Yes, It’s Me. The Obsessive Side Top

#031

When I opened my eyes, there was Sun Woo’s intensely mature face, filtered through Ha Jin’s lustful demon lens. Looking at his mesmerizing face, I couldn’t even say my words had slipped out by mistake.

Would Sun Woo properly understand what I meant? As I watched him anxiously, worried he might find me disgusting again, Sun Woo got up from the bed.

“I’ll go wash up.”

Sun Woo said this and walked to my bathroom with familiar steps.

His movements were uninhibited, as if this wasn’t his first time in my room.

I lay on my side, just blinking my eyes toward where Sun Woo had disappeared. My mind was hazy but my eyes wouldn’t close. I just wished I could fall asleep before Sun Woo came out. My mouth kept getting dry, and my toes kept curling from tension.

“Wait. Did Sun Woo take clothes to change into? Should I bring a pillow and blanket from the guest room…?”

After pondering for a while, I finally weakly got up to head to the guest room, when the bathroom door opened and Sun Woo appeared with steamy vapor. He had only a towel around his waist and hadn’t even dried his dripping hair.

Sun Woo’s body in real life was incredible.

His chest was thick and his shoulders quite broad, matching well with his tall height. The water droplets running down his well-defined abs caught my gaze, making it impossible to look away.

“Where are you going?”

“Ah, to get a pillow and blanket.”

“What for? Seems like enough here.”

My bed is wide so the bedding is sized accordingly… Wait, is he suggesting we share one blanket?

“Clothes?”

Would he be naked if he removed the towel? The curiosity made me ask without thinking. Sun Woo smiled amusedly at my foolish question.

“I don’t wear clothes when I sleep.”

‘Ah… Huh? W-what?’

Is it because it’s rated 19+? Come to think of it, I don’t remember seeing Sun Woo wearing clothes while sleeping in the webtoon.

The image of his naked form becomes clearer in my mind.

Why do I have memories of Sun Woo’s naked body when I’ve never seen it! Damn 19+ webtoon! Why are you so detailed with unnecessary descriptions. It was quite big… Ahhh! Disappear! I said disappear!

When I shook my head trying to rid it of floating images of naked Sun Woo, he laughed softly.

“I’m joking. Lend me some clothes.”

Ah… so it was a joke.

“I’ll go get some.”

“Stay in bed. I’ll find something to wear.”

Sun Woo soon left the room. I briefly considered following him to get blankets in a non-awkward way. As I crossed the living room heading to the guest room, Sun Woo, already dressed, called out to stop me.

“Where are you going?”

“To get a blanket and pillow.”

“Come here, Ha Jin.”

Though it was a command, his gentle tone made it not feel intimidating at all. Is Sun Woo’s gentleness exceeding lethal doses today?

Like an obedient child, I turned back toward the room at Sun Woo’s call. When I headed to the room, Sun Woo followed silently. As he came in and closed the door behind him, my face strangely felt hot.

‘No. No way. It’s not like that, Ha Jin. Get rid of that dirty filter.’

Trying to calm my unnecessarily excited heart, I looked at Sun Woo with a very awkward smile.

“Lie down. You look really sleepy.”

Right. Sun Woo’s just doing this because I look tired. I was the one who suggested sleeping together. He’s just being kind, I told myself repeatedly as if making a pledge. Then I quietly lifted the blanket. After getting in with a proper posture and lying down awkwardly, Sun Woo climbed onto the bed. He lay beside me, propped on his elbow with his hand near my ear, watching me from the side.

Though he must have used the same products in the bathroom as me, somehow the scent coming from Sun Woo felt unfamiliar. So much so that I questioned if it was really what I usually used.

Looking at him still damp, I thought again how truly incredible his face was. Well, his body… was good too.

Come to think of it, those moist eyes that used to drive Ha Jin crazy were now gone. They were definitely always wet-looking in the early days after the possession. Not that his face became any less sensual, but his gaze had clearly become sharper and cooler.

As I was admiring his face, his wet hair bothered me.

“Are you sure you don’t need to dry your hair?”

“It’s fine. It’ll dry quickly.”

Yet he worried about me catching a cold when my hair was wet.

“What about a pillow?”

While I was thinking he should use something as a pillow… Sun Woo asked me to lift my head for a moment. When I did, he smoothly took away the pillow behind my head and extended his arm under my head.

“Tell me if it’s uncomfortable.”

It’s very uncomfortable, actually?

So this is an arm pillow, right? Sun Woo is giving Ha Jin an arm pillow? Unless Ha Jin cut off Sun Woo’s arm to use as his own pillow, how is Sun Woo voluntarily offering his arm as a pillow?

I strained my neck, trying my best not to touch his arm.

Noticing my stiffness, Sun Woo wrapped his other arm around me, embracing me. Due to the completely close position, his breath repeatedly touched my ear hotly before disappearing. I shrank my shoulders at that tingling sensation.

“Uncomfortable?”

“…No.”

Though it was uncomfortable, I didn’t want to say so because I feared Sun Woo would move away.

Being in physical contact with someone is really nice after all.

The warm body temperature and rhythmic breathing sounds were so pleasant that my tense body naturally relaxed. Finally, I closed my eyes while fully leaning on Sun Woo’s arm.

“You seem to have nightmares when you sleep.”

“Me?”

At my drowsy response, Sun Woo patted around my chest area. Maybe because I hadn’t received such warm gestures from anyone since childhood, the bridge of my nose kept stinging and my eyes grew hot.

