chapter 22
Yuria Taylor-2
“When I heard that you were participating in the festival, I thought you might be able to come in late. But isn’t it a bit too much to come in now?”
You will know it yourself.
I mean, it’s pretty funny that you’re blaming me for coming in late.
I’m not a child, so what’s the problem if I came in at dawn?
There was nothing to figure out YuRia’s intentions.
It’s just that I don’t like myself, and the moment our eyes meet, I get annoyed.
If it’s not him, I wonder if he’s thinking of catching fault and saying something to me.
I know that this kind of family is not normal, but that was the nature of my sister, Yuria, in the first place.
arrogant and arrogant
That’s why he used to look down on those who couldn’t live up to his standards.
There was no way she could see me favorably since I hadn’t been in her eyes since I was young.
In the past, I tried to hold on to it somehow, but…
There was no such thing left now.
If you’re going to hate it, it’s better to receive that heart whole.
After dying 100 times, I realized that YuRia and I could never live together.
“Is that so.”
“That’s right, no. You’re asking if there’s an alternative responsibility or not. Don’t you know that the man in charge of today’s Full Moon Festival is your father? If my father is busy, you and I step in and-”
“I don’t know what to do next. Didn’t you revoke all my authority to do something?”
Lord Soga, directly. YuRia’s eyes narrowed at the quiet voice.
What I don’t remember, even though I do remember, is that that was all I had to say to her.
As a member of the Taylor family, it was Yuria who took over the authority to exercise.
It was for this reason that I was looked down upon by servants and the like at the duke’s residence.
Have you forgotten about it because you never took issue with it?
When I stared at her with an expressionless face, Yuria with a tut and tongue clicked in reply.
“I bet you don’t really think you’re not a member of Taylor just because you’ve revoked your authority. And it was your fault for retrieving the authority.”
it’s my fault Come to think of it, even then, it was the authority that disappeared after blaming the late arrival.
If so, what will you say to me this time? I didn’t even want to hear it.
I just thought that if I just listened like this, it would be a waste of my emotions, so I’d rather just apologize and leave.
“okay. I was wrong.”
“…What?”
“I am apologizing for coming in late. I apologize for causing any concern. I will be careful to come in early next time.”
“I never had any worries.”
that’s not my job
I knew I wouldn’t mind, so for now I just want to go to my room and rest.
After saving Arwen and taking care of Adele in the process, he was physically and mentally tired.
I didn’t know if I touched my emotions, my sharp emotions might come out.
He bowed his head, apologized as politely as possible, and turned around.
There was no need to talk at length with YuRia.
What I encountered today was quite surprising, but that’s it.
That’s what I was thinking.
“He really is like the son my mother cherished.”
…If I hadn’t listened to that, I would have gone back to my room.
My steps stopped abruptly at the fact that I heard that name, Mother.
“Always pampering and nurturing me, and still not realizing my duty. Always caring about my own business, not caring about my family at all. After all, does it mean that if you love, you resemble each other?”
“Sogaju.”
I always tried to make a cool judgment, but I couldn’t do that right now.
I know that Yuria knows what the name mother means to me.
And, isn’t that the sound I spit out even after knowing that the name was a wrath to me?
In an instant, the teeth engaged with a sound.
I knew it was a ploy to upset me.
If there was no reaction, it would just end up looking at me as pitiful.
I know, those words and actions came from the desire to provoke me.
Still, there was a line that people had to follow.
No matter how much I hate it, no matter how much I hate it.
There is a name that should not be spoken of.
“You have always been like that. I used to run away if there was even the slightest disadvantage. That’s why I’m still running away like that. it is not so?”
Yuria had always hated her mother.
Compared to Taylor’s atmosphere, he said he didn’t like it because he was too light and cheerful.
Even though she was the person who gave birth to her, to Yuria, her family was more important than her family.
Maybe it was because I resembled my mother’s personality that she hated me.
If that’s really the reason, it would be childish.
When I turned my head, Yuria faced me with a slightly surprised expression.
I don’t know what my face looks like now. However, it was certain that it would be quite funny.
Showing her an angry expression is probably the first time in this episode.
The corners of his mouth twitched upwards.
Perhaps if you looked in the mirror, your eyes would be bloodshot.
The heat rising from his chest filled his brain.
If I were to say something, wouldn’t it come out with some pretty vulgar language?
However, he endured it.
It was because if I let out a passion here, I would have been caught in her provocation.
I remembered what my father once said.
Aristocrats are beings who must be more polite the more they rage.
“Does it make you feel better when you say that?”
“…what?”
“I asked her if she would feel relieved if she cursed at her own mother and put down my younger sister that much.”
“Robert Tayl-”
“If that is what Soga-lord wants, then we should follow it.”
I could feel the temperature in this hallway gradually getting colder.
It seemed to be warning me that if I twisted even a little, the frozen thorns would pierce each other and bleed.
However, it’s okay. Shedding blood was the thing I was most proud of than anyone else.
“…I did not allow you to continue talking.”
