chapter 1
For eternal rest-1
Everything came from an artifact I picked up.
A jewel that is said to give you what you want, who would have known that it would lead to such a terrible life.
I just wanted to undo what had once been twisted.
The relationships I destroyed with my own hands, close friends, and even the people I loved.
However, the reality was not so rosy.
There were still people who treated me coldly, and there were not many opportunities for me to wash away the karma again.
failed and died He died while mobbing.
The power of the artifact was still full and overflowing, and time continued to return, but there was no hope for that endless return.
When I first died, I thought it would change if I acted differently from now on.
I believed that if I regret my actions and show an attitude of self-reflection, things would go back to normal, and the people I loved would look at me again.
After dying twice, dying three times, and going through dozens of deaths, his mind became more and more impoverished.
Sometimes I tried to be a respectful gentleman, and sometimes I was an expert in human relations.
I became a master at bewitching women, and my name became a symbol of lust, and there were times when I proudly bewitched a princess and made it my own.
In the episode where he went crazy and killed everyone with his own hands, the princess cut his throat.
In the end, it has not changed that the end of all life is a miserable end.
It was as if the world was whispering to me.
He told me that the fate given to me was only destruction in the end, and urged me to give up.
gave up After passing through 100 deaths, I finally set my goal for eternal rest…
‘It’s relieved.’
I couldn’t get used to it, so I saw a ceiling that memorized every single pattern.
Having seen it over 100 times, now this situation itself was imprinted on me like a picture.
The clothes I was wearing, the bed I was lying on, and the attendant coming to check if I was awake soon after.
It is painful to remember all the countless repetitions of daily life.
Especially if you know that no matter how lowly I act, I will die miserably.
Anyway, now that I’ve come back, it’s time to decide how to act.
How should I act this time? Until now, I acted ‘to live’ as much as possible. To be precise, to live with everyone but me.
Even if someone insults me, I put up with it just in case.
There were times when I got down on my knees and prayed, and there were quite a few times when I was sensitive to the idea of blocking variables.
Of course, after dying a few times, that obsessive-compulsive disorder disappeared, but now that I think about it, it was all useless.
Still, I didn’t have to live like that anymore.
If possible, it was better to die after fulfilling the purpose.
It wouldn’t hurt to give up everything and just live for pleasure.
Of course, I’ve done it once, so I’m not particularly interested in it.
“It wouldn’t be bad to live while doing what you want to do.”
There weren’t too many things I wanted to do, but I still wanted to see the sea in the south.
It’s close to the north, and there weren’t many things to see the sea in this area that spanned the middle.
A look at the sea and paying off a debt to a woman he had been quite indebted to before seemed fine.
She may not remember, but hadn’t she benefited from the best of her life?
The goal is the most perfect death, unless the voice I remember from the last episode is wrong…
Perhaps my death this time would be my last death.
smart-
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Just as I was organizing my thoughts, the door burst open with a few knocks.
The old butler opened the door and entered.
Was your name Leonard? After staring at the butler, a calm voice came out of his mouth.
“You woke up… I thought you were sleeping late today. Eat soon. Command-”
“Hey, butler.”
I was used to the butler acting like this to me.
My position in this Taylor family was really the worst, and even as a butler, I was pathetic enough to ignore me at this time.
However, that didn’t mean to really ignore it.
When I cut off my words, the butler stared at me with his little eyes wide open as if he was devastated.
It’s something I always think about, but I needed to fix that butler’s habit.
Until now, I had left it to live somehow, but now I don’t have to.
“What is my name?”
“…Yes?”
“Don’t make me say it twice. He asked what my name was.”
“This is Robert Taylor.”
The butler responded slowly to the subdued voice. Yes, my name is Robert Taylor.
No matter how foolish they are called, even if the end is a miserable ruin.
The family wasn’t easy enough to be ignored by a mere butler.
“But you seem to be treating me like your equal. Is it because you’re too lazy to knock on the door? If that’s the case, I’d rather get rid of the door. I’m really curious about which country sets the etiquette for you to come in as soon as you knock.”
Poor boy, problem child.
Having been executed two or three times for lowering the prestige of the family, I have nothing to say,
The name Taylor has been used to great effect in subduing someone.
The butler’s body trembled at the sharp gaze.
However, the voice was calm. Rather, I am surprised to hear it.
“What would happen to Taylor’s prestige if the fact that a mere butler wandering in and out of the owner’s room spreads? Then, who is responsible for the fallen prestige? Are you going to take responsibility?”
“It’s not like that-“
“Fix it if you don’t. If you make a mistake like this next time, I’ll report it to my father.”
The astonished butler bowed over and over again and then, much more politely than before, said that he would bring the meal.
Seeing her disappear with her tail curled up as if running away, a thin smile appeared on my lips without my knowledge.
“…this way is better too.”
It’s easier to keep your hands on the butler. It was a lesson learned through several regressions.
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Rumors had already spread that the butler had been scolded once, and as I went down to eat, the eyes on me were noisy.
