Why Ignorant Harems Are Dangerous

19 – #05. Saint Cecilia (2)

Mea continued to frown as she returned to the city.

After waiting for her for more than five years, the patience of the empress gradually reached its limit. She did, of course, she did, but she didn’t intend to have Seo meet with a psychopath, but she couldn’t go on like this forever.

“Haa… ….”

She sighed in frustration.

In her honest words, she was able to find Seo only half a year ago.

From then on, she observed him and planted her own person in the city, but even then, she spent a considerable amount of time preparing to escape the Empress’s watch.

But she had to make a choice if the empress began to doubt herself.

She knew that continuing to hide Seo would put pressure on her as well, but she had no intention of handing him over to the warmonger.

Let’s meet him first.

Around the time she entered the city with that thought, one of her servants recognized the carriage and ran to her. She immediately knocked on the door of the carriage.

“This is an emergency.”

“What is it?”

“Both of the monitoring targets are missing.”

Missing?

The running carriage stopped for a moment and Mea frowned.

She was called to the imperial palace shortly after Neira’s affair broke out, but when she returned, she was waiting for a much more troublesome task than that.

She wondered if she blamed herself for Neira’s death.

She felt that it was a hindrance to herself or else she would have run away again.

She thought about that, but she struggled to calm herself down and continued her words.

“What about access records?”

“Not at all.”

This small place was also a city in its own right, and although it was small, there was a wall connecting the outskirts, and there was a department around it that monitored the entrance and managed access.

It is also the place where she entered and took over more quickly than anything else.

If there is no information in that, it means that he took advantage of the security gap late at night, or if not, it also meant that he purposely hid himself among the crowd and ran away.

“…… First of all, investigate all unusual matters around you. Make sure not to leave out a single list on the entry and exit ledger, and conduct a background check on all who have entered the area before and after Seo disappeared.”

“Yes, I understand.”

She closed the carriage door as soon as the minion finished speaking.

Her hair was too messy.

The question of why kept running through her head, and she thought about whether she had left because she felt burdened and worried about whether she would try to take her own life. Encroached on her head

“Calm down. No, that won’t be it.”

Mea, reading to herself, shook her head.

Above all, Seo took her blind girl as her family. If she had tried to commit suicide, she would have left alone, and she would not have abandoned her entire home just because she felt uncomfortable.

I know, but I can’t help but feel uneasy.

She actually suffered from anxiety ever since he left.

She is conflicted with the thought that even a single word of her own might hurt him, and her anxiety is unknown unless she feels it. She

Confessing that she was guilty, she was taken aback by his words and regretted not even having a proper conversation.

“Coldly, calmly… ….”

As Mea repeated herself, she remembered what had happened.

The death of Neira.

It must have been a heavy burden on him, and it left a scar that added salt to the wounds that had been there, and maybe even bigger than that.

However, Neira affirmed him until the end.

It’s okay.

He said he was fine with that.

On the other hand, Mea postponed being released from fascination as much as she could, and she remained unsuspected until the end.

Then why was he forced to leave with a disabled child, giving up everything he had accomplished here?

Something went wrong.

She exhaled her breath as evenly as possible and closed her eyes.

* * *

“Now, ah~ try it.”

My stomach hurt before a lavish dinner.

Right next to me, Cecilia was holding something with a smile on her face, and I wanted to get out of this situation as soon as possible.

“Seo Seo.”

“Cecilia. Do not be like this. I said I did not agree with that opinion.”

“Eight!”

The words were cut off, and a piece of soft bread was in my mouth.

“Are you going to stay so uncomfortable before dinner?”

The mask that covered her face was also taken away.

Fortunately, there were no women around here, but the problem was the existence of a paladin watching from afar even while we were eating.

In this world, knights were combat weapons capable of displaying superhuman strength and dealing with more than 10 ordinary soldiers at the same time, but it was often said that paladins were unique among them.

The enemies that Seongguk faces are monsters and demons.

Therefore, it was not easy to deal with them as a normal human, and it is the paladin who is trained exclusively to deal with them.

Paladins that would not be easy for a normal human to deal with were scattered everywhere.

The number you can see right away is twenty.

Because of this, it was difficult to escape through forced breakthrough.

