Became an Academy Spearman

871. [Western Front] – There is only you (147)

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Jerk.

Jerk.

The sound of footsteps echoes through the quiet hallways inside the fortress.

And the whole time I was walking, my mind was a bit complicated.

‘Is it okay to act like this?’

Sometimes, I wonder if there’s something wrong with my words and actions. And now it felt bigger.

Anastasia’s last appearance left such a strong impression on me.

When she saw me asking if it was really a line, her eyes seemed to waver for a moment.

It was definitely a moment.

In terms of time, it is a short period of time, perhaps 1 second.

-Okay, this is the line.

But after that, she answered me with calm words and instead held my hand.

As if my actions were nothing.

I definitely felt like she looked shaken when I first held her hand.

She seemed calm to me.

Jerk.

As I took steps to go back, that image continued to haunt me.

‘I can’t understand a woman’s heart.’

Even now, I am trying to have relationships with numerous women and find an attractive woman who is worthy of me. I never thought of myself as bewitching a woman or trying to seduce her.

I don’t really remember seducing someone first, approaching the opposite s*x, and doing something big.

“… … .”

So I wasn’t sure about this.

The reason I think Anastasia was shaken when she looked at me was maybe because I wanted to look at her like that.

The more time we spend together, the more I unconsciously realize that she is an attractive woman, so I wonder if I thought I wanted her without even realizing it.

So maybe it was my ‘misunderstanding’.

Sreuk.

As I clenched my hand, I unconsciously remembered the coldness that touched my hand again.

Hands that were pure white, soft, but extremely cold. And Anastasia’s hand, which held my hand rather tightly… … It gave me a special feeling.

‘I’m not sure that this behavior is a properly drawn line.’

How can I be sure of Anastasia’s feelings?

I smiled and shook my head.

“… “Let’s stop thinking.”

This was just an infinite bounce.

No matter how much I think about it, it’s a problem that will never be answered.

Jerk.

As I took those steps, I realized that I had returned to the enemy barracks. And I saw several people in the hall of the huge barracks at the edge of my field of vision.

As I slowly approached, several people immediately turned to look at me.

There were a total of three people in the hall.

Lieutenant Leria, Ensign Sabrina, and even Ensign Iris.

“So Han Cheon-seong, did you have a good talk with the major?”

“yes. “There was no problem.”

At Lieutenant Leria’s voice, I smiled lightly, hiding my complicated feelings.

“… … That’s truly unbelievable. “How can Major Anastasia like it?”

“It’s hard for me to understand, too.”

Ensign Sabrina and Ensign Iris looked at me and started talking strangely, but I just smiled awkwardly.

“Even I, the person involved, don’t understand.”

The relationship between Anastasia and me became the biggest topic in the first castle.

The only people who know the truth of the rumor are Anastasia and my lover. And since Shiffrin left the Western Front today, I’ve been hearing strange things every day lately.

“That would be nice, because someone as attractive as Major Anastasia likes you.”

Tuk.

Even though she knew the truth of the rumor, I gently held Lieutenant Sabrina’s hand as she rolled her eyes at me for no reason.

“Ensign Sabrina likes it that much.”

And then he said it back exactly as it was.

“under.”

“… … .”

For a moment, the gazes of Lieutenant Leria, who looked shocked, and Ensign Iris, who was speechless, were focused on me, but I calmly looked at Ensign Sabrina, who was standing in front of me.

“that. okay? “Do you really think so?”

As if she didn’t know I was going to fight back, her face immediately turned red and she even stuttered, so I smiled and calmly let go of the hand I was holding and calmly nodded.

“sure. “Ensign Sabrina, you know my heart better.”

“… … Ugh, huh. yes.”

When Ensign Sabrina looked away, as if she was very embarrassed, my eyes naturally turned to the other two people.

“I’ll make room for you.”

“… … me too.”

The two people who naturally avoided my gaze shook their heads, and I found it funny. Whenever they make fun of me, and when I attack them head-on, they get embarrassed and leave the place.