“When we slept together before. I came to your room to tell you about going to work, and you were groaning in your sleep. I wondered if you were having a nightmare.”

Ah, that must have been when Sun Woo appeared like a grim reaper in my dream. I must have mistaken him for sleep paralysis in my drowsy state. Then was that gentle touch covering my eyes also from Sun Woo?

Feeling sleep overtaking me, I answered “No” in a fading voice.

Just as the patting was making me unsure whether this was reality or dream, I felt the mattress dip beside me and something damp touched my forehead. The cool sensation made my eyes flutter before opening slightly. What touched my forehead was none other than Sun Woo’s wet hair. His face was close enough for his hair to touch me.

In the room without any lights,

Only moonlight filtered in through the window. Sun Woo, backlit and leaning over me, looked exactly like a mystical creature come to enchant someone. His face drew closer, and soon his lips lightly touched my eyes before pulling away.

“Why are you crying?”

There was a slight moisture on his lips.

I must have been crying without realizing it.

When Sun Woo asked why I was crying, I tried to think of the reason but couldn’t come up with anything. Well, I’m not sure myself. Why am I crying? I’m not usually someone who cries easily.

When I didn’t respond, Sun Woo gently stroked my eyes. His very slow, gentle touch felt especially tender. This made tears well up again and soon roll down the sides of my face.

“…”

Whatever he was thinking, Sun Woo quietly watched me cry. I was grateful he didn’t say anything, since I couldn’t properly explain why I was crying now.

I’m not someone with unstable emotions.

Nor am I someone who cries easily.

Just…

I must have been starved for human touch.

After my parents passed away, I was sent to relatives who volunteered to be my guardians, but one day I found out there wasn’t a penny left of my inheritance. They said they spent it all raising me, but how much could it cost to raise one child for 5 years? They didn’t even send me to a single academy.

I felt neither anger nor frustration, just emptiness. I’d never felt any human warmth from them anyway. I didn’t even feel betrayed since they’d only provided basic necessities. Fortunately, with help from my father’s hometown friend who kept in touch out of concern, I managed to save some money and become independent. I was only in middle school then.

At that young age, I built thick walls around myself to prevent anyone from taking what little inheritance I had left. I distrusted people’s kindness and refused to rely on anyone. Even though I was exempt, I volunteered for active military service, worried about potential social complications.

It was truly awful not being able to open my heart to those who approached with kindness.

I’d always been alone, so much so that I couldn’t even tell it was strange how Ha Jin’s family was falling apart.

Someone who was always alone suddenly receiving warm gestures from a trustworthy person – it just felt so good.

Sun Woo is the undoubtedly trustworthy protagonist, after all.

Though it was through a webtoon, I know everything about Sun Woo. Of course, the Sun Woo I know is different from now – sad and dispirited – but I know his inner self, right? Thanks to that, I think I’ve opened my heart to another person for the first time.

So this is what human comfort feels like.

But I can’t just happily accept it.

As Ha Jin who’s done terrible things to Sun Woo. I wonder if it’s okay for me to receive such tenderness from him.

I swallowed the unspoken words and smiled with closed eyes.

Oh dear, I must be suffering from lack of affection.

“Haa.”

Sun Woo’s sigh broke me from my thoughts. He whispered softly in my ear with a low voice.

“You know you drive people crazy?”

His warm hand that had been patting my chest moved to stroke my face.

“Ha Jin requires a lot of attention.”

Sun Woo said this with a slight smile, then immediately covered my lips with his. The careful kiss was full of tenderness and comfort. His lips, which gently held mine before pulling away, tasted of salt from my tears.

His kiss, as he pressed his lips to mine again, was gentler than ever before. His warm tongue, which felt like it could melt, soon began to explore my mouth. Sun Woo held me tightly to keep me from being pulled into the swamp of sleep.

My mind was hazy but the sensations were utterly blissful. If I hadn’t been drowsy, I would have surely clung to Sun Woo eagerly, exploring him completely while gasping for breath. Even in my sleepy state, I instinctively accepted and entwined with his tongue.

But even that couldn’t continue due to my drowsiness.

Finally, seeing me completely limp, Sun Woo gave me a few short, regretful kisses before pulling away.

I pushed my lips out in a pout toward him as he tried to move away.

This earned me another lingering kiss before he pulled back. I heard him chuckle softly by my ear.

“Stop tempting me and go to sleep.”

Even with my eyes closed, I could feel Sun Woo’s breath lingering above my face for a while. I drifted into deep sleep while feeling his gaze on me, as he hadn’t even laid down yet.

It feels nice. Someone’s warm presence. So nice I wouldn’t want to wake up if this were a dream.

[The Lives of the Golden Spoons]

-Ha Jin’s Forbidden List 9. No peaceful sleep

└ Come on, at least let the kid sleep.

└└ Sleep is allowed. Peaceful sleep isn’t.

└ Ah, I think I get it! They should be sensitive and wake up at small sounds. That’s what makes a tyrant.lol

└ So this is why they have dark circles under their eyes?

└ Ha Jin sleeping peacefully with a calm face is illegal. They should sleep with furrowed brows, right?

└ Peaceful sleep only allowed when using Su as a body pillow.

└└ lol No wonder all the tyrants are obsessed with Su

└└ We only acknowledge things when Su does them or is present

└ Ha Jin. It’s grandma. Be strong. That’s all I can say.

└ They’re taking away one of the three basic needs?

└└ Guarantee Ha Jin’s basic rights!

└└ Ah, no. That’s too pitiful.