious and distanced me from a disciplined life, so I lived trying to control and suppress the arising emotions. By getting to know love, I began to think about what health created by God truly means. 

As soon as I woke up this morning, I thought of you and started writing. Money, food, sex.... Are all the greed and desires happening to me bad?

Near human desire, sin resides. Addiction is losing you. The sense of feeling beauty was becoming numb. I didn't want to lose you.

We should enjoy healthy desires with patient and self-discipline. patient and self-discipline myself is not the same as restraining myself. We learn the right path for humans to walk by studying Western philosophy and Eastern province. God teaches us about human existence itself. If our perception of existence is wrong, we will walk with a friend called sin.

[I was born from the soil, but I did not know the smell of the dust of the ground. The more I was with you, the more I could smell the dust of ground on my body. It was the smell of human sweat. It is a scent similar to that of sin. The freedom of pleasure is up to me.]

You are the light to me, and I am the darkness to you. you were a beautiful person to me. The darkness that has fallen upon me is your darkness.

"She is not beautiful."

The brighter my writing becomes, the more it shines, not only I but also you have become trapped in darkness. I loved you. The name of your beauty is my love. I am praising the beauty that holds my love, the beauty of that beauty.

I became enlightened through you, and through your eyes, I also came to know the filth.

Genesis 2:17 But of the tree of the knowledge of good and evil, thou shalt not eat of it: for in the day that thou eatest thereof thou shalt surely die.

The rivers of Eden made all strong and exceptional, more than anyone else. And that power eventually seeks to possess a beauty that surpasses even God. 

"You shall surely die."

I will not become like those blind brothers. I know him. I fear him. I have resolved to leave you and return to the darkness where God resides.

I remember you in the my darkness.