chapter 9
Coincidence-2
-…Okay, just forget what I just said.
I remembered what YuRia said.
Isn’t that the most absurd thing I’ve ever heard?
It’s not that I’m not interested.
If she was interested in killing me and harassing me, I didn’t even want to get that kind of attention.
What is the meaning of that word?
What is the meaning of the expression that seemed to collapse at any moment, even if it was only for a moment?
I thought about it without stopping, but I couldn’t come up with an answer.
I didn’t even have to think deeply.
It was clear that the words were thrown just to defuse the situation.
To hear an excuse as ugly as saying that it wasn’t that I wasn’t interested… I really couldn’t imagine it.
It’s not that often to see YuRia’s collapsed expression.
Maybe I saw her once in the episode where I killed her.
What I did, wondering what it would be like to kill everyone and be left alone,
However, no one acknowledged me as the head of the family even though it was the duke’s house with no one left.
Other than that, there were a few similar actions, but in most situations, Yuria chose to be calmer rather than break down.
But what the hell is that expression on your face?
Did he react that way when he said he was just not interested?
“…tsk.”
Whatever it is, you don’t have to care.
You know very well that she and I will never be the same anymore.
Even if she had different intentions than I thought, it was all the same that I couldn’t see her clearly.
smart-
Clearing away those thoughts, I knock on the door of the room.
It was quite important to meet my father and tell him about meeting Adele.
There are several benefits to be gained from this, maybe.
I didn’t know I might have more luck than I thought.
“This is Robert. Your Excellency the Duke.”
“Come in.”
With my father’s permission, I opened the door and entered, bowing my head.
I checked my expression, but he was just staring at me, but I couldn’t read any clear emotion.
Only the slight quivering of his eyebrows indicated that his father had been thinking quite a bit about this rumor.
I won’t misunderstand like YuRia.
However, since it was true that I came back with blood on me, he must have been curious about the reason.
Isn’t it a difficult place if there is a commotion?
As if my expectations had been met, my father asked me about yesterday’s work as soon as I was fully in the office.
“Where were you yesterday?”
“…if you ask me where I went, I’m back at the Duke’s residence.”
“The reason is?”
“Because I decided I had nothing to do there.”
Even though they said they were partners, his father was well aware that it was just a cause.
It was just a kind of show to show So Ga-joo that his younger brother is working well, as well as his internal firmness.
He didn’t say anything for a moment, then he asked again in a cold tone.
“To ask where you went is to ask where your blood came from.”
“Rather than being buried, I was cut.”
My father’s eyes narrowed at the word that he had been cut. It’s to see if I’m lying.
However, he only lived 60 years.
In terms of years, I’ve lived several times longer than he did, so can you read my true intentions by looking at me like that?
Of course, since it was true, there was no need to act. He then opened his mouth, showing the handkerchief in his pocket.
“Because I met Sir Ygritte.”
“…Adele?”
“Yes, I went out to the garden for a while and came across it. And we had a lot of conversations.”
It was a little awkward that she had her throat cut after that, but there was no way her father didn’t know about her personality.
If you are a woman who is free-spirited and lives as she pleases…
Wouldn’t it be enough to stick a knife in to check something?
“Then I cut my throat slightly, and they told me to come to the North.”
In an instant, the eyes change.
The sight of the father muttering something in a subdued voice was like a beast that found a coveted prey.
Seek it, and find the benefit in it.
For my father, the highest priority was the family.
I should have been figuring out what I could get out of these words I had acquired.
And I knew the answer he most wanted, better than anyone.
“If you do, you must be thinking of going yourself.”
“no.”
The tone seemed to be floating, I shook my head resolutely and smiled.
I probably won’t go to the North.
As long as he decided that it was better not to get involved with her, wouldn’t it be necessary to set foot in the north even if he helped someday?
“You’d better not go to the North. Then there’s a chance that you’ll be a little impatient.”
“…why do you think you’re impatient? Adele Ygritte is the Grand Duke of the North. Do you think you would do that just because you cut your throat a little bit?”
“Yes, isn’t Adele Ygritte that kind of person?”
Adele was a woman well suited to the land of the North. don’t forget your promise
However, the grudge is also not forgotten.
It was the habit of those who are commonly called barbarians, but Adele respected them and inherited that habit.
She became proud of her act of blocking all invasions from the north, and that’s why those who criticized Adele also disappeared.
She is a woman who rose to the position of Grand Duke with a single sword.
And I knew better than anyone else that that personality would not change over time.
“Perhaps they will not forget that they cut my throat. As much as he asked me to come, I’m sure he’ll keep this in mind.”
“…yes, I guess.”
A very faint smile crossed his father’s lips for a moment.
It must be the same as what you were thinking.