Yuria replied in a calm voice.
Like shattered ice, cold hardened eyes pierced me.
These were the eyes I was so afraid of.
In the past, I was most afraid of opening my eyes like that and swearing at me, saying that I had insulted Taylor.
It was fine now. It is just a woman’s body.
I only had the status of Sogaju, but the name Taylor is no longer precious to me.
So I didn’t avert my gaze. Rather, he met his eyes and opened his mouth as if sarcastic.
“Is that so? I never knew.”
“I didn’t know you would become so spoiled. Was it not enough even after being punished last time? I must have been arrogant because I heard my father’s eyes for a moment. I am the one in charge of this duke’s residence now.”
“I know. That’s why you’re so polite, aren’t you?”
Even though Yuria gripped the sword at her waist, I still didn’t take my eyes off her.
It was a very familiar situation. No, it’s a situation I’ve been through many times before.
Back when I was too stupid to give up the name Taylor. Even then, Yuria was looking at me with those eyes.
-You are Taylor’s shame. Robert Taylor.
I got down on my knees and cried and begged.
Asking for help, while talking about the brother and sister’s affection, he desperately tried to survive.
If you survive like that, there will be a chance to repair the relationship somehow.
We will be able to be friends again, just like when we were children that we can’t even remember. I believed so and tried to live.
-…Contain Robert Taylor underground. Until the habit is corrected, food and water are prohibited.
However, what was the result?
Even though he survived, he was locked in a cold room and died without seeing another person’s face until he died.
I tried to live without giving up on meals that didn’t come down until I died.
He chewed up the rat that had escaped through the gap and dipped his mouth in the beast’s blood to somehow survive.
died nonetheless The moment she knelt down to YuRia, it seemed that her fate had already been decided.
I died like that and lived the next episode.
what was so wrong
If it’s wrong to be empty because you want to live, that’s a very funny story.
As her eyebrows twisted at the passing memories, YuRia glanced at me as if she was dumbfounded.
It must be that I don’t like this situation itself, where I say something to myself.
I was just a coward who never dared to meet her eyes, always under her.
“With Sogaju’s authority, I can directly dispose of the people who cause trouble. You should know.”
“Is it a riot I am causing?”
“If you just said that you have been deprived of all authority, what is it if it is not a riot to confront me on such a subject? I’m serious now, Robert Taylor.”
She strode toward me, holding out the sword that was bestowed upon her appointment as Sogaju.
Did you think that it would scare you? The hand holding the sword trembled at my casual attitude.
Yuria let out a small sigh. Wrinkled eyes turned to me.
Ignoring the emotion in those eyes, I just waited to see what she would say.
What will this foolish woman say next?
Every word that came out of her tongue was her karma. A karma that will return to her later and become a sword and poison.
By the time there was silence for a long time, YuRia looked at me and pursed her lips.
“You seem to hate Taylor. Ever since I was little, I have never shown any affection for my family.”
“Do you think so?”
A smile leaked out of me. YuRia frowned as if she was displeased at my smiling face.
However, it was something I couldn’t help but laugh at. I didn’t hate Taylor.
If he had truly hated this family, he would not have repeated the regression he had so far.
I just gave up now.
Now that I know that nothing can be changed with my personal efforts, isn’t it all about giving up my wishes and just wishing for death?
I laughed. Because her question is funny, because the misunderstanding she is making herself is funny.
“You thought so. Did you think I hated Taylor?”
I took a big step forward and stood in front of Yuria.
It was the first time I had ever looked down like this since she was much shorter than me.
When I knelt down and looked at her, she looked quite large, but thinking of her as such a shabby woman made me smile.
“…Wrong. Lord Soga.”
“What do you mean?”
“I don’t hate the Taylor family. but.”
After a pause, she looked at YuRia again.
I didn’t know that I would say these words myself. It was something I had always thought about but never said.
If I did, my wish would be distorted, and it was because I didn’t have the confidence to deal with it.
However, there is nothing to shy away from now.
After defeating Theresia, I had nothing to fear anymore.
I continued to speak slowly to YuRia, who was staring blankly at me.
His voice was so quiet and calm, it sounded like the voice of a doll.
“I just hate you.”
this was my scream
I wanted to shout out several times in my past life, but I couldn’t bear to shout and buried it in my heart.
What kind of answer will she give to this silent scream?
The eyes that had always been frozen cold were not there.
There is only one woman with a stupid expression on her face staring at me with a stiff face.
There was no sound coming out of his slightly open mouth.
After looking at YuRia for a while, she turned her back and started walking.
“I’ll go, Soga-lord.”
There was no longer any desire to continue the relationship of siblings.
It didn’t matter to me what she thought, or if she changed her mind at these words.
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Just as water that has flowed cannot be picked up again, so is our relationship.
Even while moving forward with YuRia behind,
There was a voice ringing in my ears.
It was a voice I had ignored in my life.
It was a voice that I had been obsessed with, foolish lingering, and never acknowledged.
…I hated Yuria.
I just felt like an idiot for realizing it now.