Became an Academy Spearman

870. [Western Front] – Line (146)

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“… First, can you hear Major Anastasia’s heart?”

“I asked a question, but you’re going to ask me for the answer?”

Even as she spoke, Anastasia felt like her heart sank for a moment.

Over the past few days, she has been filled with many thoughts due to her conversation with Shiffrin. She thought more deeply about things she wouldn’t normally be conscious of, or she was careful with her words and actions and tried not to be caught with even the slightest flaw.

And now that Shiffrin has left.

She thought she should ‘check’ again.

Are there any shortcomings in the relationship between yourself and Han Tiansheng?

Or maybe we’re both slightly mistaken.

“… … .”

Looking at Han Tiansheng who suddenly lost his words, I also had nothing to say.

It was strange.

Originally, we didn’t have a relationship like this.

Me and Han Cheon-seong started a relationship knowing each other.

And as if confirming the rumor that had spread throughout the empire, they had several meetings to further solidify the truth of the rumor. It was a meeting time for that purpose.

With that… There was also a personal desire to refine Han Tiansheng’s mind a little more.

‘Because it’s important… … .’

Han Cheon-seong is as important to this empire as me, and I was even more concerned about him being the companion of my one and only sister, Glesia.

however.

How long has it been like that for so long that it feels so strange?

“If you find it difficult to answer, I will speak first.”

“… … yes.”

“For the public to know, we need to be lovers. And that will probably take a little longer. As if Shiffrin was trying to help us even after confirming the authenticity of our relationship. “Because we have to show the same attitude.”

“I know it well.”

Answer well.

However, the way he is looking at me right now is so strange.

Strange eyes that seem to want to know my heart… … .

“ha.”

So, before I stopped talking, a sigh escaped me.

I didn’t know maybe I was too shy. He thought it was a necessary relationship, and he may have shown more intimacy without distance to relieve the burden Han Cheon-seong felt.

So I guess it’s a misunderstanding.

… … When I think about it, I didn’t even realize I had missed the chance.

“Lieutenant Han Tiansheng.”

“yes. “I’m listening.”

“Lieutenant Han Tiansheng.”

“… … yes. Major Anastasia.”

He appears to stop and answer repeated calls.

And I felt like he understood why I called him twice.

each other’s positions.

And it is to be aware of your current position.

“It would be funny for me to take the blame for my personal feelings and say something to you now. “Even though I am a superior, from an objective standpoint, I should have done a better job building relationships, but I failed to coordinate that.”

“No, I don’t think so at all.”

The sight of him immediately shaking his head was transparent.

“That’s because I think so. “I should have adjusted my distance better.”

Even as I firmly interrupted the conversation, I became aware again that there was something strange about my attitude.

“… … Is that so? I think we have built a very good relationship with each other so far. “I feel more at ease thanks to the kindness shown to me, and personally, I think I have received great help from Major Anastasia in the development of this trait.”

The way he carefully expresses his opinion immediately afterward is simply an attempt to reflect his true feelings.

“Growth is entirely your responsibility, you don’t need to thank me.”

He answered a little coldly, but his eyes were slightly frowned.

‘I think I understand.’

Why did I get a strange feeling when dealing with Han Tiansheng?

That attitude was the problem right now.

Han Cheon-seong’s neat and transparent attitude. To me, it always felt sincere.

There is no hint of lies or pretense, or even a hint or attitude of flattering me. That’s why he didn’t even try to ingratiate himself with me.

Other officers tried to do this to me whenever they had the chance, but Han Cheon-seong was different. Because he does not act hastily or show rudeness, as if he is imprinting his position on everything.

“… … .”

Even though I see him nodding his head silently, it is strange that he hastily spits out harsh words or even shakes them off.

-Inheritance of Eustea’s characteristics.

-Transmission of memories.

That’s why I couldn’t show a cold attitude, knowing that I had to say something that would shock Han Cheon-seong and not leave even the slightest gap in his heart.

Han Tiansheng is the most trustworthy person right now. And I know that the person you can rely on is me.

“I think we are in a very strange position. In some ways, I don’t think it’s such an unnatural situation to feel that way. Even though it’s a necessary situation, we spend time together like this and talk about many things. Because we also share a special secret… … .”

I tried to lighten the mood a little by saying a few things.

“I also think that Major Anastasia and I are in a very strange situation. So, I fully understand why you called me now.”

“Now that you say it like that, it’s a little easier for me to talk. I think we need to set boundaries. “Rather than trusting each other for no reason or defining your relationship with vague words, draw a clear line and don’t cross it.”

I answered naturally and suddenly thought that this was the most correct answer.