“How are you? It is delicious?”

“…… It tastes good.”

“Isn’t it? I baked it myself. Isn’t that the only thing? With this… Oh, this too. I am also a very family woman.”

Cecilia smiled endlessly, but her seat felt as uncomfortable as a thorny cushion.

Does she intend to use my power?

Then that’s what she had in her original thoughts? Or should she see it as a love that has changed due to my ability.

Neither of them was a good idea.

“…… Where is Lenny?”

“Of course I have it with me.”

“Let me meet you.”

Cecilia did not respond to that.

Three days after I arrived here, I had never seen Lenny’s face before.

They say they are safe, but it is not clear whether that is the truth.

“I told you. I do not agree with your idea.”

“The day will surely come when you will understand.”

“A day like that never comes.”

War with the ability to manipulate emotions?

In short, isn’t it to make a woman fall for a high-ranking person in a foreign country? Besides, even if that wasn’t the case, Cecilia was already steadily preparing for war.

“I want to see a world united around Seo.”

“If someone like me becomes the center, nothing will change.”

I kept talking like this, but the end was always catastrophic.

First of all, the conversation didn’t work.

“It’s okay! I definitely believe it is God’s will.”

Look, it always ends like this.

There was a part where she couldn’t understand her words in the past, but now that she has been imprisoned by her, there is no one more single-minded person than this.

“…… Then one last thing.”

“Yes?”

There is something I have been curious about.

At first, I was just busy panicking and shocked by her thoughts. Then, as she pondered, she wondered how she had found me.

“Did that pilgrim originally have no eyes?”

Isn’t it too exquisite to be a coincidence?

A pilgrim who can see the inside of a person who has lost his eyes arrives at a city on the periphery with some probability, and also the probability of meeting a human named me there.

A s*xual intercourse person with the ability to understand my true nature, who wears a face covering, arrives there and sacrifices his life to transfer me to the holy kingdom?

Do those odds really make sense?

“You didn’t have it in the first place.”

“That’s an important question, then.”

Depending on the answer to this question, my behavior will also change.

“Did he, by any chance, get rid of his eyes to find me?”

“The rice will get cold.”

…… That alone was a sufficient answer.

I never dreamed that in order to really find myself, I would have removed a person’s eyes and made them able to distinguish their souls.

No, I didn’t know that maybe because I was capable of such firm yet cruel tricks, I was able to bring up nonsense as if it were natural.

“That means I have no intention of covering the means for the sake of the end.”

“Seo Seo. He knew everything, and yet he understood and took the part. It is difficult to say anything about that noble martyrdom.”

Is that martyrdom?

For me, it was probably the kind of person I would never understand.

“I have lost my appetite.”

“Then be friendly with me for the first time in a while… ….”

“Sorry. Could you please not come for a while?”

I spoke with sincerity.

I’m the go-getter. She’s a victim

I knew, but even considering that, I don’t know what to say to her now. If Cecilia became strange because of her ability to charm, then all of that behavior was also my fault.

So.

“Leave me alone.”

“…… I am sure you will understand someday.”

Perhaps the day I can understand that will never come.

What is something that must be accomplished even at the expense of someone? You want to unite the world? So you’re going to bring peace by eliminating strife and division?

Words are good, but what about the blood that accompanies the result?

Who will clean it up?

“Let’s talk next time, really next time.”

“…… Yes. Then I will excuse you first.”

Where did it go wrong?

Nothing to say.

Probably from the time I fell into this world and acquired the ability called fascination.

If it wasn’t for my ability, would she have made the ridiculous choice of war?

Cecilia referred to this fascination as the ability to occupy half of humanity, but it was an absurd leap.

I watched for a moment as he cautiously retreated.

A saint.

The head of this church, chosen and respected by God.

What is she thinking?

She loves me but she doesn’t listen to my opinion. She knew there were many forms of love, but what kind of love was this?

Emotions are difficult.

And communicating with others is even more so.

I was a human being because we couldn’t understand each other, and in that sense, I wondered if Saint Cecilia and I were polar opposites.

She is the one who gives me the world.

Me who refuses because I don’t need it.

Aren’t they really opposite people no matter who sees them?

It’s so drastically different that it only makes me laugh.