chapter 21
21 – Champion, Secret
Myrcene’s body spreads as light particles. I don’t know where they sent it, but I can’t afford to worry about that right now.
It was because the face of Rain, who had come closer than before, was a little scary.
It seems to be a distance where our lips can touch if we get closer. I can feel every breath and exhale.
“Really?”
There are only two of them. Lane says that in casual language. Here ‘Oh! right!’ It was not difficult to think what kind of reaction would come back when I answered. However, I didn’t want to tell lies in front of Lane, so I just kept silent.
And the saying came to mind that silence means consent. Unbeknownst to me, I ended up tacitly agreeing with Lane’s words. Even worse, in the worst form of ignoring the other person’s question.
“tell me.”
ask. It’s a tone that’s harder to refuse because it’s not a threat, it’s an expression of earnestness.
As if to hear the answer coming out of my mouth, Lane continued to ask me, gently stroking my bandage and saying.
The hand moved automatically to that touch that was compatible with the same determination and tenderness as before.
yes you are the same as before It hasn’t changed.
warm and classy. Even though they have power, they do not use it recklessly.
“Ron. What are you trying to do?”
Lane held my hand as I slowly ascended. Thanks to that power, the raised hand did not move anymore.
“Ah. It tickles me a little.”
It was true, but even if you think about it, it was something that you could doubt.
“What are you talking about all of a sudden?”
suspicion that follows. It was a natural flow.
“You suddenly disappeared without any news, but wrap up your bandages and come to the academy. Subdue the Empire’s demonic realm and even hit the princess with your tail. I have no intention of interfering with your actions. Wasn’t that something you could do?”
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No, that’s meddling and trying to restrain you. We decided to coolly disband the party and go our separate ways. To say .., I thought that I had cut off the relationship like a knife without even contacting myself.
“I am.”
I continue talking as if I’m worried about Lane, who made me put my hand on her lap.
“I wondered why you were hiding your eyes, why you didn’t contact me because of what had happened, and why the rumors about you traveling all over the continent didn’t spread.”
“Really? I see.”
Unfortunately, what Lane was curious about and whether or not I would answer that question were two entirely different issues. All I can tell you right now is the vague answer of ‘to forget something’.
“Of course I respect your opinion. But… I want you to let me know in an honest way.”
There was no contact to the extent that you might think you were abandoned. It didn’t matter whether it was a hand jjigeom that shed tears from betrayal or annoyance. However, even in this situation, the negative emotions that I have planted deep in my head start to overflow as you try to respect my opinion.
“..No, what are you doing..!!”
Raine raises her voice in a rare way and grabs my arm. what? why? As I was about to say that, I felt a deep pain that was a step behind me.
I thought it was a little better, but it wasn’t.
I thought I could watch it with a smile, but I didn’t.
Every time Lane shows the noble appearance he often showed when he was the first hero, the ugly self-deprecation continues.
clearly-
If Mirsen had acted like Lane instead of me, I would have been able to answer faster.
If it had been Rain, he would have been able to deal with such an unexpected situation without a single wound.
if it were you
“What are you doing!!”
“..uh? what?”
“Why are you doing that!!”
Lane’s magic wave was clearly disturbed. It was the first time I had ever seen Rain’s magical waves wavering so irregularly, as he lived by the saying ‘A warrior must always remain calm’.
Even when I couldn’t hold back my anger, I couldn’t help but refine the magic wave.
Her golden magic touches my skin. At the same time, the stinging sensation gradually subsided. He used healing magic that he couldn’t even use well. It seemed like it had grown a lot compared to the old days.
“Huh? Have you practiced some healing magic?”
“Don’t talk about it.”
pop.
For a moment, it felt as if all sounds in the world had stopped and the temperature had dropped.
As soon as I felt the chill, I got goosebumps. I stopped talking at the emotionless, accusing voice of hers.
“Uh… are you mad?”
I asked just in case. If it were Rain, even when he was angry, he would say ‘no’ and take a deep breath to find his composure.
However, the answer that came back was different from what I expected.
“Yeah. Very.”
Wow. get angry That first hero, Rain Guardon, famous for his composure. Not just angry, but very angry. because of whom? because of me!
.. It wasn’t the time to lose my mind while thinking about such a good idea.
“What are you hiding, what’s inside those bandages, why are you trying to hide it from me, who’s been with you the longest, and why did you show it to the princess… I don’t understand everything. That’s why I’m annoyed and angry.”
Being able to recite the reason why you are angry is considered great in itself. But that’s what makes it even scarier.
Warrior Rain Guardon was the most reliable leader among his colleagues, but on the other hand, he was a fearful being who could not be expected to be angry.
Even when Odrox gets drunk with the excitement of battle and refuses to follow her orders,
Even when Lian was unable to use healing magic when it was really important because he used his holy power on small cuts such as abrasions and bruises,
Even when Solar is annoyed by talking back to instructions,
Even when I failed in reconnaissance and the party was ambushed,
Lane wasn’t angry. I just calmly thought of the next best thing and put it into action.
So while we all wondered what Lane would be like when he was angry, we prayed that she never really got angry. Because it was unknown what kind of disaster would happen if a person so close to perfection expressed his anger.
“Uh… I’m sorry.”
“Don’t end it with apologies. I want us to have a relationship of equals. A relationship where we share secrets and care for each other.”
After saying that, Lane pondered for a few seconds, then held my hand tightly and said with a nuance as if she had made up her mind.
“I’ll tell you my secret, so I want you to tell me a little bit of what you’ve been hiding.
..As the first hero and the president of the academy, I, Reign Guardon, think of you, Ron, in a special way.”
..what?
“what?”
coincidence of thought and speech. In case I didn’t hear it, Lane personally said the same sentence as before.
“What does that mean?”
“This cookie.
Goosebumps sprouting up on my arms at my exact taste in food, even though I didn’t say it.
“From the moment I was convinced that you came to the academy, the other cadets were pushed to the bottom of the list. To me, you are my number one priority.”
slow down. Even though I sat with my back on the sofa, I wanted to go further back, so I pulled my butt tight.
“When you’re with another woman, my heart throbs like a tight squeeze. All I want to do is say something to her: ‘Don’t touch Ron.'”
The further I went, the more I lost my mind for a moment. Even so, Lane’s clear voice continued to convey ‘his secret’ directly to my brain.
“Even though I’ve always made up my mind to be honest, I keep coming up with ugly feelings. Sometimes I just masturbate for hours while thinking of you.”
..no wait.
It’s a secret I really didn’t want to know. I just think it would have been better for both of us to keep it a secret.
“I masturbated while thinking of your eyes at that time when they weren’t covered with a bandage, thinking of your eye smile, and drawing the touch I felt from occasional contact. It seemed like a sense of shame and longing only increased, but I couldn’t stop.”
stop. stop talking I didn’t want to hear about the first hero’s masturbation.
“Once a day. Four or five times at most. The number of times that has continued so far. This is my secret and shame. Now, tell me your secret.”
..great. What kind of reaction should I show?
Fortunately, there were many options.
There are three things I can do in this situation. Infantile regression, memory loss, deafness.
..Which of the three reactions should I show to get over this situation well?