The True Feelings of a Tsundere Are Showing

28. The reason why cowards change (feat. Han Seo-ah)

Is this how it feels when your head instantly turns white?

I really had no idea.

Her field of vision narrowed very much, and she could only see Han Seo Ah in front of her eyes.

After that, it was about grasping the situation and denying reality.

What did I just do?

Is what I just experienced really happening in real life?

A rough flow of thoughts passed through my head.

To that extent, what I just went through was a very shocking event.

“····.”

“······Hey, at least react. It’s weird for nothing.”

When I showed no reaction, Han Seo-ah said with a slightly sullen expression.

I answered while struggling to calm my beating heart.

“Hey, you just…”

“What. Why? Any complaints?”

“······No. That’s not it.”

“Other than that. Why can’t I speak clearly?”

“····.”

You don’t give me time to talk, you bastard.

And I was the one who was attacked by surprise, so why are you confident?

The world was in an absurd situation.

Surely, I was the one who was suddenly subjected to such and such (?), But the person who did the action looked so confident.

Even if something was twisted, it was a tightly twisted situation.

Han Seo-ah was still confidently expressing her own opinion.

“It’s not past twelve yet.”

“····.”

“Then, since you’re still my boyfriend, isn’t this level of skinship irrelevant?”

“I don’t know what to say because I’m dumbfounded.”

“I’m not being ridiculous, I’m just saying I don’t have anything to say?”

“······There’s really no way to do this.”

He really had a knack for pissing people off, or to be exact, pissing me off.

How can you pick and choose only words that make you angry?

If you can’t even see the sentence, it must mean that it’s sincere.

And, in a way, this might be the reason why I still behave like a man in the world.

Except for the fact that Seo-ah Han suddenly began to show her true feelings, there is almost no difference in the relationship between Seo-ah Han and me.

We were still the most comfortable friends.

He was still my closest friend, always bickering.

It is true that various exciting events have occurred since Seoah Han’s true heart began to show.

Thinking back, I wasn’t even aware of those events, but they were incidents that would have happened even until now.

I just didn’t show it.

She just didn’t have time to think because she didn’t realize the feelings she had.

She only now came to know the emotions she might have felt originally through the opportunity of ‘inner mind’.

So it was.

My relationship hasn’t changed that much yet, so I hesitated.

Because if I did something wrong, everything from the past I’ve lived through to the future that might happen in the future could be completely gone.

To put it simply, it meant coward.

A safety-oriented coward who is satisfied with the current situation and gives up on a future that might be better.

That’s why I stayed still.

Anyone can see that Han Seo-ah was openly tempted by her green light, but she was patient as much as possible.

Because I’m a coward.

I was a coward who wanted to protect the present, so I held back.

“Well, what can you do if you do it? Are you going to pounce?”

“What do you girls say so…”

But it was getting to the point where I couldn’t stand it.

In the first place, I didn’t have a good personality either.

I inherited the personality of my mother who liked to play pranks more than anyone else, so I was a person who liked to play pranks more than anyone else.

Nevertheless, I was holding back thinking about the friendship I had with my childhood friend.

“That’s right. Because he’s a man, he’s saying he can’t do anything to me, but he’s just scaring me unnecessarily.”

“····.”

“Isn’t it? You fool.”

“······ Ha. Really?”

Anyway, it seems that I was thinking about it completely wrong.

***

Even when I changed into pajamas in my room, I was in a very good mood.

Actually, it wasn’t even lightly good.

I was looking forward to it to the point where I could feel my heart beating beyond just being good.

The first thought that came to my mind immediately was, ‘How long has it been since I slept with Siu?’ Because it was

It wasn’t something that didn’t happen at all.

As much as my parents are close, we used to travel together when we were young.

However, it was just a childhood when the concept of the opposite s*x was not properly grasped.

I had never slept in the same room as Lee Si-woo since middle school, when the concept of the opposite s*x was properly grasped.