Now the main problem was how to use it, but he said something else as if he didn’t want to discuss it with me.
“I don’t think too much. Did you make up your mind to change a little?”
“In a way, yes.”
“Of course it should have been. I can’t live pathetically forever. Well thought out.”
A strange feeling came to my mind when I saw my father smiling with satisfaction.
He doesn’t know what I mean when I say I’ve changed.
I don’t know what kind of heart I wanted to change, but even so, I don’t know the abandoned and dead heart.
He didn’t mind hearing his father’s praise, which he had hoped to get someday, and he felt somewhat confused.
…I had a feeling that I had changed quite a bit.
I wanted to hear it so much that I did everything I could, but I couldn’t feel anything anymore from the praise I heard for such a trivial thing.
The old me no longer exists. Perhaps there will never be a return.
Still, looking at my father who was still satisfied, I just kept silent.
“You are the proud Taylor scion. Under any circumstances, you must have the intention of benefiting the family.”
“…I’ll keep that in mind.”
I imagined what kind of expression I would make if I knew that I had no pride in the name Taylor.
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The Wind Blows. It was a sweltering wind suitable for summer weather, but even that felt good.
The story I had with Adele freed me up, and I was free to go outside.
Since last prom we were tied up in the name of partners,
It’s been a while since I came out without bringing anyone… It’s been a while.
Come to think of it, wasn’t he confined in the basement before he died in his last life?
It’s been a while since I’ve been walking the streets around here,
It felt like my stuffy chest was quite relieved.
The feel of the fluttering hair, the feel of sunlight touching and enveloping the skin. There was nothing I didn’t like.
‘Was it a little faster this time?’
Originally, it was a long time after I became free to act, but in this episode, it was thanks to various coincidences that things worked out quite well in their own way.
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Just walking down the street makes me feel refreshed.
Aren’t there often people waiting to see what awaits them after death?
Maybe it’s because I’ve been through that kind of feeling dozens of times, but after I died, I used to have a lot of emotions.
Maybe I’m already dead
In some cases, I lost my mind because I couldn’t believe what I was seeing was real.
So, going out like this helped to sharpen my mind.
The flowing wind, the warm light, and the feeling of walking on the ground made me feel that I was alive.
I am alive. So, I will do it this time.
Until now, I have lived with that mindset.
This time, though, I had a slightly terrifying wish for my eternal death.
That’s why the reason for coming out was quite different.
What I’m trying to find now is to gather information, I already know everything, but isn’t it just in my head?
It was necessary to gather physical evidence. If it’s a proper information dealer, it will appear later… but there’s nothing wrong with finding it in advance.
As I was walking towards the information store, a young child who was running next to me bumped into me and I fell down.
Perhaps he hadn’t run while looking forward, but the crouching child with his head covered was groaning.
“Ah…”
After thinking about whether I should raise it up, I crouched down to check the condition of the fallen child.
As I touched the floor, I could see the red skin of my hand.
It’ll probably bleed if you leave it like this.
“From now on, look ahead and walk. If you bump into a strange person, what might happen to you?”
“I’m sorry. Are you okay?”
“Nothing is okay. Isn’t it you who collided and fell?”
When I took out a new handkerchief and tied it around my hand, the child’s eyes widened when he saw the pattern on the handkerchief.
The child, who had been gazing at the situation for a while, suddenly lowered his head and began to grow pale.
“T, I really didn’t know you were from the Taylor family! Look at me just once-”
“Shh. No words needed. It’s just that the way you go is over. You must have understood what I was saying.”
As I covered the lips of the child who was constantly lowering his head, I slowly blinked as if I understood him.
I didn’t like this.
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Just because I was the son of a famous nobleman, people’s attitudes changed in an instant.
The debauchery I had in my first life was due to this feeling.
Even though he died because he was not understood, this feeling has not changed until now.
I grabbed the hand and raised the child up, and the child, who hesitated for a while, turned around and started running.
There were many aristocrats with bad personalities around here.
If it’s someone other than me who bumped into me, there will be people who bully me using this as a pod.
I stare at the child disappearing into the back alley, then turn my head and walk again.
No, it was the moment I was about to turn my back to walk.
“…That’s it.”
There was a woman looking around and looking around.
There was a person next to her who seemed to be helping a woman, and it looked like she was looking for someone.
The white blonde, the moment I saw that hair, the name flashed through my mind, and I muttered the name without even realizing it.
“Adrian.”
She looked like a commoner in ordinary clothes, not saint’s clothes.
The clothes with this and that dust on them were trustworthy, even if they had just been wiping something.
But why is she dressed like that?
With such curiosity, my feet strode forward.
I don’t know why, but the thought of meeting her came to my mind.