That apple, Why did you come to me?

As we all know, this story may be true.

I am studying to reach a real love with you. In the name of love, I can be with you. however the excitement and emotions that come from physical relationships have a great impact on our lives, so there are many concerns. I was shocked by the connection between life and sex. I realized that life could not be satisfied the way I had lived before. I believe that since my Lord has led me to where you are, He also has a way to overcome the limitations of true love. I write with the love that wants to overcome those limits.

I also sometimes get confused about what I'm doing. My conversation with you is full of images and symbols. I know you through those images and symbols, but they're also lies. I want to love you, so I study the wrapping paper that wraps you. You were crying in the wrapping paper. You said in it, "It's too late, why did you come to me?" I asked you too. "Why did you keep holding me?" Because of the distorted time, my love also becomes more and more distorted. There are moments when I regret starting from the beginning. Introducing myself to you who knows nothing, shouldn't I make everything disappear? But I spoke to you first, and I feel responsible for the problems that followed. I love you so much but I'm not happy. Humans ask God, who created humans, in their distress why He created humans, and they create their own answers. In this distress, I ask God, "Why me and you?" 

The promise has begun, but I hear you complaining. "I don't want to be with you." "You're not the person I want." It is not these complaints that bother me, but your contempt for promises. Even if God had allowed you to be with me, this kind of resentment is not happiness.

You smile again.

'Is she laughing at me?' If you tell me the truth, I can leave right now. You are keeping me in a prison of endless confusion, shaking, and images. People say your love is fake, and that everything about you and me is fabricated. They even say that they manipulated my ego.  According to their words, who am I? Are they saying that those people they created are me? People make you believe a big lie as if it were the truth, and then they casually call it a lie, which leaves you with a great sense of loss. I am afraid that great confusion and lies will disturb the remaining trust of love between you and me. The biggest fear they create is being alone. we become dolls to overcome loneliness. If you have such fear, remember me and good memories and love. I will definitely come. Then, let's tell each other the truth. 

I am with you in your other memories. The memories are fun and funny...And it's thrilling. I am so anxious. If you want to end our love, don't delay. It's not a question of whether you love or not, it's a matter of fact. It's so painful. Do you think I'm just a simple fool? I want to go back to being me who loves God.

I love and deny, regret and suffer. love and deny, regret and suffer, and want to leave. I tell you only the truth. You talk about love and leave sadness and pain in love. Tell me the truth that I am not the cause of your pain. I want to stop regretting. 

Many movies are like my story and the material of love is all similar. It's really my story. I am real and you were real too.