‘It might be more convenient to reveal the relationship.’

My relationship with Lieutenant Sabrina has already become widely known within the enemy circles. Well, since Lieutenant Sabrina showed a different attitude towards me no matter who saw it, I couldn’t hide my relationship.

So, it was already known within the first fortress.

‘It’s just that it was buried because of my relationship with Anastasia.’

As the two quietly left the room, only Lieutenant Sabrina and I were left in the hall.

Sreuk.

As if there was nothing to worry about, I naturally took her hand and sat down on a nearby seat.

“ah… … .”

When she stopped and sat down next to me, I glanced at her.

“… … .”

And didn’t say anything.

She meets my eyes and then averts her gaze for a moment. And it was strangely funny to see our eyes meet again.

Should I say that I feel relieved?

And I realized again that this is how I feel when dealing with a real lover.

As if I don’t need to think or worry, my body’s attitude naturally changes significantly when it treats my lover.

“Are you jealous by any chance?”

“… … Jealousy. “Is there really nothing you can’t say these days?”

“But lately, it seems like you’ve been paying more attention to my meeting with Major Anastasia.”

He spoke calmly and touched her hand that he was still holding.

Slurp.

Although the hands were a little rough, they still looked pretty enough.

Recently, the atmosphere in the enemy barracks has returned to its original state, but there was a really big difference with or without her.

‘Even if Ensign Christina was killed in action… … .’

Those who survived had to return to their original lives.

Everyone’s hearts were too strong to have a hard time missing the dead. Even more than I thought.

And at the center of it all, she who changed Jeok-ik’s mood seemed a little more lovely to me.

“… To be honest, I can’t help but be jealous.”

As she gently manifested mana around me, I realized that her purpose was to block out sound.

Sreuk!

As I was checking it, I felt strength in my hand.

“And no matter how much I know the truth, how can I be okay with my man spending time with another woman? “And just the two of us in a secret room.”

“It’s not like it’s a secret room, it’s Major Anastasia’s office.”

“But what should I do if I don’t like it?”

Tuk.

She spoke calmly and gently leaned her head on my shoulder, which I cautiously accepted.

I knew there was no sign of me around, but I became nervous for no reason.

Although we can only show affection in each other’s inner rooms or in spaces where other people’s eyes cannot reach, the place we are now is the hall of the enemy.

It is not strange if someone comes out of the inner room and sees us at any time.

“And I know you can’t help it.”

“… … “Thank you for understanding.”

I felt a little sorry for joking around here.

“So what did we talk about today? “From what I heard, Shiffrin, who left today, asked very persistently.”

“He was a person who communicated more with words than with thoughts. There’s nothing to worry about or anything like that. “I just talked a little more about it with Major Anastasia.”

“okay?”

“yes. sure.”

I looked down at her asking as she looked up at me and gently raised my hand.

And while I was carefully arranging a few strands of her disheveled hair, our eyes met for a moment.

“You know, maybe it’s because it’s my first time dating. I’m still not sure how to deal with this situation. How do other people take this?”

“… Are you talking about a harem?”

“huh. I accepted this relationship because I liked you, and in fact, I have no regrets even now. Because I am so happy just by leaning on you like this. But I can’t deny that I get jealous. “I have to accept that you are with another woman, but I cannot remain calm.”

Slurp.

Instead of answering, I gently caressed her cheek.

In fact, it was a kind of dilemma.

I can’t solve the harem problem because, in a way, it’s the fundamental dilemma of our relationship.

And I thought they had to overcome it on their own for me to say anything or interfere.

‘It’s cowardly, but.’

That was reality.

“So that’s it. “How is Rune taking it now?”

“… “Well, I don’t know.”

“Isn’t Rune talking about me a lot? She asks why I’m dating her, or says she was in a romantic relationship before me. “Is that also a strange relationship called contract love?”

She strangely curled the corners of her mouth and looked up at me strangely, and I was momentarily speechless when I saw her like that.

