Became an Academy Spearman

816. [Western Front] – Leria’s self-reproach & Sabrina’s change (92)

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“ah… … .”

As Neril was about to return to the infirmary, he suddenly saw Leria entering the infirmary.

Tuk.

So I just turned around.

‘I don’t know what it was, but he looked very serious.’

It looks like he has something to say to Han Cheon-seong.

Even if he went back to the infirmary now, it would probably be a thorn in his side anyway. Wouldn’t it be easier to just leave the room a little longer and go back to the infirmary?

Thinking like that, Neril rationalized his actions.

Above all, she felt very uncomfortable being in the same space as a high-ranking noble like Isabelle, the Golden Knight.

… … .

In the infirmary where Leria entered, the three people naturally faced each other.

Two people stand face to face with nature standing on a hospital bed in the infirmary.

“… … .”

“… … .”

The car was overlapping each other’s gaze. Leria suddenly touched her lips.

“Sorry.”

“… yes?”

“I think I made a huge mistake in how I handled today’s mission. So I felt that I had brought on a very big crisis, and I thought that this had to be addressed properly. “I think I should apologize properly again.”

When the apology was given in an extremely serious voice, Cheonseong, who was actually looking at Leria, blinked blankly.

“no. Okay, it’s okay. “I don’t think so at all.”

“From now on, unsavory events like today… … There won’t be any work. “I promise.”

Nevertheless, Leria repeatedly apologized.

Even as she continued speaking while looking directly into Cheonseong’s eyes, Cheonseong couldn’t even avoid her gaze.

Therefore, the sincerity with which Leria was speaking just touched his heart right away.

“I’m fine, so you don’t have to apologize any further. “I absolutely do not believe that today’s mission was Lieutenant Leria’s mistake.”

So, I gathered my surprise and gave her a sincere answer.

There was no need to think about it and it wasn’t anyone’s fault. There are no victims, and even if you are injured, the wound is over once you receive treatment.

“… … .”

Isabelle just watched the gazes of the two people intersect. She suddenly caught Leria in her eyes.

‘I wondered if he was the type to strongly assert his authority.’

That wasn’t it.

Even after returning from the mission, she tried to admit her shortcomings. She said yes, but she never thought she would go this far and directly apologize to him.

-The platoon leader gives an apple to a platoon member.

It was also quite difficult to offer a sincere apology.

This was only possible if superiors treated subordinates as equal or better than themselves. Especially considering the discipline of the military at the front, the scene that unfolded was even more alien.

A sight that is difficult to see in other units.

But that’s what’s unfolding before my eyes right now.

“… … Actually, I wanted to give you a proper apology first. Your performance was outstanding in today’s special apostle execution mission. “I felt like I couldn’t help you more properly.”

“no! I think the fact that I was able to inflict fatal wounds on Fenrir was possible because of Lieutenant Leria’s openness and skill presence. “That alone has already helped us enough.”

“really… “Do you think so?”

“yes. “I’m serious.”

As Cheonseong smiled softly at the end, Leria slowly smiled at Han Cheonsung. She was feeling a bit complicated inside.

‘If it’s someone else, I don’t know, but if it’s Sir Isabelle and Han Cheon-seong… … .’

I didn’t think I had anything to say even if I blamed myself for my actions during today’s bloody battle with Fenrir. If he has anything to say, he just offers a sincere apology.

That’s why I tried to visit and face him properly until he became conscious.

And as I half expected, I saw that Han Tiansheng was trying to get over it without any problem, so I felt strange for no reason.

‘Just as I expected.’

I thought Han Cheon-seong, who had been watching him for so long, would answer like this.

“The acceleration the moment Fenrir was seen. And since no one could have predicted that he tried to die with me, I actually think it is abnormal for me to blame Lieutenant Leria for that.”

It was a fairly calm voice.

And because it was so calm, it reminded me of another, even more strange moment.

Han Cheon-seong, who visited him in the past and said he wanted to help other units. He showed abnormal hatred for the apostle and even revealed secrets about his body.

“… … .”

It seemed to overlap with Han Tiansheng’s soft appearance now.

‘What on earth is the truth?’

Anyone can see that he behaves perfectly and is upright.

It seems as if he is trying to overwhelm the apostle with endless hatred.

That bothered me for no reason, so I slowly nodded. With this, I have said everything I wanted to say.

“… … Thanks for saying that. Just take a break. “I just wanted to apologize.”

“Lieutenant Leria worked hard today too. “I hope you rest in peace.”

“Uh, okay. Me and Sir Isabelle. A17 The inner room has been left empty, so you can use it.”

I slowly got up and looked at Sir Isabelle.

“yes. All right.”

With her concise answer, she left the infirmary.

Crash.

As I closed the door and came out, my eyes were blank.

“Is this right?”

Now I don’t even know what’s right and what’s wrong.

Perhaps the aftereffects of the sudden manifestation of power while dealing with the special apostle today were greater than expected, and combined with the fatigue accumulated recently, my body was extremely exhausted.

Again.

As I walked towards the inner room in a daze, my eyes felt stinging.

Strangely enough, Han Tiansheng’s eyes, which he had seen a moment ago, twinkled. Now he has been at the front for a month, and in just one month he has been on missions that would take almost three months for an ordinary officer.

It was normal to be more tired and have more difficulties.

