chapter 14
14. She (3)
At first, I didn’t understand the situation. Like this, all of a sudden?
“Emily…!”
But as soon as I came to my senses, there was one person that came to my mind. Emily collapses and bleeds out. She rushed out of her room, not caring that her clothes were stained with blood.
“My lady?”
As soon as the door opened and he appeared dressed in bloody clothes, the surrounding vassals looked at him in amazement. On the other side of that gaze, there was also a fear of not knowing what kind of crazy thing he would do this time.
I bit her lips to calm her trembling body. Her catch-up is on. Emily comes first now. She grabbed the arm of the vassal who was waiting in front of the door. She felt sorry for her startled look, but she couldn’t help it.
“Emily is. How is Emily?”
When asked with a pale face and a trembling voice, the vassal who grabbed her arm answered as if muttering in a daze.
“I have been moved to the infirmary.”
“How is it?”
“I don’t know because I haven’t received any information. It’s just that she was in an emergency when she moved to the infirmary…”
Before she could hear it all, she started running to the infirmary in her bare feet. The vassals who were surprised to see my clothes around me and gasped for breath began to chase after me with the clothes on top. The door to the infirmary in front of me burst open before I had time to knock.
“Emily!”
I entered her infirmary looking for Emily anxiously, and there was Emily sleeping with a calm and close face and inspiration looking at me with her bewildered face.
“Inspiration. Is Emily okay?”
“Oh dear. What is this like? Are you hurt or not?”
“This is not my blood. So, is Emily all right?”
“Well, as you can see, everything is fine. She was worried because she lost a lot of blood, but she solved it with the reserve potion that the lady gave her the other day.”
“Ah.”
A reserve potion that Young master is told to carry just in case. It reminded me of the last time I gave it to someone in critical condition in the infirmary to use. Young master saved me again.
“I heard that you are very sensitive because you have been tired lately, but you seem fine.”
Her head hurt at those words. How did someone else come into my body, control it, and return to my body? No matter how you think about it, it’s full of doubts. Seeing me frowning, the old man took a step back and trembled.
“Oops, I guess this old man said something stupid. Emily is fine, so don’t worry, she can go in and rest. The blood dripping down her face makes no sense.”
“I will. Take good care of Emily.”
I took one look at Emily and went back to my room. Looking at the neatly arranged room reminded me of the hellish days when I was confined to my body and had to stare at terrible things. Perhaps the shock was so great that her room even looked foreign.
I opened the door and called a vassal nearby. Judging by the slight trembling of the body, it seemed that the vassal was still in shock.
“Gather all the vassals who have served me for the past two weeks.”
I, who had been rampaging like a madman until just now, seemed confused when I showed my usual calm self. However, the noble’s order was absolute for his retainers, so he left to gather everyone.
I made a plausible hypothesis by cutting out and pasting the excuses that kept popping up. It may be difficult for everyone to believe it because it is a hasty hypothesis, but right now it is more important to make people who believe in my words than even one person.
-Smart
A knock sound was heard and permission was given, and ten servants and retainers rushed in. There weren’t that many of them, befitting the children he gave up. Well, where are these people helping me?
“I know I’ve been making it hard for you guys lately after I fell and got up. I did weird things, had a temper, and did things that weren’t like me.”
My vassals stiffened at my words, which sounded like a confession of conscience. Maybe it’s because of the anxiety that if I do this and then turn weird again, I might find fault with it and make a fuss.
“Inspired words say that high fever can cause temporary memory impairment and personality changes. To put it simply, sometimes you can turn into a completely different person.”
I made an excuse using the excuse of rushing to find inspiration. It’s a crude and ridiculous excuse no matter who hears it. Please though. I want at least one person to believe my words.
“It was a high fever disease whose cause could not be identified even at the temple. It is not strange if any side effects occur.”
Among the vassals who follow and help me, an old butler who has been working silently, similar to Emily, opened her mouth. I let out a sigh of relief at his positive response.
“That’s why you’ve been acting strangely lately. Do you have any memories of that time?”