I really had nothing to say.

Actually, my relationship with Lieutenant Rune is a very strange one, so I have more complex feelings.

I treat Lieutenant Rune as a lover, but I wonder if that is a relationship that we can both understand.

“Lieutenant Rune doesn’t take things very well either. “He was very surprised when he found out the truth about his relationship with Major Anastasia, and he even complained about me separately.”

“Well, I think Rune would definitely do that to you. “Don’t you just ask for various things because you’re sad?”

In an instant, I saw Ensign Sabrina again.

“… … “How do you know that?”

In fact, Ensign Rune demanded more affection from me than jealousy.

Because he wants to confirm his affection for me with things like a knee pillow or whispering words of love.

“Well, I don’t even know Rune for a day or two, but that much is easy to predict. So what specifically does Rune ask of you? “I think he’ll just ask me to do this or that because he’s jealous.”

I paused at the question as if I was curious.

‘It’s definitely a shared relationship.’

Is it right for me to tell you what I do with other women?

“Are you asking for something difficult to say?”

“that is… … I’m a little embarrassed to say it. Since this is a private area, it would be a bit awkward to reveal this… … .”

“okay? “It’s a bit surprising, I thought you would reveal your relationship with another woman and meet her.”

“We don’t often ask each other about how we spent our time.”

“I see.”

Looking at her with wonder, I was also amazed.

‘Because almost no one has ever asked.’

Even though I’ve been in relationships with several women, I’ve never told another woman who I spend my time with or how I spend my time.

Because they weren’t curious and I didn’t bother to tell them.

However, Ensign Sabrina and Ensign Rune seemed to have different feelings.

Since they have served on the same front line for a long time and know each other well, I wonder if they are strangely trying to share a romantic relationship… … .

“You’re a little cowardly, I told Rune.”

“… … “You mean about me?”

“huh. I told Rune a little bit about how I kiss you when I kiss you, and what words I whisper about my love when we communicate emotions. But Rune says he’s embarrassed by me, but he doesn’t want to talk about it, right?”

“Ahaha.”

I smiled awkwardly and felt very strange.

I thought that could happen depending on the person. And since he was related to me, it was difficult for him to even say that it was a bad thing.

It could well be that the women who share me talk to each other about it.

“So how far did Rune and Jindo go?”

“… “We even kissed.”

“Even a kiss~ Yes, I mean even a kiss.”

side.

As she spoke, she suddenly kissed the back of my neck.

I was momentarily surprised by the naked feeling of the soft lips, but I couldn’t do anything else.

side… … .

She kissed me a few more times, then gently lifted her head from me, and I just stared blankly.

“That contract love thing… … “Why don’t you stop?”

Stop.

That time when I was surprised by something unexpected. She spoke again.

“You and Rune are both very ambiguous. “It’s the same with facing each other, so I hope we decide properly.”

“… … that

“Just accept it. You already reached out to Rune. Then, I want you to definitely reach out.”

Seeing her speaking a little strongly, I was surprised in a different way.

And then he cautiously opened his mouth.

“I’m thinking about taking responsibility too.”

“I thought so too. Of course you would accept Rune… … Even if I leave the Western Front, I will know anyway.”

“You know?”

“This is how I formed a relationship with you. I whispered love, shared affection, and experienced a man called you. Do you know what that feels like?”

“For me, well… … .”

I couldn’t know how the girls who loved me would look at me.

“I can say this with certainty. “There is only you.”

“Ensign Sabrina.”

“No man other than you will ever catch my eye. So, please accept Rune. “You like Rune too.”

As she softly whispered and kissed me again, I gently tilted my head.

And as I received her kiss with my lips, I felt very strange.

Her gaze staring at me.

That attitude of saying another woman’s name while kissing… … .

Tuk.

When we parted our lips after kissing for a while. Suddenly, my head turned.

It was like being popular.

“… … “Really Sabrina, aren’t you being too cowardly?”

As if it was a lie, I saw Lieutenant Rune with a slight frown.