There’s no way it would be okay since he wasn’t even excluded from the mission.

however.

What on earth were those innocent eyes looking at me just a moment ago?

“why… … “You don’t blame me.”

After cutting off Fenrir’s front paws, I kicked the ground to deliver an even bigger final blow. So Hancheonseong, which I was guarding, was completely exposed to threats.

I knew it would be like that. It was thought that Fenrir, whose front paw had been cut off, might attack Han Tian-seong for the first time in his life.

I thought that an extremely cornered apostle might target the most vulnerable Han Tiansheng, so I intentionally let that happen in an attempt to end things more clearly.

Because I didn’t jump that far to Han Tiansheng, I had the confidence to protect Han Tiansheng and finish off Fenrir.

Above all, it was thought that Fenrir, who had one of his feet cut off, could not move as fast as before.

Again.

Even as I walked, my head pounded.

“ha… .”

The worst situation that I had remembered dozens of times today flashed in my eyes again.

But at that moment.

Fenrir spun his body as if striking the ground with his remaining front foot and suddenly shot out like a ray of light, aiming at Han Tiansheng.

Death crisis.

Both he and Han Cheon-seong, who had to face it, couldn’t help but feel that way.

I made a serious mistake in stopping the apostle who had developed speed that was beyond common sense. So it’s late… .

That is why he repeatedly visited Han Cheon-seong and apologized to him.

Chances are there won’t be one in a hundred. I was able to rule out the result that Fenrir was moving faster than before, which I considered to be an extremely rare possibility.

I could protect Han Tian Castle and finish Fenrir even if it took more time, but I didn’t do that.

It was an obvious mistake and mistake.

If a really big accident happened, it would be such a big mistake that I wouldn’t be able to forgive myself… … .

Crash.

As I entered the inner room, I sat down as if I was falling apart. Nevertheless, I felt like my heart had finally been relieved.

“ha… … .”

I let out a deeper sigh and blankly held my face.

Everything worked out well in the end.

Because I was able to properly apologize to Han Cheon-seong.

Now I was able to let go of everything.

Maybe that’s why Han Cheonseong continues to glimmer in my eyes even now.

“… … “Is he good, foolish, or something else?”

I couldn’t figure it out.

He almost died, and I already know that’s because I didn’t protect him properly, but the way he looks at me doesn’t even have the slightest emotion.

Even if you blame me or show your disappointment in me, I have nothing to say.

“That’s why I don’t understand anymore.”

A smile escaped my empty heart.

Really, I just can’t understand him. Because there was Lord Isabelle in her pure eyes, she wasn’t even sure that she would survive. At that moment, Han Tiansheng seemed to have forgotten the existence of Sir Isabelle.

Grumbling.

I roughly brushed my hair and made up my mind.

‘From now on.’

This should never happen.

I knew that it was not only Han Tiansheng, but also other platoon members, that I had to think more seriously about my choice.

“… … “I just need to be nicer to Han Tiansheng.”

I thought I owed you today.

I know I shouldn’t think like that about anything other than helping someone. I felt like it would be too embarrassing to see Han Tiansheng if I didn’t think like that.

If you were angry at me, I would have accepted it in peace.

This strangely nice guy didn’t seem like he would be that angry at anyone.

“rather… .”

Wouldn’t he be angry at himself?

Because he is a foolishly kind guy who tries to find the source of the problem in himself, not in others.

***

Day 29 of the front line.

The time was just past midnight.

I was blinking in the infirmary.

“…….”

Before we knew it, Sir Isabelle had left for her inner room. Since she was in her barracks and there were no more threats, she was getting her minimum rest.

And maybe I slept too long before I came to consciousness, but when I woke up I couldn’t sleep. Actually, I’m tired, and I still don’t have any feeling in my right arm.

‘I can’t sleep.’

Even if I forced myself to sleep in this situation, it would only have a negative effect on my condition.

Sreuk.

When I carefully turned my head, Lieutenant Neril was standing at the window, looking out the window in silence.

He seemed a little tired, but I felt like I shouldn’t talk to him for no reason. So I turned my head to the other side again.

Then, it was visible.

“… … .”

Ensign Sabrina, who was next to me as if she was sound asleep. And as I looked at her, I felt strangely relieved.

‘I got through the day safely.’

-Special apostle mission.

There were no casualties except me in this dangerous mission that set off an extremely loud alarm bell in my heart. That alone made me want nothing else.

Above all, none of the other platoon members were hurt. I laughed a little at that, but I felt like a fool for even thinking this way.

‘Good kid syndrome… … ‘Have I contracted some kind of disease without even knowing it?’

I felt this sometimes, but I couldn’t understand myself either.

Was I originally this kind of person?

I don’t think so… … .

But when I actually looked at my actions and thoughts, many of them were absurd. He wants something too idealistic and has no hesitation about sacrificing himself.

I feel like I am no longer myself.

I really feel like I’ve changed a lot… … .

I carefully stretched out my hand and held Ensign Sabrina’s hand. She had no doubt that she would soon come to her senses.

Sreuk.

And I admitted my feelings.

‘It’s not that bad.’

I know that I have changed, but I don’t dislike these changes. Rather, I was proud of myself.

It was that moment.

Sreuk!

The moment I felt a strange power in Lieutenant Sabrina’s hand as I held it.

“… Yes, Lieutenant Neril!?”

I urgently called her.