The True Feelings of a Tsundere Are Showing

23. Cowardice, childishness (feat. Han Seo-ah)

After the 3 hours that the boss had set as a condition, the way back home.

“Lee Si-woo.”

“····.”

“Still not solved? I’m sorry.”

I was ignoring the voice of someone next to me as much as possible.

Of course, I wasn’t upset.

I am not a child.

There’s no way I’ll be offended by just swearing at one position.

Just earlier in the morning, Hanseo, she was ignoring me and was just giving me back.

Of course, this is a very childish act if you look at it closely.

What, how are you?

People can be childish.

Seoah Han continued to call me with a languid voice.

“Lee Siu Woo.”

“······Why.”

“Are you still mad?”

“I’m not upset.”

“Aha, that’s right. You’re not upset.”

[What should I do? Siwoo looks like he’s really pissed off right?]

No, I’m not spouting.

I told you that I didn’t even spout myself.

Why do you keep trying to make me look childish?

“If I do anything, I’ll relieve my anger.”

“No, I’ve never been angry in the first place…”

“Don’t lie. I’ve seen you for years and I don’t even recognize you that much?”

“····.”

Since it came out like that again, I had nothing to say.

Because I didn’t know that maybe Seoah Han really knew Siwoo Lee better than I did.

She originally had the hardest time figuring out herself.

Having these thoughts in my head, I opened my mouth as if I couldn’t help it.

“······Yes. Hanseo-ah, as you said, assume I’m upset.”

“It’s not an assumption, it’s a fact…”

“Hey. I’m not talking?”

“Sorry. Keep talking.”

“······Anyway. Even if it’s true that I’m upset, how are you going to relieve me?”

For example, it was like this.

What can you do?

I’m upset. What can you do about it?

If you think about it again, it’s really unlucky.

I proudly spoke irresponsible words in the world.

Han Seo-ah said as if it was absurd.

“Are you just admitting it now? Are you mad?”

“You said home…”

“Yeah, yes. Originally, when a younger brother gets angry, the older sister has to free him. Seo-ah noona will solve it.’

“····.”

Who is the most absurd person in this situation?

No matter how I think about it, I think it’s me.

No matter how you look at it, it’s me, not him, who should be ridiculous.

As if she didn’t know what I was thinking at all, Han Seo-ah continued to brazenly continue her words.

“What can this sister do to relieve Siwoo’s anger?”

“I’ve said it before, but I’ve never been angry in the first place…”

“Shall I say something? This is what my mom does when I’m annoyed these days.”

“······Your mother talks to you?”

“Oh. I think I got it the day before yesterday.”

“Hanseo-ah.”

“Huh?”

“Do you know how old you are now?”

How old are you.

If it’s short, the meaning of this short question was clear.

Did you age backwards?

What age are you talking about like you’re proud of it?

There is such a thing as the world’s gaze, isn’t it?

No matter how much it is, at the age of 20, it’s a bit bittersweet.

However, Seoah Han still opened her mouth proudly to the world.

“Twenty years old?”

“······Are you bragging that you’re 20 years old now?”

“Of course. It feels better than I thought.”

“No, of course it can be good, but… No, let’s not talk.”

I tried to refute something more, but I decided to just quit.

It’s useless anyway.

No matter what else I say here, they won’t listen to him now.

This was the correct answer based on my experience so far.

It was like the truth of life that I realized while living as Han Seo-ah’s childhood friend.

“Why don’t you talk. It makes me feel bad.”

“I said I was in a bad mood.”

“What do you gain by making me feel bad right now?”

“Well. A subtle pleasure?”

“What else is that?”

“I don’t know if I can explain it.”

It really was.

Originally, this was not something that could be understood through words.

You have to experience it yourself to realize it.

There are quite a few things in the world that tell us the importance of experience.

Han Seo-ah tilted her head as if she was not sure.

“A subtle pleasure? For now, I think you will enjoy a subtle pleasure if I stroke you now.”

“Why?”

What is the reason?

For some reason, I want to stroke the head of a boy I’ve seen almost my entire life.

Let me listen too.

I’m really curious.

Seoah Han giggled as if my reaction was amusing.

“Yeah, because your reaction is funny.”

