chapter 19
19. break up. (2)
“… … I’m home.”
Could it be because it moved quickly?
He exhaled heavily, and the smell of blood caught his breath.
But the moment you set foot in the reception room.
──All of that, I had no choice but to forget.
Brilliant blonde hair down to her waist.
Because those eyes were trembling as they looked at me, just like the waves of the sea.
Pure white and clear skin without a single blemish, as if receiving favoritism from nature.
If you’re the main character, be like the main character.
A selfish, purely beautiful appearance.
Elena de Reyholton.
I asked in a cold tone, chewing on the name that lingers in my heart no matter how many times I repeat it.
“Is that you, Miss Elena?”
“yes. … … Is this your first time meeting in an official setting?”
Having said that, Elena straightened up from her seat and nodded.
Stumble.
At the same time, the body loses its balance for a moment, perhaps feeling dizzy.
An involuntarily outstretched arm nearly grabbed her.
Seeing that her legs barely touched the ground, I removed my hand.
‘… … What is this, each one reacts. The idiot. ‘
bitter self-deprecation.
However, even while spitting out curses inwardly, I had no choice but to realize one thing.
The feeling of regret.
… … After all, it’s not something that can be shaken off so easily.
Is it fortunate that at least it’s not to the point of showing it on my face?
coolly. Be rational.
hide your face… … swallow the emotions
I asked, wearing a cold mask.
“Then, I will ask without the introduction. Why did you come to see me?”
Also like this.
With a haggard look, even holding onto his trembling arm.
Why did you wait for me
To that question, Elena swallowed dry saliva and said.
“… … Notice of breakup. I came because I wanted you to put it on hold.”
why?
At this point, I must have been someone who hadn’t even met her.
There was no reason to meet me while doing something that would cause trouble to both families.
… … Could it be that Elena also returned?
I had such a shallow thought for a moment, but I soon denied it.
no. It couldn’t have been.
If he had returned, it would have been correct to go to the first prince, Evan Beatus, not me.
The person Elena truly loves is the man she should love.
the moment you remembered it.
The words that came out of my mouth were so cold that even I was startled.
“I thought the story of the breakup would be written in the notice of breakup. By any chance, did you say that alimony was insufficient?”
It’s like taking out your anger on the current Elena who doesn’t know anything.
… … It was a cowardly act that made me feel pathetic.
I could feel the Duke of Aion’s eyebrows twitching at my blunt attitude, but fortunately he didn’t want to interfere any further.
Even though I was cowardly, I did not regret it.
If you don’t cut it off right now, it will only make you more distressed later.
Elena swallowed dryly at the words that showed blatant malice and shook her head.
“… … no. I’ve never thought of anything like that. only.”
only.
Having said that, Elena closed her eyes tightly as if taking a deep breath for a moment.
Let’s wait for the next word to come.
Soon after, Elena opened her eyes again and concluded her words in a heartbreaking tone.
“Because I like you. … … too many.”
flinch.
No matter what Elena said, she didn’t want to react.
Until that moment, I couldn’t.
She let out a beautiful smile, enough to hide her haggard figure for an instant.
In front of the dazzling light that said so.
Because the shadow of me seemed infinitely smaller.
Why does Elena say she likes me?
Idajido, shabby me.
Why do you want to give me hope once more when I already lost everything and despaired?
Many questions filled my head, but the words that came out of my mouth were simple.
“If that is all… … You just have to go back.”
“… … why!”
I am not confident. That would have been more accurate.
To trust her one more time.
Because the wounds I got when I fell into the bog once were so painful.
That’s why he told a lie with his shameless mouth.
“It must have been written in the notice of breakup. The fact that I have someone I admire.”
“ah… … . yes, yes, ugh … … You see.”
after telling the truth.
For some reason, I couldn’t see Elena’s face.
I felt like I shouldn’t have met her eyes.
… … Just by hearing Elena’s voice mixed with tears. Because it seemed to fill my heart enough.
In a breathless voice, Elena lowered her head and said.
“excuse… … I did.”
“… … I’m sorry that I couldn’t reciprocate your heart. It would be better if you died.”
Having said that, I let go of my lingering feelings and turned around.
If you show your face now.
Because what I just said was a lie, it seemed like it would be discovered.
before opening the door.
Without looking back, I spoke in a careless tone.
“If you leave now, the sun will set soon. Stay for a day or so. We will take care of you until then.”