First, acknowledge and accept that each other may have strange feelings about the situation.

‘Me too, and Han Cheonseong too.’

Han Tiansheng did not want to criticize and criticize me for having such personal feelings. Because that is such a cowardly act.

“… … “If you say it is good, what specifically do you think?”

“It’s simple. Let’s maintain our relationship like we do now, but avoid physical contact as much as possible. I’ve said this before, but I know the situations you’re in. So I don’t want to keep my distance completely. “I need you, and you will need me too.”

That’s what I said, but it was a really strange thing.

But I thought this was the most realistic.

It’s important for both parties to recognize that there is a line and try not to cross it.

“Close in heart… … “You’re saying we should stay away from the body.”

“that’s right. Because you are recalling Eustea’s memories. I still want to help you as much as I can. So, even if you lean on me in your heart, I won’t reject you. “Because I want to help you.”

As I answered affirmatively, many of my doubts disappeared a little.

The conclusion was simple.

And I understood why that was.

‘My heart isn’t that big.’

Even if Han Tiansheng has a selfish interest in me, even if he sees me a little differently because of the time we spent together, it is not such a big feeling.

Seeing Han Tiansheng’s calm attitude, I was able to relax a little.

I was at the beginning of a strange feeling.

‘I became self-aware because of Cyprin… … .’

On the contrary, I felt fortunate.

Looking at Han Tiansheng who seemed to be silently considering my words, I waited patiently.

You will understand without saying more, and by talking specifically like this, I was able to clearly establish a line to correct my mind.

“Hey, Major Anastasia. “Can I check one more thing?”

“say.”

It was the moment when we naturally made eye contact.

“You said to avoid physical contact as much as possible. “I would like you to set a specific line on that.”

I stopped when I saw him staring at me and asking.

“… “Specifically?”

“yes.”

That calm voice sounded strangely loud.

***

“… “Specifically?”

“yes.”

As I spoke, I felt like I was standing at another crossroads of fate.

I clearly knew what Anastasia was trying to tell me and what she was worried about.

‘It must be progress in the relationship.’

The longer we spend together, the more we naturally become aware of each other.

Men and women in one space.

They also talk with each other with interest.

They say they are concerned about the many strange relationships that will arise as a result.

‘Honestly, I don’t know.’

Why is Anastasia so cautious and concerned? It was difficult for me to understand.

Just a little while ago, I had a strange thought, wondering if Anastasia had selfish intentions towards me. But after having this conversation, I felt that it was a bit different.

“Then I’ll only allow your hands.”

She made eye contact with me and spoke after much thought, and I calmly agreed.

“yes. All right.”

We both knew from a long time ago that I was Glesia’s lover.

I am in a relationship with her younger sister, Glesia, but do I feel such strange feelings just because she, my lover’s older sister, and I are in the same room?

I thought no.

I definitely felt a strange feeling when Anastasia had traces of Glesia or similar feelings.

… … Anastasia is also an attractive woman.

However, out of selfish interest, I have never expressed anything personal to Anastasia.

On the contrary, the more she became aware of me and the more cautious she was, the more it felt like a backlash was blowing.

By bringing up something that was nothing enough for both of us to just pass by, we became conscious of each other as members of the opposite s*x.

So I opened my mouth without thinking.

“You asked me a little while ago. “Do I have any selfish interest in Major Anastasia or not?”

“That was it.”

Anastasia seemed clearly cautious about my words.

She, who always seemed so relaxed, suddenly felt a little nervous.

So I felt the need to further strengthen my position.

“I don’t think I was very conscious of Major Anastasia as the opposite s*x during our encounter. That is my true answer.”

So I express my feelings without anything to hide.

“… … I see.”

Anastasia stopped and looked at me again.

And it seemed to me that he had misunderstood that he had selfish interests towards her.

“yes. So, let me be more honest now.”

“More honestly?”

As I looked at her asking in a bit of a daze, I let out a slight breath.

“Now that you’ve asked me this, I feel like I’ve become more conscious of Major Anastasia as the opposite s*x.”

“… … !”

Watching her eyes widen, I thought that I should be more honest in times like this.

As for whether all of my past encounters with Anastasia had been calm, that wasn’t the case.

But it felt like it was a catalyst.

Sreuk.

I gently extended my hand and did as she told me.

And at that moment, I saw Anastasia’s eyes suddenly looking at the movement of my hand. Nevertheless, I acted like I was showing off.

Suddenly.

So I gently held Anastasia’s hand and made eye contact again.

“Is this really a line?”

The good intentions she spoke of.

And actions that do not cross the line.

“… … .”

As her eyes wavered slightly, my heart also wavered.