“······My reaction is funny?”

“Yes. The moment my head is stroked, I feel like I’m going to jump up and down in disgust.”

[It’s true that Siwoo’s reaction is fun, but it’s better to just touch Siwoo.]

“····.”

Wait a minute, isn’t that a bit dangerous?

When I read that sentence without further explanation, what kind of crime did I think right before.

More than that.

Why do you want to touch me?

It was a very dizzy situation.

One is confidently telling lies, not knowing that his heart can be read.

One feels a headache from being forcibly read and pretends nothing happened.

Of these two, who is the tougher?

Han Seo-ah said with her eyes shining.

“So, let me do it just once.”

“What do you want me to do… Is that what you were just saying?”

“Yes. Only once today.”

“I don’t like it.”

As soon as she heard the one-time request, words of euphemistic refusal came out of her mouth.

To be honest, the petting itself didn’t matter much.

It wasn’t that my hair was worn out after I stroked it once, and that much didn’t matter.

“Ah, why don’t you like it?”

“You and I aren’t even dating, so why are you doing that?”

It’s just that I got stuck on that.

Me and Han Seo-ah were childhood friends.

She’s just a friend I’ve known for a long time. It didn’t mean they weren’t dating.

As childhood friends, not lovers, there was a line that had to be followed…

“So? Shall we go out for just one day?”

“······What?”

“Doesn’t sound too bad? Would you like to be my boyfriend for today?”

Knowing that, her face was slightly reddened, but there was nothing special about her.

[It’s not that bad.]

[Siwoo’s girlfriend. I really want to try it even for one day.]

Only the innermost thoughts of Han Seo-ah, who existed softly beside her, were shaking her people’s hearts.

***

She was obviously in a very uncomfortable situation until she came out of the internet cafe.

– Suddenly speaking nonsense again…

– No, I’m an inferior support. You should listen to the dealer.

It was a situation where Siwoo directly provided an excuse to get upset because he was excited about the old story.

Even when I left the internet cafe and walked home.

“Lee Si-woo.”

“····.”

“Still not solved? I’m sorry.”

I kept a playful tone to pretend nothing was wrong, but my heart was never like that.

The idea that I have offended you.

The idea that I made the easy-going Siwoo, who just ignores most things, into a pout.

Those thoughts kept coming back to me, tormenting my face, which I kept as poker face as possible.

– ······Yes. Hanseo, as you said, assume I’m pissed off.

Fortunately, the fact that Siwoo didn’t pout as badly as I thought.

I didn’t even have to explain how I knew this.

Perhaps it was me who knew Siwoo better than his parents.

Because childhood friends are like that.

A true family friend who knows each other better than anyone else.

This could also be seen as the definition of a childhood friend.

‘······I don’t like it.’

Of course, that wasn’t what I wanted.

That wasn’t the kind of relationship I wanted.

The relationship I wanted with Siwoo was not simply a family-like relationship.

A closer relationship than anyone else.

A relationship that can be trusted more than anyone else.

A lover or a couple.

The relationship I wanted with Siwoo was that kind of relationship.

Is that why?

“So? Shall we go out for just one day?”

“······What?”

“Doesn’t sound too bad? Would you like to be my boyfriend for today?”

Saying such a bold statement even though I roughly knew what Siwoo’s reaction would be like.

If cowardly, it was a very cowardly method.

I could be your girlfriend just to annoy you. It’s like holding a shield and attacking.

Hiding the sincerity, hiding the heart that might be hurt.

It was a cowardly method to pretend that nothing was wrong even if he was rejected so that he could prepare for the next opportunity.

But I couldn’t help it.

Even though it was cowardly, it was true that it could not be helped.

Originally, most humans are cowardly.

It is true that you become more childish than anyone else and more cowardly than anyone else in order to get what you want.

“······Do you want to bully me that much?”

“Of course. Who am I? I’m Hanseo who wants to bully you more than anyone else.”

“······So.”

“Huh?”

Because it can start with a cowardly challenge and achieve a happy ending.

“My daily boyfriend. I’ll do it just once.”

“····.”

A cowardly and childish person is the law to challenge.

Those who take on challenges are more beautiful than anyone else.