Sigh.
Having said that, I closed the door and left the waiting room.
There seemed to be a brief disturbance with the sound of someone falling inside, but… … .
From nob le mt l. co m
Just because she wasn’t the only one about to collapse.
I had no time to worry about Elena.
Having decided to think so, I bit my lip.
enough to bleed.
strongly.
* * *
The memories of the ‘future’ delivered from Chrono drove Elena half mad.
Memory is not simply a list of things that happened.
emotions felt at that moment.
thought.
What brings all of that is ‘memory’.
When I was brainwashed by the prince, Evan Beatus, and made the wrong choice, I felt anger and helplessness.
Last moment–.
When Cale took his own life, looking into my eyes with a hopeless expression.
It’s like the intestines are breaking… … .
It felt like stepping into hell.
That’s why I couldn’t be sure immediately after inheriting the memory.
Is it true that I really like him?
Swayed by feelings of guilt and too dense memories of the previous episode, I wonder if I am considering feelings that do not belong to me as mine.
But I was soon convinced.
Although I hadn’t seen his bare face. The moment we met through the mask, I felt a clear intuition.
He also said that he came back to meet him.
The one I love, the man I want to save even at the cost of my life, paradoxically, the man I killed.
… … i have kale That I love you deeply above all else.
If you have to forsake the world, you can forsake the world.
A love so deep that if you had to give up your life, you could give it without any hesitation.
“Because I like you. … … too many.”
And drunk with the scent of that deep love.
perhaps.
Perhaps she was implicitly thinking that if she met him, somehow it would be resolved.
That human relationships are not that simple.
How cruelly the cogwheels of fate, which once started to fall apart, separate each other.
Maybe I was thinking too arrogantly.
His hair was a deep red like blood.
However, rather than the image that remained in the memory, the face clearly retains a youthful image.
Eyes that look slightly ferocious.
“It must have been written in the notice of breakup. The fact that I have someone I admire.”
Cale’s voice was cold as he spoke.
A cold, sharp voice somewhere.
For Elena, it was a familiar, yet very unfamiliar voice.
A longing yet fearful voice.
He never knew that he would listen to him who always gave a warm voice to him.
A hard tone that makes my heart ache just by listening to it.
It didn’t matter.
It was as if the world was collapsing at the words he uttered.
It might have been an excuse.
It was a common thing to refuse an engagement, saying that you have someone you like.
“ah… … . yes, yes, ugh … … You see.”
However, Elena felt as if her heart sank to this extent at just one word.
What was drawn with a sense of despair.
A feeling of guilt and guilt that pierces the heart, so bitter.
My heart hurts so much just because of something like this.
… … When you threw away kale.
How he must have felt, how the terrible despair came to him.
When Cale’s hand finally plunged the sword into his own heart.
What must have been his heart after he fell to the bottom of the abyss… … .
that is. Because I didn’t even expect it.
Tuduk.
Tears streamed down and rolled down.
Without even realizing that she was crying, tears flowed down her cheeks and fell helplessly to the floor.
“excuse… … I did.”
“… … I’m sorry that I couldn’t reciprocate your heart. It would be better if you died.”
You say it’s cold
In the end, in that tone, there was a subtle kindness.
Is it because it was before I met you?
or not… … Because you changed something in the past?
Could it be that he also returned with himself?
If that’s the case, I won’t be forgiven easily, but I wanted to tell the truth and get away from this terrible feeling of guilt.
Feeling both love and guilt at the same time.
Because that in itself was no different from a cruel curse.
Elena, who lost her reason halfway, thought so.
Chrono, who had been watching over the spirit world, blocked it.
-Is that child a wizard? or not… … . Since you came from another world, do you at least not be affected by cause and effect?
‘… … no.’
– Didn’t you tell me? If it wasn’t like that, I’d be treated like crazy. catch the opposite s*x I know it’s hard for you, but in the end it’s only a bad idea.
It is said that time was rewinded.
… … It is said to have returned to the time when Cale was alive.
But that doesn’t mean that kale is not the kale you used to know.
“If you leave now, the sun will set soon. Stay for a day or so. We will take care of you until then.”
-The Cale you knew is dead. from the past.
Cale’s words and Chrono’s words overlapped.
The way he speaks, as if a nail that is too heavy is being driven into his chest… … Elena had no choice but to sit down.