It’s ridiculous to talk about it openly. How much can I do that if I’m in the middle of the day.
But now I had no intention of just letting it happen to me.
There is nothing to be afraid of, what am I to hesitate about? I didn’t have to try to live anymore.
I would rather be grateful if someone tried to kill me.
To me, who has no goals or ambitions, wouldn’t it be worth saying that life is so worthless?
“It must have just been made.”
“That’s right. Since I was ordered earlier, I have been instructed to make everything new.”
Reynolds seemed to have come to his senses from what had just happened, and his attitude towards me was very good.
No, it was natural for him to show this attitude. It must be proof that I have lived too foolishly.
By the way, if I hadn’t ordered to make it new, would they have given me cold food?
It was a question I already knew the answer to.
The food I probably ate is cold, a piece of meat I can’t even lift a knife anymore.
However, this time it was a steak that could be easily sliced.
As I savored the food with a satisfied expression on my face, I felt Renald’s eyes on me.
…what are you doing to make the food taste worse? Putting down the fork, I glanced at it, and as if Leonald had been waiting, he opened his mouth.
“The Lord Soga is on his way. How would you…?”
“Well.”
My sister-in-law, the woman who will inherit the family after my father.
Did you give me poison in my past life, I was grateful for that.
If I had to pick one, it seemed like he died the least painfully.
But if I saw that face while I was eating, would the rice go well?
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Just as she was about to say that she would see her a little later, the door opened again and Yuria strode in.
The people in this family seem to have a history of opening the door without permission.
To be precise, it’s probably because they see me as easygoing.
As I frowned slightly, a cool voice pierced my ears.
“You look good even after doing that yesterday. You mean you don’t even reflect anymore?”
“…what did I do yesterday?”
The actions of ‘yesterday’ remained clear, but I deliberately pretended not to know.
After all, it is tomorrow that has lost its meaning due to countless regressions.
I don’t know, but nothing will change in the future.
When I asked back with a questionable expression, YuRia glanced at me with a puzzled expression.
It was the first time I had seen this expression.
Maybe it’s because it’s the first time I haven’t apologized.
It has been my life to always apologize for actions I can’t even remember, and to commit myself to actions that I shouldn’t have done.
However, I don’t want to live like that anymore.
The gaze of YuRia, who passed the butler and approached right in front of her, was quite bloody.
I couldn’t easily meet YuRia’s eyes because her blue eyes always contained contempt and hatred.
Of course, that’s a thing of the past. I lived like an idiot, but now I have never committed such a big sin.
A sin that only needs to be told once, a sin that is embarrassing to even call it a sin.
So, my attitude was dignified.
I made eye contact with YuRia, who stood in front of me as I was eating the steak.
“Have I become so shameless that I can’t even apologize now? How the hell are you going to get ugly, Robert Taylor?”
“I have no intention of getting ugly. Even if it’s just an apology, I decided it was right to apologize to His Excellency.”
“Ha, since when did you pay so much attention to manners? If it was so important, why until now-”
“From today.”
He replied with a cold, yet calm expression. It was right to think that I had no feelings for YuRia.
Neither sympathize nor hate.
I wasn’t afraid of it, nor did I hate it. It just has no emotions.
Yuria Taylor’s woman is my sister and at the same time the owner of the house.
There is no possibility or room to be more than that. YuRia stared blankly at me for a moment.
The eyes, which always sent sad blue eyes, trembled at the moment, but it was my misunderstanding, and it regained its original light.
“I intend to do that.”
“…… I’ll assume that you’ve lost your mind since morning. You cursed and scolded the butler who took care of you. To the only one who works hard for you.”
be sincere It is questionable whether the butler who opened the owner’s door and served a cold meal worked really hard.
When my eyes met, Leonald’s shoulders trembled.
Does the minimum conscience remain? Didn’t even laugh.
It was because I could clearly feel that Yuria had no interest in the person I was.
However, this time, I couldn’t just act like I did before.
If I mention the butler here, I’ll lose one hukou that I can use.
Instead of taking out his anger on me, he would say something to the butler and tell him to leave.
Then you might attach your own person to monitor me.
It’s enough to go through that once. So, I bowed my head in a rather respectful manner toward Yuria, who was glaring at me.
“Sorry for the uproar.”
“What?”
“I should have been careful with my actions, but I made the mistake of causing a commotion in the morning. Please understand with a generous heart.”
There was no pitch in his voice.
Even speaking to himself, he knew that he had no soul, but he didn’t mean it anyway.
It was just an unspoken gesture to go over because I’ll bow down once. Why am I apologizing for scolding my attendant?
I turned my back while adding a single word to her staring blankly at me.
“…Lord Soga.”
In the past, maybe you called me sister.
Such a friendly title was no longer appropriate. Isn’t it already twisted as much as it is twisted?
YuRia did not catch me as I left my food behind.
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Just looking at me with shaky eyes, there was not even a hint of regret in my steps.