In exchange for being the first to speak, he came forward and spoke on behalf of everyone. It is a reasonable doubt. He spit out the troubles that everyone thought about without hesitation. Old butler, you are also seasoned.
You’re accurately figuring out my intentions.
“I remember vaguely, but I don’t remember exactly. It feels like someone is controlling my body.”
“I see. Then, are you the original girl now?”
At those words, everyone turned their eyes on fire and looked at me. Exactly the words that will come out of my lips. There were so many different things she did that she didn’t want to see again.
“I am right now.”
A small sigh of relief could be heard from here and there. After awakening to magic, I had a physically sensitive part, so I could hear such a small sigh.
“Okay. Is this all the reason you called me?”
Everyone looked at the old butler with concern at the question, which could have been disrespectful and rude at first glance. The old butler looked at me with half-closed eyes due to the weight of the years. Despite his age, his brilliance did not seem to go anywhere. He looked into his bright eyes and nodded his head.
“Right. That’s it. I don’t know when the seizure will come again, but please take care of me then. Please.”
There was a moment of commotion due to the act of bowing one’s head, which is a section in which a nobleman can make as many concessions as possible. When the hum grew louder for a few seconds, the old butler cleared his throat dryly. Then the room, which had been noisy like a lie, became quiet.
“Then we will leave. Call me if you need anything.”
Every time Emily was away, the old butler who filled the vacancy bit everyone. Finally, he bent down to say hello, then carefully closed the door and disappeared.
“Whoa.”
Only then did she let out the breath that had been holding her lungs tight. No one told me not to breathe, but I guess I was holding my breath because of the tension.
I bit her all over and hastily patched it up as a rag-like excuse for what she did, so she should be able to hold on for the time being. The problem now is Gongja. I hope that Young master will receive my letter and not misunderstand.
I sat down at my desk, took out stationery, picked up a pen, and began to write carefully. It’s a situation where you don’t know when and how you might lose your body again. I wanted to visit him in person, but it might be better to explain my situation in a letter first.
Because Young master is wise.
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[It’s been a while since I’ve written a letter to say hello.
Young master. I am currently being threatened by someone. It’s a strange threat that if I don’t do what I’m told, I’ll kill everyone I love. As the daughter of a count, such a threat was a threat that I could have ignored normally.
But last time, after I was seriously ill, and after I unintentionally caused trouble to many people by going back and forth in my mind. When I came to my senses, I realized that I had become the evil woman in the rumors. I can’t sleep because I think it’s the work of the person who threatened me.
Fortunately, this letter will be handed over to the old butler whom I trust and urge to deliver, so there is no possibility that he will notice.
Young master. No matter what I do or say, it is not my intention. If you believe in me, I would like to ask you to keep quiet about the contents of this letter until the case is resolved.
I’m sorry to ask you a difficult and difficult request. I’m writing this letter barely avoiding his watchful eye, so please understand even if it’s chaotic.
When I was sick and tired, my head was filled with Young master. I endured all the pain thinking of Young master, and I thought of words to deliver when this pain is over.
I don’t think I’ve been able to deliver properly because I’ve always listened and received, so I’m telling you at least through a letter.
I love you. Young master. Thank you for being everything in my life.
I hope we can meet after all of this is over.]
-Smart
“My lady, a guest has arrived.”
“Guest? What kind of rude person at this hour…”
Before I could answer, the door burst open. Standing there was the person I had always pictured in my dreams. He’s the one who took all my feelings. Young master, who became the reason for my happiness, was standing in front of me. The sight felt like a dream, so I blinked and rubbed my eyes.
“Tina.”
Just one word. In a word, I realized that this was not a dream, but a reality. I just called his name, but my body heated up and my heart raced. Her lips softened as she tried to smile as her eyes softened.
“Young master.”
Young master, who was standing there, seemed to have been waiting for my answer, and as soon as he heard it, he hugged me tightly. There was the sound of the door closing softly, leaving only him and me in this space.
“I missed you.”
“I, too, wanted to see you.”
How he came. How he understands the whole situation. It didn’t make any sense in this situation. I just wanted to spend time with this Young master who stirs up my feelings.
I just wanted to.