Of course, this was natural.

It wasn’t for nothing that Lee Si-woo had been working hard on the phrase ‘a man and a woman at the age of 7 years old’.

It’s true that when you’re young, you definitely lack self-control compared to when you’re older.

Lee Si-woo, who now acts like a man in the world, might have acted differently back then.

However, this too was just a story of a childhood lacking self-control and judgment.

She and Siwoo Lee were adults.

She was over 20 years old, already living in college, and was an adult who had to judge her own work.

She knows who she likes.

She is at an age where she knows exactly what kind of person she is attracted to.

So she was frustrated with her childhood friend.

She was frustrated with her childhood friend who hid behind the title of childhood friend and did nothing.

It was a fact that everyone around me already knew.

The fact that she likes her childhood friend Lee Si-woo.

Her parents knew, and Lee Si-woo’s parents knew.

Even Lee Si-yeon, Lee Si-woo’s older sister, knew about it.

Only one person knew.

Only one person knew and was making the person concerned feel frustrated.

It wasn’t even that she didn’t express herself.

She usually showed off so much that both she and her close friends noticed.

Unable to see her efforts, her friends even slightly spilled her heart to Lee Si-woo.

– Han Seo Ah?

– Would he like me because he’s crazy?

It’s just that her childhood friend was more frustrating and stupid than she imagined.

When she heard that, she obviously smiled and agreed.

That’s right.

He said there was no way I would like him.

On the outside, she smiled as if she had heard something funny in the world, but on the inside, she was shedding tears of sorrow for the world.

Because I lack something.

I work so hard to express myself.

It’s unfair that only the person I’ve known the longest doesn’t notice my feelings.

She resented someone who didn’t notice her crush.

I was so resentful that I thought about confessing the day I heard that.

I thought that if I expressed it clearly, they would understand.

If you don’t notice, I think it’s okay to express it clearly enough that you don’t need to notice.

Like common romance novels, I thought about catching Lee Si-woo in front of me in the alley on the way home.

Yeah, I was just thinking about it.

I couldn’t take it for granted.

Because I’m afraid.

I was afraid that this relationship might end with just one word or one sentence.

She always made fun of her childhood friend for being a coward and a man, but the real coward was herself, no one else.

Well, only the eyes can see something.

It seemed to be true that only cowards could be seen in the eyes of cowards.

If it’s not him, it’s true that people get together.

Since these tendencies are similar, she thinks that she and Lee Si-woo have been best friends until now.

It was a reality I really didn’t like.

She herself who can’t confess her feelings, her childhood friend who sometimes leaves room for her even if she tries to harden her heart.

I didn’t like either.

That’s why I prepared so well today.

I suggested, as naturally as possible, that we sleep in the same room, which normally would not have been out of her mouth.

“Hey, you just…”

“What. Why? Any complaints?”

She started doing daring things in the world that she wouldn’t have even attempted.

Kissing was also very embarrassing for her.

She did it herself, but she didn’t know that she herself would be so bold.

Perhaps it was the expression of all the frustrations and desires that had accumulated so far.

She might have brought out all the desires she’d ever had after hearing the funny word, one-day couple.

However, I had no regrets.

As I said before, she was an adult, and her actions were enough for her to take responsibility.

There wouldn’t be much of a back and forth.

Anyway, after about 20 minutes, this couple will be over, and there was no way her childhood friend, who was as cowardly as she was, could do anything in that time.

It was simply a matter of ending her lust…

“Hey, Seo Han.”

“Why are you calling?”

“You know I’ve endured a lot up until now, right?”

“······· Huh?”

“Obviously you started first. I warned you when you said you would sleep here today.”

“····.”

Lee Si-woo’s eyes, which always showed her cowardly appearance, were shining in the form she had never seen before.

At that time, she thought.

Perhaps she had just cut off something that had barely held up until now.

The current time is 11:40.

It was only twenty minutes before the day’s daily couple was over.