chapter 22
22 – solve.
Know. A myriad of refuges won’t be the best option after all.
What I need now is to reveal my secret, which has the same position as my secret revealed by Lane.
But I’ve never had a daughter thinking of you.
‘No, let’s not keep escaping from reality.’
What she wanted, she had already said with her own mouth.
What I was hiding, what was under the bandages, and why I was trying to hide it from myself.
“So, what do you want from me?”
“..Tell me about my confession later. I’m not ready either.. I want you to start by telling me what you’re hiding with your bandages.”
yes. it’s better A grace period is also good.
You just have to show it, right? You don’t have to tell me why, right?
“Do I have to tell you why?”
“..No, you can tell me later when you make up your mind. For now, you can just.. show it.”
Was it to restrain me, or was it to give me trust?
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No matter what. I responded by bringing my hand to the knot in the bandage.
And the double-tight knot…
the knot…
“Can you free me?”
won’t work
When I asked this shyly, Lane nodded and approached.
“By the way, shouldn’t you be surprised or disliked if I act strangely?”
She hesitated for a moment at my questionable words, then said ‘Of course it should’ and untied the knot.
As the bright sunlight hits my retinas, I see the face of the first warrior, Rain Guardon, whom I haven’t seen in a long time.
It’s the same as back then when I tied my hair together. But the length is longer than before.
Even the eyes that seem to contain the will as it is, and the eyes with strong conviction are all the same.
It wasn’t armor, but the academy’s uniform. It was probably a little fresh to wear that uniform given to the dean. Because you preferred to wear armor wherever you were in the palace.
I was relieved because everything was you as before, and I looked more shabby because everything was you as before.
I have changed. If it’s you, no, if you’re someone who knows the old me, you’ll realize it unconditionally.
yes. like your expression now.
I’m probably the only one in this world who can distort the first hero’s expression that much. Just thinking about it makes me shrug my shoulders again.
However, if the distorted expression is not anger but embarrassment and sadness, the story will be different.
“What else are you going to be so surprised about?”
I looked at the same old, but gloomy, sunken lane as I looked at my face, and slowly raised my nails and brought my two hands to my face.
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Your eyes were like a starry night sky. It was a beautiful eye that I wanted to keep looking at, as if I was going to be sucked into it without my knowledge.
I enjoyed looking into your eyes during my short break. You always stared at me and smiled at me while you were always in my look.
I liked seeing my face reflected in those eyes like the night sky. It feels like only I exist in your eyes and mind.
And you, reunited, covered your eyes. ‘It’s inconvenient, so why don’t I loosen it up?’ I wanted to suggest, but it was hard to say because there didn’t seem to be any problems other than looking at people’s expressions.
Even more so, even at the moment of exploring the labyrinth together, you proceeded with your eyes closed. Its reconnaissance skills seemed sharper, but from the point of view of the viewer, it was a little uneasy.
If there’s something you want to hide, you can. I admitted to myself. But you said you showed the princess the face inside the bandage too easily.
I didn’t like it.
Another woman entering your black eyes, where only I should exist.
So I pushed you a little bit. I said that I want to have an equal relationship with you, revealing what I had been hiding.
You took off the bandage without saying anything about the action, which was no different from coercion.
It was a little disappointing. When I heard that I masturbated while imagining myself, I was expecting a little bit of how he would react. I wanted to feel your alive emotions, whether you were condemning or hating. Because I didn’t feel meaningful emotions from you who covered my eyes.
And I heard your words that broke the atmosphere as always, but I didn’t hate it. to release
With a pounding heart, I untied the knot tied to you.
Will the same jet-black eyes welcome me? It might have gotten a little cloudy while going around the continent. So maybe it’s covered up.
As if mocking my curiosity and expectations, I felt the blood start to drain from my face when I saw your face revealed in front of me.
“What else are you going to be so surprised about?”
The look of Ron laughing so flatly. The subtle eye smile that I remembered was back, but everything else was preventing me from focusing on it.
scar.
part covered with a bandage.
The scar around the eye that I loved and loved the most.
A scar caused by relentlessly scratching the eye area.
From a light wound to a wound so deep that the pain can be felt.
The moment I saw the scars I didn’t know I had since we broke up the party, anger welled up in my heart.
Who, why, why, when, where.
“who is this.”
A surprisingly low voice came out. And the voice was a little bit locked.
If you think about it, the answer is already out there. Didn’t Ron himself continue to give him room?
I took Ron’s hand as he climbed back up. Tighten so that it never escapes. All eight fingernails from the index finger to the little finger were broken and sharp.
As if it was broken on purpose to make it easy to hurt.
“Why did you do that?”
“Huh? What?”
Even if you try to stay ignorant, you can’t cheat in the yard that has already been caught.
The scars concentrated around the eyes were created by self-harm.
Judging by the pale, deep, still reddish complexion, it seemed that she had been harming herself until recently. If I hadn’t stopped him just now, he might have slashed his face with those sharp claws again.
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New scars open around those obsidian eyes in front of me.
Just thinking about it makes my hamstrings tingle and my body loosens up.
“Why did you do that…”
Ron, who is consistent in answering my question once again, remains silent. I said you don’t have to say it if you don’t want to say it, but now my tone was coercive to anyone.
My hand, which was holding his hand, was moving toward his collar before I knew it.
I feel a swirl of soggy, pitch-black emotions. The hero’s attitude, which he had tried to maintain for a long time, was about to collapse.
But, does that really matter?
A warrior’s mindset. However, I am now the dean of the academy who has stepped down from the front lines.
A warrior’s mindset, determination, integrity… I don’t need those concepts anymore.
“theory.”
The important thing now was not my petty mindset.
“If you don’t want to talk, you don’t have to.”
..yes. You don’t have to talk if you don’t want to talk. I won’t tell you to forget the past you don’t like.
It’s just that from now on, I just have to protect it.